Heather's Healthy Beginnings

Hey all,

So this weekend was definitely a cheat weekend. Spent time at the future father in-law's house and went to a wedding on Saturday night. Then today I made homemade salami calzones so really. . . .we're just not going to total up Friday, Saturday or Sunday. Friday was actually probably just fine but a little over. So that just means Monday I gotta hit the gym hard again and get back into the groove. It's so hard to stay on track when you're away! I swear to god today was either eat nothing, a bowl of cherries and coffee, or have gobs of italian food cooked by the future father in-law's fiancee. Seeing as I don't want to starve myself, I just let myself have the italian food. Oh well. It was good, at least!

I am SO HAPPY to be back in onederland :-D It will be interesting to see if I can stay there this week after all the crap I ate. I'd like to see 180s soon - that was my weight senior year of college. It's funny how you can count back the years by your weight. 170s was beginning of senior year, 160s was junior year, 150s was sophomore year, 140s was freshman year and 130s was senior year of high school. I doubt I could ever get back to 130s but oh well!

OK I'm tired and a wee drunk. We played Rock Band and drank beer tonight. Stupid beer. We havent' had it for a while - guess that's a good thing! Too many calories tho. Oh well!!!
 
So the cheat weekend continued into this week up till yesterday when I finally got my act back together again. I went to the gym this morning FINALLY and have my values for today!

Calories: 1468
Carbs: 168
Fat: 36
Protein: 96
Sodium: 1426

That's all for tonight, maybe more tomorrow night!
 
Alright. The past week was horrifying. No gym (except one day), horrible eating, no motivation. I don't know why! It was kinda stressful at work this week - we had our joint comission survey this week which was annoying, but everything went fine and the surveyor was really nice. So I don't know. I'm frustrated with myself. So I made lunch for myself again tomorrow and we're going to go grocery shopping after work. I have to get the car inspected so money should be fun this week. I don't know how we're ever going to save for our wedding. Le sigh.

I think I need to just take a break and refocus myself. Maybe take a bath tonight or just take some time to do something I like to do and not something that I have to do. Just get recentered. This weekend is a three day weekend which I'm super excited about! So hopefully it'll be a short week and a relaxing weekend.

Tomorrow is another day.
 
Don't worry about 1 bad week. It happens to everyone. You can get back up whenever. Its not a loss...just a stopping point. Good luck getting everything done this week. I feel the same way about money lately. I just don't seem to be able to get by myself...I need my boyfriend's help. But thats what boyfriends do. You will be able to save up for a wedding. Maybe start looking at how much things cost that you want for your wedding, and try to think of some cheaper ways. Just suggestions. Have a lovely evening!
 
Bad weeks happen--my God do they happen. I think the main goal is to erase that part of your brain that says, "Well, I've had a bad week, one more day won't count." I'm still working very hard to get rid of that voice. As for you, you've always got so much going on that it's a wonder you can do it all, let alone while losing weight and paying attention to your body. But you can, because you are amazing.

Sophie
 
Ok. . . .I'm back. Seriously. I needed a mental kick in the pants, and I think I succeeded in giving myself one. To be fair, I was also gentle with that kick in the pants because that whole self-loathing thing is not for me anymore! I had a great day today in starting my "detox" from fat which was a nice reassurance that I can indeed do this, and it was also nice because I actually think I found my motivation again that has been hiding for a bit! Went to the gym this morning and definitely noticed a difference since being off for a week or so. I ran at about an 11 minute mile (I think specifically 11:24 or something) but could only hold that pace for about 8 minutes for the entire time I was on (35 mins) Probably says I shouldn't attempt that speed quite yet, but I'm going to keep trying because I think that I can increase my speed even if it means I jog for less of the time as a result. I'll eventually get back to jogging my 20 minutes, then maybe even jogging a full half hour!

Gotta say as well huge KUDOS to the other not 120lb girl in the gym this morning. Don't know who she was, but it gave me great comfort to not be the only twig in the gym for once in my life. She was kicking it, too!! Had the treadmill on a great big incline and was definitely working herself. So random non-120lb girl, you ROCK! It's sad that the state of my gym is such that any one person who is even normal looking is a rarity. Everyone in there is a 20-21ish twig with perfect hair, perfume and matching gym clothes. Uh, no. When I'm in the gym, I'm just rolled out of bed, my hair is frightening, I'm wearing an old t-shirt and shorts and you're lucky if I remember to listerine my mouth before I come. And I dunno about anyone else, but since when has sweating become a gym faux pas? I'm DRENCHED when I leave, and yet somehow the other girls are pristine. Le sigh. Oh well! So here's to us overweight, sweaty girls who still have the self-esteem and gung-ho to get our asses in that perfumed twig gym and still kick some butt.

Ok, rambling is over. Time to post today's totals!

Calories: 1203
Carbs: 169
Fat: 36
Protein: 31
Sodium: 1693

I'm a little on the low side because I skipped breakfast this morning. No good, I know. But my stomach was off and I was running late. I still ate everything else though, and refused the fast food craving I had while driving past the 2938742398 McDonald's!!!

Ok, off to finish dinner and relax for the evening. :)
 
I read you were having a rough week and got off track and were frustrated and mad at yourself. I know you don't know me but I just wanted to tell you that I think it's awesome though that you were able to get back on track after only a week. I've always derailed for alot longer than that...minimum of 6months sadly to say. Well other then just recently in May but I would have kept going if my hubby who is dieting with me hadn't put his foot down. So anyway you deserve a pat on the back for that, even if you don't see it that way right now. We're all gonna stumble here and there but it's how fast we get back up that counts :)
 
Yay for normal-looking people at the gym! I always feel so much better when I see someone else who doesn't look thin around, like I have "permission" to be there. Though, really, these days I've gotten to the point where I don't notice those things quite as much most of the time--I'm less self-conscious. Anyway, yay you for that kick in the pants--and here's another one: eat your breakfast!

By the way, do I remember rightly that you're a Brit? How the hell did you never tell me about the awesome that is BBC Radio 4?

Sophie
 
Great job resisting McDonalds. I'm trying to stay away from it myself. Its a pain in the butt! And who cares if you are sweating at the gym!?!? Thats WHY you go there! lol. You rock for going in the first place!
 
Wow, I feel so popular! Thanks for stopping in, everyone. :) You guys are awesome and it's great to have such fantastic support!

Jello - Thanks for checking out my diary! Yeah I've been a bit "off" for probably a month or so but I've been doing a relatively good job - not pristine, but I've been getting to the gym fairly regularly and eating much better than I used to. So the weight isn't flying off, but I'm continuing to remind myself that this is a gradual healthy change that I want to make, and not a quick fix. That keeps me on track! And how helpful is it to have a significant other who is also trying to be healthy!!! My fiance is also now on the healthy lifestyle train with me which makes my life so much easier!! So I'm really glad to hear that you have that kind of support as well. :)

Korrie - Thanks chica! I am always appreciative of support wherever I can get it. :)

Sophie - Hahaha no I'm not a brit! Although I do think they are particualrly fun people - I've been to England, but alas am American. ;) And a gritty Philadelphian at that. Although I am now intrigued - What is this BBC 4 you are talking about?

Brandy - I personally consider it a wasted trip if I don't come home from the gym soaking wet. That's part of the whole thing that tells me I'm working it!!!

So the past two days I thought had been not so good, but I entered in my SparkPeople data and I actually did really well!! Yesterday we had the future mother and step-father in law come over for dinner and I was SO FULL after dinner that I thought for sure it must be way over my calories, but in actuality I was only 20 calories over! Didn't go to the gym this morning simply because I was mildly hung over (three glasses of wine with company equals headache!) and we were up really late because they didn't leave until 10:30 or so. So I'm planning to go this Saturday. I've been Monday, Tuesday and I'll go tomorrow and Friday since I have the day off, then Saturday will make five days for the week! YES!

Today I'm having a calculated cheat and I'm somehow still within my range as well. It was a particularly busy day at work ended with a three hour meeting where I wanted to tear my hair out because people talk to hear themselves talk. I came home and was feeling cranky, hormonal and just wanting to punch things and craving something fatty like whoa. (TOM is coming! Lovely.) So I ordered a sausage sandwich and chicken wings. Le sigh. However, amazingly enough I'm still in calorie range (and yes I did eat breakfast, Sophie!! ;) ) I'm starting to eat egg beaters in the morning with a glass of milk because I feel like the protein is better for me than cereal. Plus cereal gets boring after a while and I love having eggs for breakfast.

So without further delay, here are the totals!

Tuesday:

Calories: 1641
Carbs: 156
Fat: 56
Protein: 80

Today:

Calories: 1646
Carbs: 141
Fat: 69
Protein: 85

Not too bad! :)
 
great job! I think that I REALLY need to start using fitday or sparkpeople again. I also need the motivation to exercise more. I dont know why its so hard for me. I need to channel the "heather vibes" and feed off of your motivation at the gym. Lol. Have a great day today hunn!
 
Brandy - I definitely feel like exercise is a big big big part of what I'm trying to do. Plus it feels great to actually be on my way to being physically fit for the first time in my life! I would love to eventually jog outside in the mornings and make some kind of route for myself. I dunno, it's definitely an important part of healthy living and what I really need to do is just stop either exercising or eating right and start to do BOTH! Plus, making it a habit is really important. Once you've been doing it for like 2 months it starts to become habit. It's just a matter of keeping it up!

So today was pretty solid! Ate well, went to the gym and jogged 2.5 miles!!! I did 15 minutes at the new 5.2 setting (ie. 11:32 minute mile) each five minute segment was inter spaced with a 5 minute walking segment, but overall I think I did really well since that's the fastest speed I've ever done! My legs are definitely tired.

Unrelated, unimportant side note: there's this teeny kitten that has been coming by our terrace for the past week. I feel so horribly for the little thing. He/she is nothing but skin and bones, and she's terrified of people. We've been putting food out for her every night and nearly every morning, the plate is completely empty. Last night I went out while she was eating and very very slowly sat myself next to the plate and actually got to pet the little bugger. I really want to get her used to us and then call an animal shelter to find out what to do. I wouldn't mind keeping her, but we aren't supposed to have other cats in our apartment. I wonder if my mom would take her though. . . .she has a cat who is older and could use an extra little one. :) Maybe we could get her used to us then do a transfer to my mother's when we go there in August.

Anyway, rambling aside. . . .today's values! I made a delicious chicken, broccoli and rice dish tonight. simple crap really and I could have made it healthier, but I was just working with what I had. Sauteed the chicken in olive oil and garlic, added broccoli then put it all in a cream of chicken soup and milk sauce. Heated up brown rice and put the mixture over it. SO GOOD!!!! Next time I think I might skip the olive oil if I'm trying to lower the calories, and definitely use healthy choice cream of chicken.

Ok - VALUES.

Calories: 1509
Carbs: 164
Fat: 45
Protein: 86
Sodium: 1873

Exercise: 35 minutes on treadmill, 15 mins at 5.2 and 15 minutes at 4.0, 5 minute cooldown. 325 calories burned
 
Ok. SERIOUSLY. TOM is such a pain in my butt. I thought I was done seeing the number 2 in front of my weight, but noooo. . . .this morning I am a flat 200.0. UGH. My consolation is that my eating this week hasn't been horrible and I have gone to the gym 4 days - with a 5th coming tomorrow morning! And of course the boytoy is now looking at over 20lbs lost and all he had to do was stop eating complete crap and go to the gym. What the heck!!! I kid though of course, I'm so proud of my man. He looks great, too!! You can definitely tell a big difference. I'll get to where I want to be. It might take me forever and a day, but I'll get there.

Le sigh. . . .off to change the ticker. BLAH! Next week it WILL be changed the other way again. I'm done with this nonsense!

PS. It's time to make good on one of my goals. . . . .today is day one of wearing "the patch". Hopefully I'm not too irritable to my poor fiance! The patch helps a LOT though. It's what helped me quit before. So I'll get there!
 
So I'm completely and utterly shocked. . . .we ate at a buffet today and I was TOTALLY expecting my calories to be out of control. Nevermind that but I had two beers this afternoon as well! And I actually am going to have to eat something else tonight even though I'm still full from the buffet. I had everything I wanted to eat while I was there, and I still did REALLY WELL today. I had chicken wings, shrimp, marinated mushrooms and stuffed mushrooms. I was totally full when I left and even so, I didn't eat that much! We're gonna relax for the rest of the night, but I wanted to put my totals in before I forgot. The night isn't over and I'm sure I'm going to find myself something else to eat. I'm thinking about eating some pasta or a tuna sandwich. Probably the tuna sandwich as it will be better for me than the pasta.

Gymmed it today as well. 15 minutes on the elliptical, ab work and arms!

Calories: 1595
Carbs: 139
Fat: 37
Protein: 107
Sodium: 1789

*edit* Edited to reflect end of the day values! Not too bad!
 
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WOW! You're totals have been amazing lately. Don't worry about the "2"...it will go away soon enough. I'm not losing weight fast either, and it bugs me...but someday I will be there, and you will be too! Its awesome that your boy is losing weight as well! And I want that kitty! My heart goes out to all animals. I just look at them and then want to take them all home!
 
Great job, lady! You deserve to see a loss and to bust through the evil 200 mark FOREVER!!! :smash: TOM really does stink, always throws me off. So does too much sodium, slipped in without me really thinking about it.

Keep at 'er, girlfriend!
ABBA
 
OK, so it seems that immediately after I get my motivation back, we have holiday weekend and then I get sick. Lovely. Think I had a mild kidney infection, actually. Felt like it was a bladder infection Monday morning, but as Monday wore on I started to have lower back pain and a low grade fever. Peed in a cup for the doc and started on my antibiotics. I slept like the DEAD last night for almost 10 hours. Went to bed at 9:15ish and got up at 7am. Felt better today but seriously tired. So needless to say, haven't been to the gym since Friday. Oh and have eaten complete crap. Monday I ate nothing until 6pm then I had ramen noodles. Today for some reason I'm a bottomless pit and ate fast food -TWICE- . Ugh. So. . . .thank god I'm feeling better, and plan to get back to that gym tomorrow. Think for now I'll hoof it back to the couch as I still feel a little iffy. :p Blah.
 
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