Korrie - THANKS! I appreciate all the backup I can get

I'm hoping we'll see a difference a week from now - that's when "D-Day" is. I'm weighing myself once a month which makes a HUGE deal as far as my mental outlook is concerned. It gives me more room to focus on what is really important which is my exercise and nutrition. Seriously. . . .the weight thing can kiss my butt as far as I'm concerned. If I lose weight, great. If not, I know I'm living the healthiest life I can live without being overly stressed about it.
Anke - Can I just say that stress motivated me to exercise!? I was so incredibly stressed out I decided I needed to relieve it somehow so I started exercising again and MAN it has made all the difference in the world!!! I actually notice an increase in stress on the days I don't exercise. It's to the point where I actually just want to do it every day because it makes me feel better. I still haven't gotten to Whole Foods to buy the rescue remedy yet but I definitely want to before this week is over. So not only am I adding exercise to my regimen, but I'm destressing too!! Sure, it ain't easy upping the anty every week with C25K but it's fun at the same time to realize what I am actually capable of.
Today was an exercise day off because I had to clean the ferret, cook dinner, etc etc and I got home late from work. Sucks because it was a prime day to exercise as far as stress is concerned, but I worked through it with some loud music on the way home (I'm telling you between Linkin Park and Metallica, I'm lucky to still have functioning eardrums after that car ride!!) So I can definitely feel the stress building up again. I have a few things which I know I'm going to work on to help things along. . . .stuff I have to talk to my manager about. Then I should be OK. This weekend is bridesmaids' fitting for their dresses which brings on an interesting stress. . . .the "oh God I'm having actual people stay over at my apartment and we have to make it presentable" stress. Not fun, but we're almost there. I figure Friday afternoon I'm going to buy some breakfast/lunch stuff for my guests. I'm having one stay over on Friday and one Saturday. Also seeing my mom this weekend (the boy's mom too - we're making it a girls' day out!) which should be fascinating. I didn't see or hear from her on my birthday. There was some stupid weird crap as far as a dinner was concerned - my brother came home for the weekend and he, my dad and I made plans to go to dinner (parents are divorced) because mom was supposed to be away at her boyfriend's in MD. Then at the last second, she changes her mind and somehow she and my brother talk about her coming along to the dinner. He mentions it to me and I basically tell him that it was planned to be just he, my dad and myself and I would see my mom next weekend. Sure, I could have included her, but it was the plan that we had set previously and my dad isn't really himself when he's around her. They're civil, but not themselves. So I get this really passive agressive email from my mom about how she wont' see me for my bday and all this stupid crap and meanwhile SHE NEVER CALLS ME ABOUT IT HERSELF. HELLO?!?!? And nevermind the fact that SHE WAS INITIALLY GOING TO BE AWAY FOR MY STUPID BIRTHDAY. So that's causing some of the stress as well. I'm frustrated with her and hurt to a point that I'm not sure we can repair since I got engaged. She just can't get excited about it at all. Every conversation we have it's either a huge burden on her or she's afraid of it. I don't even know how to handle her reaction. Every time I think of it, it makes me angry and hurt again.
ANYWAY this wasn't supposed to be a rant session about my mom (although as far as the stress management goes, that obviously was something that needed to surface at this point in time). That's a whole other topic for a whole other blog!
On to totals for today! Surprisingly low, honestly. I wonder if I should do some calculations (a la Korrie!) to determine what my totals are for maintaining and losing weight. Maybe I'll do that while I watch Ghost Hunters (love this show!)
Calories: 1397
Carbs: 177
Fat: 24 (holy crap that's low!)
Protein: 75