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skinnyB***h

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Hello Everyone, and welcome to my quest to find my inner skinny B***h...lol I'm not really sure what will become of this, but I need someone to be accountable to, I need to tell the truth about what I'm actually eating and how I'm feeling, and most of all....I need encouragement and support.

Don't get me wrong, I have a wonderful support system at home....a wonderful, mostly skinny, support system. I feel like I need to vent to someone who has walked in my shoes, who appreciates my struggles. It's disheartening, to go out with my tight body besties, and hear them complain about how fat they are. I mean, what must they think of me?

SO.....lets start from the beginning shall we? I was actually a skinny, happy child. Then I turned 13 and it was "well hello there hips"...lol. To be honest, at first I was proud of my new found curves. I didn't really worry when I gained a few pounds here and there....until I started college and I was....FAT!! Like what happened there??? I didn't have to worry long, because I dropped out of college after only 3 semesters and partied for two years. Money was tight....my crappy retail job barely paid the bills and the money that was left over went to aid my new lifestyle....groceries were not always an option. Don't get me wrong...I wasn't trying to starve, I was trying to have fun. The result, I lost weight...a lot of weight. Thankfully, it wasn't long before I met my future fiance, and I smartened up. Fast forward another two years....I was in the greatest relationship and....I was fat again. I decided I was going to fix things, so I started following weight watchers and I lost 50 lbs. I was so proud of myself, I felt strong and healthy...I hit a wall. I had 10 lbs to go, and the scale wouldn't budge for months. I felt discouraged, I stopped counting points, the weight crept back slowly. Which brings me to where I am today....5.1" and 195 lbs.

I just want to be happy again....I feel like I forget how. I just know that she's in still in me somewhere. That happy, healthy, Skinny girl, who loves her life. It's unfair to the people who love me....all the negativity I feel for who I've become, I take out on the people who are most important to me. You can only push people away so many time, before they stop coming back.

So this time I'm gonna make it happen....I'm tired of playing hide and seek with my skinny self....I'm gonna find my Skinny B***h once and for all!!!

Cheers
 
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Heyyy *waves* Welcome! I follow Weight Watchers and have lost nearly 30 pounds but it's not always easy following points and such! What are your plans to get healthy? Will you be doing a food/exercise diary on here or just using it to rant and such? Food diaries are often helpful for the first while to let you see where you are going wrong and such..

Good luck!! Hana xx
 
Hey Sunflower, thanks for stopping by :) I really liked the weight watcher point system the first time, so I plan to do that again. My allotted points for the day usually tend to work out to be anywhere from 1200 to 1300 calories each day, so I may tract my calories here for just a little extra. Plus, it easier for anyone who's not familiar with weight watcher points to understand how I'm doing. On the exercise front, I hope to get at least 5 workouts in at the gym each week. I'm starting school this coming Monday, so we'll have to see how my course load looks to know how much time I can spare each workout. I'm aiming for 60 minutes a pop!!

In happy news, I weighted today and was down 2lbs...193!!! I've decided to have Fridays as my weigh day. Since I'm not actually attending weight watchers, I can choose the day I weigh and Friday seems smart, as I like to have a few drinkies on the weekends and that gives me a week to redeem :)

In not so happy news, I busted my butt at the gym yesterday....and my face, when I tripped on the rowing machine and skidded my face across the floor of my packed Gym. My nose is skinned and my legs are bruised, but I'm very sure my ego took the worst beating....lol. All I can do is laugh about it now I guess, as I could learn to laugh at myself more :) I already hated that freaking rowing machine....now I'm going to make it mine!!

Anyway, I'm off to the gym...wish me luck..lol I'll update my workout and food choices at the end of the day. Have a great day all....Cheers!!
 
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Hey All!!

ok...so here's how my food looked today....

Breakfast :
-1/2 cup of Fiber Once cereal (100 cal)
-1/2 cup of skim milk (45 cal)

Dinner:
-6" ham sub (subway), on whole wheat, veggies, white cheddar, no mayo (320 cal)

Snack:
-Large coffee/2 fresh milk (40 cal)

Supper:
-A frozen dinner (280 cal)
-1 clementine (35cal)

Snack:
-1/2 a whole wheat pita (110 cal)
-1 cheese slice (60 cal)
-2 slices of black forest ham (30 cal)
-1 cup of black tea (0 cal)

For a grand total of 1020 calories (19 weight watcher points). A little on the low side, but it's still a few hour until bedtime.

I had a great workout today, even though my arms were sore from yesterday so I couldn't face the rowing machine....I'll punish you tomorrow rowing machine :) Here's what my workout looked like.....

-30 minutes on the Elliptical (-305 cal)
-30 minutes on the arc trainer (-315 cal)

For a grand total of 615 calories burned....YAY!!! Today was a good day :) Hope you all had good days too!
 
i know what you mean about playing hide and seek with your skinny b****! lol.
you definately sound ready to find her once and for all, as am i! and once you do, dont let that biatch get away! ahhah. you sound very determined and i really think youll do great as you have in the past! just stick with it! good luck to you!
i also have just recently started a diary so feel free to stop by!
 
Ok, so today has the potential to go frightfully wrong. Here's the scenario....First, just after lunch, I have a child's birthday party to attend. I can hear the pizza and cake mocking me already. Secondly, and the worst of all, this evening I have a housewarming party to go to. I guess all is not lost there, because the hostess has just recently lost a bunch of weight herself and she always has healthy food options available at her partys. However, she's a great party planner and she loves everyone to leave drunk and full, so there will also be a lot of very yummy, very bad food options. I'll just have to be strong, as I know I'll have a few drinks and those alcohol calories do add up fast. No time for the gym today, so I'm hoping to fit a turbo jam video in between. Must think, "nothing taste as good as thin feels". So true, but so much harder to swallow then a tasty party menu. I'll let you all know how it goes!!
 
i can totally understand the temptations. the pizza and cake is calling to me just by reading that. hahah.
"nothing taste as good as thin feels" you know whats funny, i have this quote written in big letters on my desktop calendar at work. lol.
in my office, people bring donuts/pastries/cake/goodies all the time!! its so hard sometimes. but just stick to your guns.
i know its soooo much easier said than done but you just have to really try hard to keep your eyes on the goal.
well anyways. just wanted to stop by and see how your doing. i loof forward to reading about how your day turned out!
:D
 
Hey there :) I have been here since February of this year and if you look at my diary you will see two months of my journey are missing... I fell off the wagon after doing SO WELL. I was more then 5 pounds down after just like a week and a half, I like you worry about temptations, only I eventually could not use will power to say no.

I have gained my weight back because I couldn't come here to admit my mistakes, I was so ashamed. Whatever you do, don't give up and keep coming back! I wish I had just come back, gotten some support, and stayed on track. Had I done that I would probably have been 20 lbs down since February... but instead I have to start all over again and come back here and see how people have lost tons of weight, and it sucks because that could have been me.

So, I wish you all the luck, and if you want a weight loss buddy please feel free to message me anytime. I hope we can all get to our ultimate goals! :)

Good luck!
 
Hi Skinny,

Thank you for posting on my diary! Its always good to have new supporters. You are starting off pretty much where I did, and we're the same height so it will be great to push eachother to get to where we want to be. I have played hide and seek with my skinny self as well, and this time I am hoping that i dropped my fat self far enough away and I'm hoping she'll never find her way back. You sound like you are off to a great start and sound really determined to work hard, find your skinny self and be happy again. Do you have a wedding date set yet that you are working towards? Keep up with your postings, I really look forward to seeing your progress and losing some weight with you!
 
Hello I just got a chance to read your diary! Your story is very close to mine was skinny then puberty happened, and then got engaged, lost 22 lb on ww gained it back and in january I was at 192lb, so very close to your story!! You will see there is great support on here I look forward to seeing your progress!!!! Just take it one day at a time, if you do indulge don't let it take you down just count calories / points and keep going!!!!! Good job on your workouts!!!!
 
Hey everyone!!! Thanks so much for all your support...this is exactly what I need :) It's been a few day, so let me fill you all in....

I actually opted out of the birthday party Saturday, as I figured that time could be better spent burning calories in preparation for the tempting night ahead. However, so much for good intentions. What I actually ended up doing was sitting on my butt, watching Housewives of Orange County until it was time to get ready (hangs head in shame) I didn't even do the Turbo Jam....but I think besides the obvious bad judgment about exercise that day, my calories came out ok considering. Here's what I ate...

Breakfast:
Skipped in an attempt to save calories for the night

Dinner:
1/2 a whole wheat pita (110 cal)
1 slice of cheese (60 cal)
2 slices of black forest ham (30 cal)

Supper:
A frozen dinner (280 cal)
1 clementine (35 cal)
1 cup of green tea (0 cal)

But then I went to the party and had.....Broccoli & dip, a handful of baked lays, 3 veggie filled appetizers and 2 chicken wings. I drank.....3 glasses of wine, 2 rum & diet cokes, and then water for the rest of the evening. Not too, too bad. Could have been much worse considering all the yummy options. I also resisted Mcdonalds on the way home, which is HUGE for me...yay me!!!


Yesterday I was actually a little under my calories, as I slept late after not getting home until 5:00 am. Here's what I ate...

Breakfast:
None...was sleeping

Dinner:
1 salmon fillet (110 cal)
1 cup of pre mixed salad veggies (15 cal)
5 grape tomatoes (10 cal)
1 tbsp of ranch with bacon dressing (60 cal)

Supper:
A frozen dinner (220 cal)
1 kiwi (45 cal)
1 clementine (35 cal)

Snacks:
1 whole wheat pita (220 cal)
2 slices of cheese (120 cal)
4 slices of black forest ham (60 cal)
1 reduced sugar jello cup (5 cal)

So I finished out the day at 900 cal...not good I know...especially because after missing the day before at the gym, I worked out extra yesterday. I did...

*30 mins on the Elliptical (-305 cal)
*30 mins on the arc trainer (-335 cal)
*10 mins on the rowing machine (-100 cal)

740 calories burned!!!! I know I have to eat more, if I'm going to work out like that. Today is better I promise!! I'm off to the gym...I'll update my food for today later :) Hope everyone is having a skinny day!!!
 
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Back from the gym and feeling ill. Sometimes I get like that after I workout....maybe I don't eat soon enough after??? Anyone else find this?? What do you guys eat pre and post workout?? Not a whole bunch to report today, only that I'm starting college classes tomorrow. It's the first time I've been in a lecture room in almost 10 years....perhaps that's the cause of my upset stomach.....NERVES!!!! Actually, I'm super excited. I feel like going back to school, along with my new commitment to get healthy and skinny, are huge step towards happiness again. Feels like so long since I put myself first....no more :)

So keeping in mind that I feel crappy, I still haven't met my calorie goal yet for today. Sorry, maybe I'll feel well enough to have something else before bed. Here's what I ate today....

Breakfast:
1/2 whole wheat pita (110 cal)
1 slice of cheese (60 cal)
2 slices of ham (30 cal)

Snack:
1 L coffee/2 fresh milk (40 cal)

Dinner:
1 Frozen dinner (240 cal)

Snack:
1 L coffee/2 fresh milk (40 cal)
1 Kiwi (45 cal)

Supper:
1 cup of pre mixed salad veggies (15 cal)
20g of diced cheese (60 cal)
2 tbsp of bacon bits (60 cal)
1/2 a chicken breast (70 cal)
5 grape tomatoes (10 cal)
1 tbsp of ranch with bacon dressing (60 cal)
1 clementine (35 cal)

Snack:
1 L coffee/2 fresh milk (40 cal).....WAY TO MUCH COFFEE TODAY!!!
1 apple (80 cal)


So, that leaves me with 995 cals so far. I walked to the gym today...took about 30 minutes. It was so nice out, I just couldn't take the bus. Not sure how many calories I burned, but it's mostly downhill, so I wouldn't guess a lot. I took it easy at the gym today....mainly because I started to feel a little sick. I did...

*40 mins on the arc trainer (-440 cal)

That's about it for me, I hope you all had a wonderful day :) Cheers!!!
 
Good start Skinny B***h. You can totally do this...I just re-started my journey and have about 20 lbs to lose. Lets keep each other motivated and do this...

May I make a suggestion? I think you are eating too few calories than daily requirement. From being here and reading the stickies I have come to understand that women should not go below 1200 cal per day. After that the body goes into starvation mode and weight loss is slower than before. What you are eating so far is great but maybe you would want to increase protein and introduce healthy snacks like carrots, cucumbers and other veggies a little bit. Just a suggestion...I hope you don't take it in a negative way.

Good luck!!
 
Hey Juni, thanks for stopping by!! I agree 100% about my calories...they have been on the low side for the past few days. Today is grocery day, and I will be well stocked for the rest of the week. I was actually thinking yesterday, that I really need to eat more veggies. I hope we can help each other along this journey :)

Well then....I guess I'm off to my first day of classes. I'll post later how my day goes. Have a good one!!!
 
Keep it up, we are starting out basically the same, I'm 189 and 5'2 down from 198, so I'm right there with you. I am impressed at your workouts. I try to do more, but I have a six year and and a 6 month old to entertain also, but they kinda keep me moving. Stick around and lets get our weight down!!!
 
Hey guys and thanks for stopping by!!! So first day of classes went well...yay me!! I did however spend 15 minutes of my first lecture admiring my instructors shoes, and daydreaming about how amazing they would go with the little black dress I envision wearing to my girlfriends wedding this July. How wonderful it would be to weigh 30 lbs less, and dance the night away looking super hot....Aww note to self....must not obsess over weight loss in class!!

Tuesdays are my long day in school, so I opted out of the gym yesterday, as it seems like the best day of the week to take off. I didn't have any access to my computer yesterday and regretfully today, I'm running a little late, so I don't have time to list everything I ate yesterday. However, I did eat great all day...until last night when I scarfed down a whole bag of crispy minis (boo!!) I shouldn't even buy them, as I know I can never eat just one serving. Came in at 1545 calories yesterday, not too bad considering.

Ok lovely ladies, I'll see you guys after class and the gym :)
 
Hey Skinny!

Your doing so great! You are really burning some major calories! I'm happy to see that you are being so consistant! I love crispy minis but I am the same way- I can't stop once I open the bag, so I started only opening them if I have company to share with to prevent me from eating the whole bag...I admit that I have had to actually poor them into the garbage a few times to prevent me from finishing the whole bag. I am so proud of you for working so hard. With your dedication you will be looking not just super hot but super super hot at your friend's wedding! If you want to up your veggie intake, maybe try cutting some up and taking them as a snack or since you like to have frozen dinners like me I add veggies to mine, like mushrooms or tomatos. Have fun at the gym!
 
So my Fiance's computer has crapped out....sucks cause I'm not used to sharing. Whats worse is that he uses his computer for work, so that limits the time I have on here (boo). So for now, all my updating will likely be done in the mornings, before class.

Yesterday was good :) It was a beautiful day, so I walked everywhere!!! I ate well too, here it is...

Breakfast:
1/2 cup of fiber one cereal (110 cal)
1/2 cup of skim milk (45 cal)
1/2 a small banana (45 cal)

Dinner:
1 pre made turkey wrap (no mayo) (280 cal)

Supper:
1 small baked potato (100 cal)
1 slice of cheese (60 cal)
1 tbsp of fat free sour cream (10 cal)
1 tbsp of bacon bits (30 cal)
1 cup of pre mixed salad veggies (15 cal)
1/2 a chicken breast (70 cal)
5 grape tomatoes (10 cal)
1 tbsp of ranch with bacon dressing (60 cal)

Snacks:
2 coffee/2 fresh milk (80 cal)
1 yogurt with 1/2 banana (145 cal)
mini carrots, veggie crackers, 1 tbsp of hummus (180 cal)
1/2 cup of strawberries (25 cal)

So I came in at 1256!! Like I said, I walked everywhere yesterday, including the gym which took 30 minutes. I did 40 minutes on the arc trainer and 10 on the rowing machine.....I burned 545 calories :)

I'm off again....I hope you all have a great day :)
 
Hey Good morning, great job yesterday's menu looks good! Great workout too!!! I hate when things break our pc has not been running well for the last year and we are broke so we just keep our fingers crossed that it will keep working until we have a bit more money!
 
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