Here goes everything...Ben's Diary

EXAMS ARE DONE!!!

Finally. I'm fairly sure I failed most of them but whatever! I'm free for five months! No more excuses, now I'm in this for the long haul.

As a complete aside, has anyone here ever eaten at a Hog Rock Cafe? IDK if it's an Australian-only franchise but they have damn awesome steaks: the best cooked steak I've ever eaten in my life. It's kind of expensive, but all the money I'm saving from not buying fast food is going to go to having a steak there once a month or so. That's gonna be the new treat food to look forward to. Goodbye KFC!
 
On account of birthdays, exam celebration etc. I'm not gonna be able to weigh myself to Tuesday this wk. Hopefully I'll be in the 90s then: ate weigh too much for my father's bday! Lot of work ahead
 
do you mean the Hogs Breath Cafe ? if so their steaks are awesome. how did you go in your exams ?
 
Oops yeah, Hog's Breath. I got confused, there's an ice cream place the girlfriend likes called Cold Rock >.< Tremendous steaks.

I'm pretty sure I fucked up the last exam, won't know the results for a month or so. Nothing I can do now so just going with it.
 
Isn't it nice to have exams all done and just be able to relax? And I find that I save tons of money not buying junk food and fast food everyday. Maybe I'll use it to buy me a steak. mmmm. My brother works at a place with THE BEST steak I've ever had. Never heard of the Hogs Breath here in the states though. I think if I hit my January 1st goal I'm going to treat myself. Keep it up!
 
Okay it's time to rant at myself.

So its been less than a week since I finished exams, and the interim has just been utterly woeful as far as weight loss/health goes. I've been fat, lazy and stupid, and can't seem to bring myself out of this fresh cycle of self destruction.

It started on Saturday, with my father's birthday. Ended up eating for about 24 hours straight: chicken and steak and chips and sausages and salads and dips and crackers. I also drank about a slab of beer (even though it was the low carb stuff, they're still 70% of the calories of regular beer) and too much bourbon for my own good. It was hella fun, and I put it down as my exam celebration, but it's been tough going since then.

Now that my system has been reintroduced to fatty foods its all I can think about. My portion sizes are out of control, I'm eating junk again instead of the fruit/veggies/etc I was trying to stick to, and I haven't exercised in three days. My mindset is totally screwed up.

I look back over my previous posts and can't seem to remember why I was so excited about losing weight in the first place. I mean, don't get me wrong, I want to be fit and strong and healthy and all that jazz: but right now I can't seem to be bothered. Does that sound pathetic or what?

This is my typical 'expiry date' when it comes to weight loss, or really anything tbh: I burn out and lose interest. I've lost some weight, sure, but still have a shitload to go. I 'know' (i.e. am aware of the fact) that I need to lose weight, but I don't seem to 'feel' like doing it, and right now I'm fighting a losing battle.

Is this completely foreign to anyone? That feeling of...why bother? Why go out for a run when you can sit inside and watch TV instead? I can't seem to identify why it is I've lost interest, so if anyone has any tips or tricks I can use to fool myself into wanting to be lean again: please help me!

(P.S. I've decided against doing the weight/photo thing this week, simply because my weight has been yoyoing up and down around the 101.5kg mark, and I missed my normal weigh in time. This Sunday I'll do it again properly.)
 
I think you're too obsessed with your weight loss. I think you need to start looking at what you're doing as changing your lifestyle for good. Yeah there will be bumps in the road but keep your eye on the idea that you are undoing a lifestyle change that include eating differently and exercise...of course watch the scale to gauge progress..but it will come with time and consistent attention to your new path.
 
I think that its pretty natural to have your interest drop a little after your doing it for awhile. I know that every couple of weeks or months I go through a period where I don't lose much weight, or have a pretty bad week and gain some back. That's natural. I suspect that eventually you'll come back to it. I remember my old boss told me once that to be successful you have to maximize the good times and minimize the bad times. Granted, he was talking about running a business, but I think it applies to losing weight. Sure you'll do bad and not feel like it, just don't do horrible and work back towards doing well again.

Also, rather than fight what comes naturally to me, I'm learning to work it into my gameplan. Since I know every now and then I'll have a down period, I plan on every now and then (maybe once a month or two), having a week where I eat more and don't lose weight. Heck, last week I gained a few pounds back. This time I did bad over the recent holidays, so now I just have to force myself to get rolling again.

But it all comes down to motivation IMO, so you have to remember why you're trying to change your life and not forget that. And give yourself new goals. That's why I signed up for a half-marathon. I was getting bored and needed a new goal. Now I've been training for a bit and need some fire again, so I'm still eating well and still training, but now I'm adding weights. New goals, new routines, keep changing it up.
 
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