Hello!

[weebabyRN]

Hi,
I am new here, not sure if I posted an intro in the proper forum. If this is a repeat sorry.

I just got on the scale, 195 lbs! 175 is the weight I always felt would be my upper limit. I need to lose 50 pounds, ideally by next summer.

My weight issue weighs heavily on me. I am unkind to myself, I don't have any clothes that fit except for my sweats and scrubs. I just found a pair of pants that sort of fit, meaning they aren't cutting into me. I am not going to buy new clothes, I have a whole closet full of clothes from size 10 to size 16. I am turning into a recluse, I don't leave the house unless I have to. When I go to the kids school or take them somewhere I had some clothes that fit. Now that it is cold outside, none of my long pants fit. This is going to get interesting.

I don't go to the doctor because I know they will weigh me, I am a nurse and I realize how stupid this sounds.

I compare my size against other women. I didn't compare myself negatively, I just had a few women who I felt we were the same size. I asked one of these ladies at work if she lost weight, because she looked good and she said no. I thought she had lost weight because I have gained it! I am starting to use bigger women to compare my size with.

I am so down on myself, I sit and talk negatively to myself about this. It seems so much easier to just lose the weight.

I hate pictures of myself, my face is so round, I look like a moon face.

I don't plan on being a swimsuit model or anything, I just want to be healthy. I have chronic health issues, and carrying around extra weight doesn't help them.

I want to set a good example to my kids. I buy snack food at the grocery store for their lunches. They eat it quickly. They aren't overweight, but I can see are getting the same habits I have.

I am a big emotional eater. I am a NICU nurse and when I come home from work I eat, mainly junk, even if I'm not hungry. I think I am using food to decompress from my day. I also eat when I'm bored, lonely, sad, happy...you get the picture. Food keeps our body fueled, nothing more, nothing less, I need to remember this.

I was just complaining at work the other day that my knee hurt, well now I know why!

I plan on working on my size and my mind through this journey. I will use the journal feature.

I am really ready for a change. I know it won't happen overnight.

 

[Korrie]

wow, you sound just like me! I am ALWAYS looking at other women for their weights...i'm like, hum, am I her size?? what about her??? lol And yea, i do that too where I notice someone looks thinner and here its just b/c I gained and she didnt' . OR there will be someone...like my pastors wife, i used to think she was so large...but last week I noticed that 'she's not that big afterall' well its b/c now i'm closer to her size, lol So yea, i know what you mean!

I'm a nursing student, and I too like to avoid the dct. he probably wouldn't have anything nice to say, so I dont' go, lol...but we should! maybe a good dose of truth is what I need?

you know, i worry all the time w/ me going through school that no one will hire me when I get out. Not that i'm "that big" but I am 230..yikes! I know i'll be alot more hireable if I loose a good 60-80 pds.

anyways, welcome to the forum! let me know if you have any questions!

 

[MissDFITT]

Hello and Welcome,

I think most women who have battled with their weight have had all the same negative thoughts that you are experiencing. But let me tell you there is light at the end of that tunnle. First of Kudos for decideing that its time to make a change and be the healthy role model for your kids. Second off you are right it won't happen overnight... but you can start thinking positively from this moment on.

Have you come up with a plan of attack?? If not check out the sticky threads on nurtition and exercise... Start with nutrition, it will be the key ingrediant.

Remind yourself daily that you can do this becuase you are a strong woman... hell you made it through nursing school and thats tough enough. Getting your mind in the game is the hard part... the rest is easy!

I also suggest starting a diary, it will let the rest of us get to know you and give support and motivation as needed along the way!

I'm rooting for you RN!!

Cheers,
Miss D

 

[weebabyRN]

Hello and Welcome,

I think most women who have battled with their weight have had all the same negative thoughts that you are experiencing. But let me tell you there is light at the end of that tunnle. First of Kudos for decideing that its time to make a change and be the healthy role model for your kids. Second off you are right it won't happen overnight... but you can start thinking positively from this moment on.

Have you come up with a plan of attack?? If not check out the sticky threads on nurtition and exercise... Start with nutrition, it will be the key ingrediant.

Remind yourself daily that you can do this becuase you are a strong woman... hell you made it through nursing school and thats tough enough. Getting your mind in the game is the hard part... the rest is easy!

I also suggest starting a diary, it will let the rest of us get to know you and give support and motivation as needed along the way!

I'm rooting for you RN!!

Cheers,
Miss D

Thank you for the welcome. The biggest part of my plan is journaling everything I put in my mouth. I also plan to drink 8 glasses of water a day and limit myself to around 1500 calories. If I go to 1600 or so occasionally I won't beat myself up. If I make my plan too restrictive, I will never follow it.

I am on day 2 and I already feel better about myself, just knowing that I am doing this gives me a self esteem boost.

I am thankful I have this forum, I am trying not to tell too many people, they can see for themselves when I start taking off the weight. I feel like when people know you are trying to loose weight they ask a lot of questions and some try to sabotage you. It seems like everything turns into talking about losing weight and I am trying to keep losing weight part of my life, not the focus of it. I feel like if I put too much pressure on it I won't see it through.