I have been waiting for a place like this for a long time.
I am in my mid thirties and I have been watching my weight all my life. I had a very big grandma and she would always tell me that some day I would look like her. This has caused me to constantly watch my weight an being afraid of getting the way she was. It didn't help that through my teenage years all the women (then in their mid-thirties) reminded me that being my size (5'2") I would have to be very careful not to get fat. For years I refused to eat Pasta, Pizza or any other foods that were known to help 'increase' weight. I went as far as making it a sport to see how little I could eat. At age 24 I weighed 92lbs (I went from 117 to 92 within approx. 6 month). I was proud to fit in a pair of pants I had bought when I was 16. Lucky enough I caught myself just in time - by then I couldn't even eat one apple at once.
I asked my mother to sit down with me everyday and basically practice eating. At the beginning it took over an hour to eat one slice of bread. Within the next six months I gained the weight back that I had lost. I moved away to college and gained another 10lbs. At now 5'4" I weigh 125lbs and I am happy. But I still watch what I eat and still have that voice in my head that tells me "one day you will look just like me".
The reason I signed up for this forum is not because I want to lose weight but because weight is a very important part of my life and I would like to share everything I know, however little it may be and help other people not to go where I have been.
I am in my mid thirties and I have been watching my weight all my life. I had a very big grandma and she would always tell me that some day I would look like her. This has caused me to constantly watch my weight an being afraid of getting the way she was. It didn't help that through my teenage years all the women (then in their mid-thirties) reminded me that being my size (5'2") I would have to be very careful not to get fat. For years I refused to eat Pasta, Pizza or any other foods that were known to help 'increase' weight. I went as far as making it a sport to see how little I could eat. At age 24 I weighed 92lbs (I went from 117 to 92 within approx. 6 month). I was proud to fit in a pair of pants I had bought when I was 16. Lucky enough I caught myself just in time - by then I couldn't even eat one apple at once.
I asked my mother to sit down with me everyday and basically practice eating. At the beginning it took over an hour to eat one slice of bread. Within the next six months I gained the weight back that I had lost. I moved away to college and gained another 10lbs. At now 5'4" I weigh 125lbs and I am happy. But I still watch what I eat and still have that voice in my head that tells me "one day you will look just like me".
The reason I signed up for this forum is not because I want to lose weight but because weight is a very important part of my life and I would like to share everything I know, however little it may be and help other people not to go where I have been.