help me out please

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Last year, around September I started to lose weight. I am a 5'7 female and I weighed around 220. It was not the first time that I vowed to lose weight and change my eating. I had tried lots of fad diets and miracle herbs with little to no success, but that time I actually did it. I cut calories and started riding a bike everyday and lost around 3 lbs each week. I followed a structured eating plan that did not leave me hungry, and I ignored cravings.By December I was around 165 over halfway to my goal of 125. Then I baked Christmas cookies, big mistake. I ate a ton of the dough and two cookies "so what" i thought "I'll burn it off tonight and then not screw up anymore" wrong! All thru the holidays I ate and ate, sometimes binging. cookies,candies,cakes, everything. Then I swore that I would get back on track after New Years, I was wrong again. I am usually fine during the day, but after dinner the flood gates break and I cram myself sick. About a week ago I stopped all my craving eating and ate healthily for about 4 days bringing my self to my lowest weight of 155 but that did not last long. Now I am back at 165 and fear that I'm gaining more.

I used to have a lot of control over what I ate, now I feel helpless. Making good food decisions and eating things that are very nutritional, then throwing it away an hour later by eating whatever sweet thing is quickest. I feel like I have failed every day since December and it is taking its toll. I have tried giving in "just a little" like a lot of diets suggest, but I find it very hard to have just a little without reactivating a craving. I can't rid my pantry of all things unhealthy because I have a family. I wish I understood what I did in September that gave all the willpower I needed.

Have any of you overcome issues like this?

 

[Miss_Kallie]

Hey Hon,

don't get down on yourself! We've all been there. It sounds like you need to make a plan and then follow through. You've come so far from the once 220 lbs that you were. Keep that in mind.

I would suggest starting a diary here if you don't have one and then make a plan for yourself. Think of what foods you want to eat and which to avoid, how many times a day you want to eat and when, if you're going to count calories or not, if you're going to do exercise, how much, what and when. Write it all out because if you do, the more likly you are to follow through with your plan.

There are tons of people here who will support you in your ups and downs, so I wish you the best of luck in your weightloss journey!