Here i GO!!!!

[Phoenyx]

That's the spirit!

And look at how active you were this weekend... You're doing good on that. And the belly dancing... I can testify to that! It is a GREAT workout for your core, your thighs, everything.

If you are one for workout DVDs... I highly recommend Michelle Joyce's 'Body by Belly Dance'. She's got several out, but that one and the one called 'Drills Drills Drills' are probably my current favorites by her. 'Perfect Hips' is also pretty good, but I like BBD a lot better.

 

[Kristi]

Hey there!

I just read through your whole journal and I have to say that you are doing a great job! You are making so many changes and it is normal to feel these emotions. It is very hard, but it is worth it. You are worth the quality of life that healthy eating and exercise are giving you. I know that you will do even better once the routine sets in. I know that it's hard to want to eat what you've always eaten. I'm from southern Louisiana and that's all we do around here: cook and eat!! Maybe try making just a few small adjustments to your family recipes. I've started doing that and I'm getting used the the "new" tastes of my "old" food. It's hard to eat healthy when everyone else seems to be enjoying themselves and seemingly not having to worry about what they eat...but it really isn't doing them any favors either! It might be a good idea to let your family know that you are trying to eat healthy so that they won't bring over all kind of treats. I had to have a long LONG talk with my hubby about never buying white bread or white rice again. This is not to say that I won't ever eat it again, but at least it won't be in my house tempting me!! Anyway, keep it up and know that you are not alone in this! We are all in this together

~Kristi

 

[artmonster]

Oh my gosh ! talk about a test of will!!




Your day can be classified as an episode of the WLF Twilight Zone...lol


But you know what? You were conscious of your journey the whole time. And You didnt give up. Dont let yourself get down for having foods that you didnt plan.....this journey isnt short time.....its for life.

so in the scheme of things....the bad day you had yesterday is only a mouse-fart in the timeline of your reconstruction........you'll be able to shake your bikini'ed butt at taco bell in defiance before you know it.


Keep your chin up. No matter what happens, you are still better off than you were before you started this transformation.

 

[Ugotwillugotway]

^^thank you everyone for those supporitive words, means a lot.

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DAY 7

MORNING!!! 10.17am

I am currently having breakfast

BF- One whole wheat 6 grain bagel with regular cream cheese (can't stand light) with slices of cucumber on top and lots of h20

Snack - no-fat yogurt

Lunch - Tuna sandwich with tomato's, lettuce, bit of mayo and mustard and cucumber along with a peach and H2O

Snack- Slim fast bran muffin bar

Dinner - Still thinking of it, I'll post it when I know.


I am planning on going running on my treadmill after breakfast, shower and then I gotta go to my doctors to get a physical done for school that starts for me in Sept (college), going for Pharmacy so we all need to get a physical and health check before we can enter placements such as hospital pharmacies,etc.



Cheers to another day and a week beat!!!!

 

[maverick2]

Man, don't they know it's rude to ask a lady her weight?

Congrats on your willpower. Even if you slip-up a little, it's only a day. Seems like you've done the smart thing and just moved on to the next healthy day. Nobody's perfect.

You're doing a great job!

 

[Ugotwillugotway]

Man, don't they know it's rude to ask a lady her weight?

Congrats on your willpower. Even if you slip-up a little, it's only a day. Seems like you've done the smart thing and just moved on to the next healthy day. Nobody's perfect.

You're doing a great job!

I so agree with you.
I tried to tell them that my weight is personal and I don't feel happy about it, and that I would like to keep it to myself but they kept on insisting that I was crazy to think that I was that heavy and that im THAT embarrassed of family, but you know how relatives are? They think if they love you enough they have the power to know EVERYTHING lol.

I gave up because I hate when ppl begged, I did it out of anger to just PROVE TO THEM that YES!!! I am 268 pounds.

So, but i have a feeling that it was good that , that happend because it knocked some sense into me and stopped me from further drugging my body with Taco Bell.

 

[Ugotwillugotway]

4.46pm
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I ran on my tradmill for 20 min, went for a mile, it\s not much this is my 2nd time running so I'm very proud of myself.

Had a shower then I had a bunch of things to do today. Had to go to the doctors to see about the physical but it was booked so I couldn't get that done, went to my college to get some registration papers for my 2nd year then me and my girlfriend who's a close friend went to eat for lunch at Applebee's with my little son and I think that I could have gone for the salad but since I figured that I don't go out much neway since I'm so freakishly busy that I might as well enjoy a nice meal.

I had this cheese pasta with grilled chicken in it and a piece of bread. I asked for whole wheat everything and they didn't serve it, which was strange as hell. It was a fairly small bowl nothing major and of course a big glass of water on the side. I could have gotten the vanilla ice cream scoops on top of a nut brownie which is all then covered with hot fudge but I said "not today mister" and instead we both had a strawberry smoothie,yes of course it's packed with sugar probably but how many times do I really get one? Like NEvER!! So it's not something that I will be running back for one anyday soon, one for this year enough lol, plus summer is almost over so no worries for those freezing smoothies.

I am planning to go for another bike ride this time with my angel attached to the bike and so i will try to burn as many calories as i possibly can while bike riding.

I think that I pretty much covered my calorie intake for the day with all those carbs today so Instead of having a dinner after my bike ride I think I will rather have a little tiny snack like a peach or no fat yogurt.

Yay!!!!

 

[Ugotwillugotway]

7.01pm

I'm bacrk from my bike ride.
I went with my little angel (my almost 3 year old son) and we went biking thru this forest specially made for bikrs/runners or just ppl who simply would like to talke a relaxing walk thru nature.

I worked my legs hard and I conquered every uphill without slowing down and I did using my highest gear (the hardest) woot woot, ((pasta you can walk your calories out the door now)))

I just had a peach and two glasses of H2O.
I feel very good.

Off to a shower

 

[Kristi]

Great work on the treadmill and the bike! I bet your son loves biking with you. My son is 1 and a half and I bet he would really like it. I have a bike, but no child seat yet. Well, keep it up!!!
~Kristi

 

[minus86]

so in the scheme of things....the bad day you had yesterday is only a mouse-fart in the timeline of your reconstruction........

LOL! LOL! I just spit water out my nose!!!

You really are doing great. Just the fact that your are making an effort says a lot about your motivation to keep going.

I really, really agree with the things that pastelroses already wrote to you. Just keep in mind to make small changes. Don't try to freak yourself out too much at one time, or you will set yourself up for failure. And you can't keep feeling guilty about the times when it feels like you are taking a step backwards.

I'm sure it took you more than one week to gain this weight, right??? So, it will take you more than one week to take it off. Plus, this isn't just a quick fix that you are looking for, this is an entire lifestyle change. It's more than just food. It's physically changing your body and emotionally changing your mind. Gotta just take it one day at a time, one meal at a time.

Also, as pastelroses said, I think you should tell your family. I bet they will be supportive, and even make a concerted effort to not bring so many treats into the house. Hey, this will also help them out too.

Healthy never hurt anybody, right? HANG IN THERE GIRL!!! You can do this.

 

[artmonster]

Oh Ya !

sounds like a great day!

Biking through the forest with your child.....I cant think ofanything better to tell you the truth

Im glad you had a good day today, you deserve it !!!!

there are many more to come

 

[Ugotwillugotway]

Thanks guy I really love you all for those super words, you put a big on my face this night.

It's 10.47pm, I bathed my munchkin not too long ago, we had a hell of a day biking and playing in the park for almost 2 hours and you better believe it when I tell you that he did make me go up on the monkey bars and slides with him, I kinda had to sqeeze into the slide lmao but it was well worth it.
He's sound asleep now and I have some time for myself.

I haven't eaten as I said previously after that pasta lunch only because I feel like I had enogh to eat , too many cabrs but I didn't deny them only because I made a deal with myself. Eat it, enjoy it, don't hold back but no more food today after this, so thats whats going down.

I had a 35 calorie no fat yogurt around 7ish and a peach and tons of H2O. I won't lie, my stomach is growling as I type but I think that I'm not REALLY all too hungry I just think it needs THINGS in there to be happy but no thanks flabby gut, shut ur mouth and GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Ugotwillugotway]

DAY 8
12.30pm

Had Breakfast
one slice of 100% whole wheat bread, cut that one thin slice into two and then spread chicken paste over it and topped it off with cucumbers, I had a little one of those cakes to get that urge out of the way so better morning then late night.

In about 30 min I will have a snack of some healthy sort because my breakfast was fairly small and I'm beginng to get sick of getting hungry at night because I get too scared to eat more during the daytime.

Last night I started to get very hungry around 11ish, I started to feel naseous so I had to put something inside my body because I could tell that starving myself won't do me much.

I had a whole wheat 6 grain bagel with some cream cheese and chicken bologna and 2 glasses of water. I then just went to bed, I realized that I was still hungry but I refused to eat anything else, this was just to settle my body.

I had only a pasta lunch and I think I freaked out because of all the carbs and haven't eaten anything after that lunch which as at 2.30ish or 3pm but I've read thru these diaries and I saw that lots of ppl will indulge in a bowl of some kind of pasta and still follow their normal daily routine of snacks and dinner afterwards, so phew thank goodness I found that out.

I'm thinking about running on my treadmill shortly, i can proudly say that ive been active every day so far in some way so yay for me.

I'm sad to see my pounds are not moving as fast I would like them too but I bought measuring tape yesterday and I will start to measure myself today.
I will continue to measure myself once a week and I'll post the results.
I figure if I cant get much satisfaction from my scale numbers maybe them inches will make me happier.


K I just weighed myself and WTF?????
It said like 269lbs...HOW??????????
I've been running and biking like a moron everyday and eating properly...????
I'm so pissed!!! Shit I'd expect to see at least SOME results and not a GAIN!!

 

[crazygirl1]

Your body fluctuates about 2 lbs on a daily basis. You may want to consider if you're near your monthly cycle, you may retain more water. Don't let this be a set a back in anyway. No matter what the number on the scale says, you're improving yourself from the inside out. Keep it up, girl.

 

[minus86]

I'm sad to see my pounds are not moving as fast I would like them too but I bought measuring tape yesterday and I will start to measure myself today.
I will continue to measure myself once a week and I'll post the results.
I figure if I cant get much satisfaction from my scale numbers maybe them inches will make me happier.


K I just weighed myself and WTF?????
It said like 269lbs...HOW??????????
I've been running and biking like a moron everyday and eating properly...????
I'm so pissed!!! Shit I'd expect to see at least SOME results and not a GAIN!!

I think that is a great idea to get the tape measure. I have read a lot of people definitely think that is the way to go. Also, thanks for the support in my diary! I really appreciate it.

So, I gotta repeat what you told me...

We "have to keep going or else the results will work against [us] and go the other direction." Hee hee... the best advice I can give you is your own! How funny is that?

Good luck! Once you put those measurements up, I bet you'll start seeing a difference in those numbers.

 

[Ugotwillugotway]

Crazygirl - THanks. Actually I just ended my cycle so that is why maybe I haven't been losing much at all, I know before when I would diet and exercise I'd lose quiet a few pounds at first but then again I wasnt on my cycle like now. So i'll give it a few more days before i freak out lol.

And Minus u r right, my own words have come back to bite me in my butt but u are right. I cant give up now, i've come too far.
Today I did indulge a little too much and I did let myself go JUST A TAD, but I guess we all have a really bad day sometimes where we really just don't care for a moment. But as soon as im typing this I really am going go force myself to go run on my treadmill because today I havent done ANYTHING lol.

Here is my shame of food for the day:

Breakfast - as posted above, whole wheat bread sandwich with mayo, lettuce, chicken bologna and Proccessed cheese I know I KNOW!!!!!

Lunch - I attempted to make a soup full of veggies but I added somethinggg in there that made it soo gross to eattt, I had a bowl and then I gave up and just made another one of those sandwiches like for breakfast (HEY!! At least the bread was like 400% whole wheat coz it felt like cardboard ).

snack: yogurt and water

Dinner: Here is the bad stuff. We bough fried chicken and potato wedged.
I did eat two chicken breasts which were fried BUT! I took of the skin and just at the white meat and I had a little portion of the wedges (they were hard as rock neway , never buying them again). And I had water.

Okey so maybe i didn't eat THAT much but with that said, I did eat many carbs today and fatty stuff.

My day of letting go is done.

 

[minus86]

What did you put in the soup to make it taste gross?

I bet you will feel SO much better after working out on the treadmill. And hey, at least the bologna was chicken instead of the regular gooble-dee-gock that it normally is, right.

Not that I'm trying to justify it for you!!! Gotta get those veggies in there, girl.

Tomorrow you can DEFINITELY do it!!! Keep up the motivation!

 

[Ugotwillugotway]

What did you put in the soup to make it taste gross?

I bet you will feel SO much better after working out on the treadmill. And hey, at least the bologna was chicken instead of the regular gooble-dee-gock that it normally is, right.

Not that I'm trying to justify it for you!!! Gotta get those veggies in there, girl.

Tomorrow you can DEFINITELY do it!!! Keep up the motivation!

I think the corn that I put in there totally threw the soup of.
It gave it a real funky nasty smell, like too cornish.

I think that it was way too watery also, I could have used more seasoning but I kinda was making things from scrap as I went along.
I went a little TOO crazy on the soup today even tho I make pretty darn good soup lol (when I know what im doing).

I know what u mean about those veggies, I don't eat enough of em.
I'm a veggie hater but I have to force myself to eat em somehow.
Maybe V8???? *pukes* God lol...I was just not blessed with a veggie loving heart I guess.

 

[minus86]

Ok, back to the juicer thing... It is so easy to get the vitamins from all those veggies without having to eat, and eat, and eat green stuff. You should see the amount of veggies I juice to get 8-10oz of juice. I am always amazed. Sure, I am not getting ALL the nutrients, but I know I am definitely getting a great majority of them.

I have a whole cookbook on soups, and am going to start trying more of them. I'll let you know if I find any yummy recipes... since I am posting the good recipes in my diary... This week I am planning on making a roast in the crockpot, and then with the leftovers I will be making green chile stew. YUMMY!

Well, I'm heading out of work and off to the gym now. You'll get a hang of the veggie thing, just gonna take time to find what you really like.

Seeya after a while...

 

[Ugotwillugotway]

ahh yes the juicer lol.

I need to really try that sucker, it might be my only chance of getting some veggie action going on in my life.

Im gonna go look up vegetable recipes on google now because google is my friend.

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11.35pm

OK, so about a hour ago I was on my treadmill. YAY!!!
I lost 266 calories, went for about 1.60miles, for 30 minutes.
Once again, I was sweating like a cow on the run, even my arms were sweating i was so amazed and happy.

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I've been having 2 crappy days but I'm glad that my activity levels have stayed the same. I'm really rooting for myself here, I don't want to give up.
Almost 9 days in, I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!