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Today wasn't good for me for so many reasons... It started with my 8 year old son waking me up at 4:30 to ask me if I knew where his Harry Potter book was.. I thought I was dreaming. When I realized I wasn't.. I was livid.. 4:30 in the morning?!? I told him no and attempted to go back to sleep- but couldn't. Last night I wasn't able to get to sleep until about 1 AM, it's humid and the AC in the bedroom died, which just messed up my sleep.
When I don't get my sleep I'm not good to be around.
I dragged myself all day- and it was humid. It was like no matter what I did I failed at it today. I tried taking the kids out in the pool, the yard is infested with mosquitos ... I don't really ever remember having a mosquito problem in the middle of the day, but the rain here has been nuts, I suppose that's what brought them out.. I didn't exercise & kept telling myself I'll do it later- I never did. I couldn't get up the energy to do it and had no motivation to do it.
I ate very little at first today- cereal for breakfast w/ skim milk, for lunch peanut butter and jelly sandwich, not sure why- I wasn't hungry but I was making one for the kids and made myself one. My husband called to tell me they're cutting his OT which stinks.. so much is coming due and we're low on food and ugh- he came home at 12:30, which blows. He wasn't in a good mood himself over this, which was just great for me...
Then my tooth started hurting, I mean serious pain.. like someone was hammering at it.. I went to the dentist and got an antibiotic and found out the tooth can't be saved, and that the bone underneath the tooth is deteriorating.. and it has to be pulled.. if I don't hurry and get it out, it will affect all my bottom teeth.. I'm glad in one way it's a back tooth, but ugh!!!
So once this infection clears I need to have that pulled.
About 4:00 I got my mail. I got a check for $500 bucks.. totally unexpected. I asked my husband to see if it was real- it was! I was super excited. So I went to the bank then grocery shopping.. I bought tons of fruits, veggies, more skim milk- stuff I needed along with everyone else.. I was just so happy to have money. My son picked out DIBS.. which I love by the way, just walking down the ice cream aisle really hurts me. I kept staring at all the ice cream - it's my weakness. But I was good and kept going. OOOH I got myself some almonds though.. since Kara mentioned them I've been craving some! And I got some sunflower seeds. Another favorite of mine.
So now I get home and I was hungry, which is never good - going grocery shopping when I'm hungry. I bought Pringles "lite" which I know probably really isn't. But I figured well, even if the kids wanted some, at least it's not super high calories. So I had 2 Pringles, no big deal.. then I made myself a grilled cheese - with fat free cheese, not bad- then I had 5 more Pringles.. then I had 3 Yogo Bites as I was giving them to my other son. Ok, no big deal. Then I had 4 pieces of ziti. I made that for dinner tonight with my own homemade sauce and omg.. I wanted more but didn't. Then I had 2 DIBS - then some sunflower seeds.. not sure how much.. I saw a serving is 1/4 cup.. I had less than that, I just don't know how much.
I don't like that I was having bites of this or that.. I know that can really be a downfall for me because before I know it I'm over eating. I stopped there, I'm full- but I feel like crapola.
Today's Menu:
Breakfast: 1 serving Life cereal w/ skim milk - 3 strawberries - 170 calories.
Lunch: peanut butter/jelly sandwich on white bread - skim milk w/ chocolate low fat milk- 550 calories.
Dinner: Grilled cheese sandwich (2 slices white bread, fat free cheese 2 slices, ketchup), skim milk w/ chocolate low fat milk - 300 calories
* 2 DIBS, 4 pieces Ziti, 7 Pringles - unknown calories. some sunflower seeds. **
4 cups of coffee (fat free cream/splenda) - 240 calories.
1260 calories.. not counting all those *extras* I'm sure I'm still OK with the calories, but I feel like crap.. I know it might sound weird but I feel fatter than I did yesterday.
I even grabbed out the tape measure and noticed I've lost inches in my midsection.. that should have motivated me more but it didn't.. then I got on the scale, something else I know not to do too often, and I lost another pound! So although that's good I still feel BLAH- I guess it's just one of those days.. I hope tomorrow is better.