Weighing In at 276
Today I weighed in at 276. This isn't the heaviest I've been (288) but I felt pretty bad seeing that number on the scale.
I've ben obsessed with my weight since I was in grade school. My best friend and I would eat as slowly as possible and talk about how we would not to be fat like our mothers.
In middle school I was 100 pounds and by 10th grade I was 186 where I stayed until 19 when I binge ate myself to 226 after my brother died.
Since then I've yo-yo'd. My lowest being 150, the highest 288.
I've discovered that when I feel horrible I look it.
Changing the way I view others and myself is my new focus, so that after a rotten day I don't eat a pizza to feel better.
My goal is to find friends that I feel comfortable with at any weight, hobbies that interest me more than food and a way of living that enhances my better qualities.
I'd also like to remove the word "hate" from my vocabulary because I use that word way too often.
It will be exciting to see how my personality changes as my body does.
Although the number on the scale is not the only indication of my health I think my 5' 4.75" frame will feel and look good at 130 pounds. If I can lose 146 pounds and keep it off, I think I'll be able to accomplish anything else I set my mind to.
Good luck to myself!
Today I weighed in at 276. This isn't the heaviest I've been (288) but I felt pretty bad seeing that number on the scale.
I've ben obsessed with my weight since I was in grade school. My best friend and I would eat as slowly as possible and talk about how we would not to be fat like our mothers.
In middle school I was 100 pounds and by 10th grade I was 186 where I stayed until 19 when I binge ate myself to 226 after my brother died.
Since then I've yo-yo'd. My lowest being 150, the highest 288.
I've discovered that when I feel horrible I look it.
Changing the way I view others and myself is my new focus, so that after a rotten day I don't eat a pizza to feel better.
My goal is to find friends that I feel comfortable with at any weight, hobbies that interest me more than food and a way of living that enhances my better qualities.
I'd also like to remove the word "hate" from my vocabulary because I use that word way too often.
It will be exciting to see how my personality changes as my body does.
Although the number on the scale is not the only indication of my health I think my 5' 4.75" frame will feel and look good at 130 pounds. If I can lose 146 pounds and keep it off, I think I'll be able to accomplish anything else I set my mind to.
Good luck to myself!
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Keep up the positive thinking and youll do fine!!
