Well its 12:58 am here and ive had all day to think about myself. I very unhappy with myself. First off I am 22 and being overweight really sux. Thats the best way I can put it.
well about me I am about 250~ Ilbs and im 5 foot 5 inches. yeah I know very overweight /sigh. I can already tell this is going to be a hard journey I know I can do it though.
Well back in 2004 I weighd about 240 roughly but in that Oct. of that year I started to exercise and diet and saw a major improvement in myself and it got to christmas time and I just stopped. I dont know what I did or why I stopped. I was doing great I was hitting the gym 5 days a week cardio for an hour weights for about 30 min. I was gungho so to speak. I truely wish I would have stuck with it I know by now I would be in shape and yadayada ...
well now I weigh more and I realize this. I am broke college student trying to figure out ways I can loose weight. I mean I know the ways eat better and exercise duhhh..... But normally healthy food costs more. Everyday im like ok this is my last meal im gonna order from chilis and start my diet tommrow. You know how long ive been saying that?
I keep just putting it off I gotta stop that and i Realize that. Being overweight has ruined a lot about me. My confidence is low I dont like going out im just embarresed and I just plain out dont think im good enough for anyone. I mean I know its not true but you cant help but feel that way.
I keep thinking to myself man I need to loose weight. I want to loose weight and be healthy and look good. I dont want to be mr.olympia and I dont wanna be just skin and bones. I just wanna feel good and look into the mirror and be ok with myself.
I know some of you out there have had or do have the same problems as me. I dont want a last meal of eating fried foods I just want to get up and go run right now.
My friends my guy friends there all skinny and look decent always getting numbers when we go out and im just sitting there looking stupid.
Sometime I just lay in bed and picture myself with less weight but yet I do nothing about it. I am hoping this is a step for me to make the change. I hope tommrow I can wake up put on my shoes and go for a jog. I know ive already taken one step I just threw out my klondike bars and got my friends to come over and take my beer and coke.
sorry for the long post actually I could probly go on all night but I am gonna stop seeing as this is way too long I am sorry. but I do feel a little better just typing something out. any support of anything I would be truely gratefull.
well about me I am about 250~ Ilbs and im 5 foot 5 inches. yeah I know very overweight /sigh. I can already tell this is going to be a hard journey I know I can do it though.
Well back in 2004 I weighd about 240 roughly but in that Oct. of that year I started to exercise and diet and saw a major improvement in myself and it got to christmas time and I just stopped. I dont know what I did or why I stopped. I was doing great I was hitting the gym 5 days a week cardio for an hour weights for about 30 min. I was gungho so to speak. I truely wish I would have stuck with it I know by now I would be in shape and yadayada ...
well now I weigh more and I realize this. I am broke college student trying to figure out ways I can loose weight. I mean I know the ways eat better and exercise duhhh..... But normally healthy food costs more. Everyday im like ok this is my last meal im gonna order from chilis and start my diet tommrow. You know how long ive been saying that?
I keep just putting it off I gotta stop that and i Realize that. Being overweight has ruined a lot about me. My confidence is low I dont like going out im just embarresed and I just plain out dont think im good enough for anyone. I mean I know its not true but you cant help but feel that way.
I keep thinking to myself man I need to loose weight. I want to loose weight and be healthy and look good. I dont want to be mr.olympia and I dont wanna be just skin and bones. I just wanna feel good and look into the mirror and be ok with myself.
I know some of you out there have had or do have the same problems as me. I dont want a last meal of eating fried foods I just want to get up and go run right now.
My friends my guy friends there all skinny and look decent always getting numbers when we go out and im just sitting there looking stupid.
Sometime I just lay in bed and picture myself with less weight but yet I do nothing about it. I am hoping this is a step for me to make the change. I hope tommrow I can wake up put on my shoes and go for a jog. I know ive already taken one step I just threw out my klondike bars and got my friends to come over and take my beer and coke.
sorry for the long post actually I could probly go on all night but I am gonna stop seeing as this is way too long I am sorry. but I do feel a little better just typing something out. any support of anything I would be truely gratefull.