Heather's Healthy Beginnings

I can't believe it's been over a month since I last posted. Although I do have to say that it definitely FELT longer than a month. I took a self-appointed break from WLF because I was starting to feel severely triggered to start my poor behaviors all over again. I wasn't making the progress that I wanted to be making - that I felt I "should" be making - and that was triggering me to start the starvation crap again. I actually had a day or two where I really didn't eat much. Then I decided I needed to just stop the weight loss crap for a while and really focus on my mindset. I still haven't figured that part out, but I do know that I need to get back into the swing of things. My motivation remains to be seen - I feel like I really work the hardest when I'm trying to "fix" myself, but at the same time do I really want that kind of mentality?? I'm stuck. I just don't know.

I just finished up a week long vacation which was kinda the culmination of this "break" from dieting. I ate complete and utter crap for a week and drank wayyyy too much beer. During this week, I also quit smoking and started back up my "quitnet" profile which keeps a really neat count of how much money you save, how long you've been smoke-free and how many hours/days of your life you have saved. Every once in a while, I'll post that in here because it's just a nice thing to read. I figure all the money I'm saving I'll put into the savings account I have for our wedding. Although the actual date I stopped smoking was two Fridays ago (the 8th), I'm saying it was the day I had my last cigarette which was this past Thursday (the 14th). My best friend came over for dinner and we shared a few together. So with that as my date, here's my current info:

2 days, 22 hours, 40 minutes and 36 seconds smoke free.

29 cigarettes not smoked.
$6.75 and 5 hours of your life saved.

So. . . . .Tomorrow will begin a new workweek which is going to be smoke-free as well as a new beginning. I'm going to post my calories every day again. We're grocery shopping tomorrow night and I really want to revamp my lunches - I'm getting seriously bored. If anyone has good ideas (Sophie?!? ;) ) for something unique for lunch that can be eaten on the go (I eat in my car every day) I'm absolutely open to them!! I'd like to buy some fruit to make a fruit salad or something similar perhaps. . . .we'll see.

So I've missed you all terribly, and I'm going to go meander around a little bit to see what everyone has been up to!

I might weigh myself tomorrow again. I'm not sure how often I'm going to weigh myself - that is my big sticking point of frustration that happened before. I have a lot of thinking to do to figure out my motivation and how to avoid triggering and frustration.
 
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OK well, did the weigh-in this morning. Not fun, but not as bad as I thought it MIGHT be.

208.3

I regained 8lbs. I was afraid I had regained it all. So not terrible, really.

Going easy on myself for the first few months, I think. Just because I know when you quit smoking you have a tendency to gain weight. So until October, I think I'm going to weigh myself monthly then start every week or two weeks.

Happy Monday everyone. :)
 
Heya! I stopped smoking a month ago (it will be 5 weeks tomorrow.)

Well done on taking the step. A friend and I also shared some smokes a few days after my intitial quit... we stopped together so I started counting there.

I'm also wondering about how healthy the "fixing yourself" all the time thing is. But maybe if you choose to see it rather as "IMPROVING" yourself, that could be a better way to look at it.

I think the "diet" "I'm not good enough" "I'll never succeed" mentality is more harmful thanthe improvement mentality :)

I'm Anke by the way :)
 
I'm so impressed that you're quitting smoking! I should as well, but the very idea fills me with blind bloody terror.

I'm so sorry you're having so many problem thoughts and behaviors triggered by this process. It seems to me, though, that you're doing all the right things in terms of catching things before they become problems and trying to keep your mindset where it should be.

I hope we can make this journey towards healthy thoughts and healthy behaviors together!

Sophie
 
congrats on quitting smoking. I'd concentrate on that before worrying about weight. It's much more important.
 
So I had a nice long reply to everyone's comments and a beginning paragraph to this entry when Firefox decided to go mental and close on me. . . THREE TIMES. Needless to say, I lost the entry. Soooo. . . .this is going to be brief and I'll try to get back online later but I dunno!

Ok. . . .today was pretty good! Food wise not so hot, but that's OK. I did day one of couch to 5K today which was fabulous. It was great to get out and exercise again and I find that it goes so much faster when I'm not in the gym like a hamster running on its wheel. Sure I probably look like a bouncy blob when I run, but I'm enjoying myself. :) Bought super duper sports bras to hold the girls in especially for jogging because I really do love it so much and I'm a wee bit on the bigger chested side. :smilielol5:

Also made it through the day . . . *drumroll*. . . .without smoking!!!!! Seriously thought I might go crazy this morning because they are such a part of my daily routine but I DID IT. And I feel so happy about it. Day four complete!!

Ok. . . .nutrition info for today

Calories: 1907
Carbs: 144
Fat: 102
Protein: 87

Not too bad, but not too great. Tomorrow I'm going to make my lunch and make breakfast so we should see a major change in nutrition! It feels great to be focused back in again on my health :)
 
Great job not smoking. And great job running. I'm a d, so I hate running without a sports bra. It KILLS my back.
 
WELL DONE for running... and another day of no smoking down! (Don't worry, it gets easier when you start counting weeks :) )
 
:waving:Hey, lady! Just want to tell you that YOU ROCK for quitting smoking!!!:smash:way to smash the evil, filthy, expensive habit!!! And :hurray: for the running! You are going to be SO healthy you won't even recognize YOURSELF!!!

You go, girl :grouphug:
ABBA
 
Ok I'm exhausted. Promising that replies will come tomorrow for everyone's wonderful support. :) First, my quit stats!

5 days, 16 seconds smoke free.

50 cigarettes not smoked.

$11.25 and 9 hours of your life saved.

Suhweet.

And now, nutrition for today. Wow. Awful. But. . . .it's OK for right now because my lungs are getting healthier. I'll give myself a little bit of working room for a month or so. I ate well until this mood struck me when I got home for an Applebee's hamburger. I would have been alright had it not been for the chicken quesadilla we ordered as an appetizer. Those things are HORRIBLE FOR YOU! But instead of fries with my burger, I substituted steamed broccoli which was my bargain with myself for getting it. Didn't help out my totals a whole hell of a lot, but oh well!

Also, did day 2 of C25K today. My legs are tiiiiired!

Calories: 2549 (ohhhhh my goddddddd)
Carbs: 239
Fat: 98
Protein: 136

Have a great Tuesday night everyone!
 
Try drinking water through a straw when you feel like eating from the withdrawal. Anyway, not so bad, you are stopping, and that's the point. Your body WILL thank you... and you'll be able to run better to get the smoking weight off :)

Keepin an eye on you! :)
 
work on saving your life before you worry about weight. MUCH more important. I bet it will help you exercise eventually.
 
i agree w/ the girls! Quitting smoking is the BEST thing you can do for yourself!!! Take it from me! I can't tell you how many residents w/ emphazema I've cared for.
 
Korrie - Don't we both know it in the healthcare field about the ills of smoking! It's a shame too because a lot of people I care for are end stage lung cancer patients. So I'm really glad to be rid of it!

Anke - Thanks so much for coming by my diary and keeping an eye on me! I'm going to stop by your diary as soon as I have a night that ends earlier than 9PM. :p

Brandy - I'm slowly getting the hang of this quitting thing. I discovered the world's best helper for something to do with my time in the car. Bubble gum. Bubblicious bubble gum like I chewed when I was a kid. It's the BEST THING EVER. Plus it helps with the food cravings.

ABBA - Thanks so much for the cheerleading!!! You're awesome :)

Sophie - The idea filled me with terror as well before I did it. But the thing that scares me the most is that this is my third time quitting and by far it is the hardest time yet. So every time I think about buying a pack (getting rarer and rarer as days go by) I think about how hard it was this time around and how much harder it's going to be the next time. Plus, the patch and my newfound bubble gum passion are really helping me through.

OK! Finally got to answer everyone who was kind enough to come around :) You guys rock and you're the reason I keep coming back to WLF! Thanks so much for all of your support.

Today was not a five star day, but definitely a four and a half! I did succumb to a craving for a breakfast sandwich this morning from our cafe at work. I think tomorrow morning I'll go straight to a patient's home instead of going to the office first. Then I won't be tempted. But for the rest of the day I was successful in dodging food cravings and made a healthy dinner. I did day three of week one of C25K today and it's getting easier! I might do 5 days of C25K in the initial weeks because it's not too hard yet and my muscles aren't protesting. Plus the boytoy wants to come with me tomorrow and Friday. It's fun to have a partner. :)

On to the totals!

Calories: 1696
Carbs: 152
Fat: 76
Protein: 105
 
Brandy - Thanks chica! Wasn't a bad day at all. :)

Today was another decent one! No exercise today because last night I got crap sleep (family issues for the boytoy - long story) and felt kinda sick at the end of the day so I just took it easy. I figured I already did my three days of C25K this week anyway so anything more I do is a bonus!! Which is a much better mindset for me than the "OMIGOD I HAVE TO GO TO THE GYM EVERY DAY" mentality. And three days a week for the time being is fine with me. Maybe later on I'll add extra days for strength training. But for now I'm going to focus on the C25K program.

So on to the totals for today!

*edit* So I wrote this over a period of about an hour or so and suddenly was absolutely starving and ate 2 hot dogs. What the hell. *sigh* Just have to keep reminding myself. . . .I'm finishing up what is termed "hell week" on quitnet, so gotta just keep that in mind. I can start stressing over calories in another week or so. For now just gotta focus on one thing at a time. Or maybe 2 - C25K and quitting. That sounds good.

Ok. . .totals.

Calories: 1868 (bah)
Carbs: 142
Fat: 69
Protein: 130
 
You still did very well today, even after the hot dogs. Great job! I admire that you know enough to concentrate on only 2 major things- so you can do those things with all your effort.
 
I absolutely agree, focus and do things PROPERLY :)

Well done with the smoking, "If you're going through hell, keep going" - Winston Churchill.

Bye bye!
 
Brandy - Well I figure between quitting smoking and trying to get my act in gear both nutritionally and physically plus all the stuff going on at work (I'm studying for my certification in hospice and palliative care nursing plus I'm trying to come up with an orientation handbook for new employees AND I'm going to be applying for my level 3 in nursing this fall) I figure keeping two things on my plate at a time is probably best!

Anke - I'm past hell week! Now on to heck week, but I think I'll be able to do well. Had three solid days of exercise this week - next week I'd like to do four days. Wearing my patch and chewing my bubble gum and I'm in business! Hopefully soon I'll have 5 weeks behind me like you do. :)

Not a shabby day today. No exercise like I had hoped. I had a ton of errands to do after work and didn't get home until kinda late. Didn't eat really well today but overall nutrition isn't bad. I'm hoping that next week I'll get in four days of exercise. Tomorrow I have a review course for my certification exam, then I'm meeting up with my best friend to help her dress shop for a wedding. Busy day!! But then Sunday and Monday I have off so that will be good. Plus the people who are going to be with me at the review are all a lot of fun. Should be a good time.

Ok! Nutrition!

Calories: 1761
Carbs: 186
Fat: 81
Protein: 89
 
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