hello all. i have never seen such a support network like this before. thanks to all who share on this. it helps so much to hear all of the success stories and people who experience the same things that i do each and everyday.
food has been my addiction since i was 4 yrs old when i went on steroids for asthma (which i have thankfully out grown). up until that point i was very much underweight and according to my mother would hardly eat anything. not that thought brings such an outburst of uncontrollable laughter since i could now polish off the better part of a bag of doritos. i was always part of the popular crowd but that was because i live in a small town and my family is well known. i dated the same guy up until christmas break of my senior year and was very active in band. i graduated in 1994 dating a pretty cute 21 & weighing in at 190. i thought life was great but i still felt then that i needed to lose weight. off to college i went....1st semester actually lost about 15 lbs because our campus was large and i did not know where everything was and all my classes zigzagged from one end to the next, but then i started partying. and the weight never stopped packing on. since then 1994 i have gained 120 lbs (lord have mercy that is another person) from a weight that i thought i was huge at then. i cant even stand to see pictures of myself.
i have had several long term relationships but none of them where with quality guys. honestly just a guy so that i could feel somewhat normal. why do we require a partner in life to feel "normal". my last relationship resulted in my blessing from God above...Isabella. She is my inspiration, my life, my light, my all!!! i want to do this...for me for her. i dont want this life for her and i fear that if i dont make some changes history will repeat itself. sorry for the rambling and thanks for taking the time to read.
bec
food has been my addiction since i was 4 yrs old when i went on steroids for asthma (which i have thankfully out grown). up until that point i was very much underweight and according to my mother would hardly eat anything. not that thought brings such an outburst of uncontrollable laughter since i could now polish off the better part of a bag of doritos. i was always part of the popular crowd but that was because i live in a small town and my family is well known. i dated the same guy up until christmas break of my senior year and was very active in band. i graduated in 1994 dating a pretty cute 21 & weighing in at 190. i thought life was great but i still felt then that i needed to lose weight. off to college i went....1st semester actually lost about 15 lbs because our campus was large and i did not know where everything was and all my classes zigzagged from one end to the next, but then i started partying. and the weight never stopped packing on. since then 1994 i have gained 120 lbs (lord have mercy that is another person) from a weight that i thought i was huge at then. i cant even stand to see pictures of myself.
i have had several long term relationships but none of them where with quality guys. honestly just a guy so that i could feel somewhat normal. why do we require a partner in life to feel "normal". my last relationship resulted in my blessing from God above...Isabella. She is my inspiration, my life, my light, my all!!! i want to do this...for me for her. i dont want this life for her and i fear that if i dont make some changes history will repeat itself. sorry for the rambling and thanks for taking the time to read.
bec