Happy and Healthy - A New Beginning!

happyandhealthy

happyandhealthy

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Hey guys,

Well...another diary out of many! haha...

For those who don't remember me from the past I will write a brief history:

For the past 3 years I have been living in an incredibly unhealthy relationship which, along with a sexual assult that occured 4 years ago, has had a very bad effect on my mental health. I developed an eating disorder (binge eating disorder, with occassional bulimic behaviours) and recieved therapy for 6 months. During that time I learnt so much about myself and how to overcome my eating disorder, however due to financial constraints I couldn't put the changes in place that I needed to make.

But now, those changes have happened! I am out of that destructive relationship and I have surrounded myself with great friends. I am so much happier and in the past month I have only had two very minor slip ups with my ED. It's great to be in such a positive place!

I have been exercising four times a week with my best friend. We get up early and go for a run and do some squats, pushups etc. We also walk some dogs during the day for about half an hour, so i'm keeping pretty active.

I have been eating MUCH healthier than I was previously, and now that I am not binging my calorie intake has pretty much halved from what it was! Most days however I am eating at or only a very little bit under my maintenance calorie level (a few days over too!) so i'm not really losing weight like I want to be.

I am going to use this diary to help me keep track of what i'm eating and to give me more focus on the eating side of my journey to a new and happy me.

I am currently about 100kg. I haven't actually weighed myself in a month, but it's pretty much that I think. I've been using a measuring tape to record my progress as I think it's a much more acurate measure of success. So far the numbers have been going down so i'm happy!

On the 27th of July I was Waist=106.5cm Hips=131cm Bust=126cm
On the 31st of August I was Waist = 100cm Hips = 127cm Bust = 116cm

That's some good progress!

I've had a bit of a dodgy day today food wise. I had toast for breaky, a bowl of noodles for lunch and a huge glass of milo. Haha...sheesh! And it's not even 2pm. I think that's what's prompted me to want to write this and to begin to focus on my diet so that I can achieve a steady weight loss.

Thanks for reading!

Happyandhealthy :party:
 
I just had a weird experience. Tonight I went out to see a band with two of my old friends from uni. Another of our friends from uni was singing in the band.

After the gig he came up to us to talk. I said hello really enthusiastically cause I hadn't seen him in 3 years. He briefly looked at me and then started talking to my two other friends, not looking at me once. I'm pretty certain he did not recognise me at all.

Now we were never very close friends, but we've sung together, hung out together in different groups in class or at parties. He knows who I am.

It felt really horrible that he simply didn't recognise me because of how much weight i've put on in the past year.

I'm so self concious about my weight and i'm always really scared about seeing people I know from when I was skinnier. It took a lot for me to stand there and smile and try to look confident and say hello. So it was a real kick in the guts when I was completely blanked.

I guess this is just something to help give me some extra motivation, to get back to the me that people remember.

On that note, todays eating was a bit off.

2 x vegemite on toast

2 x huge glasses of milo

2 x migoreng noodles

1 x banana

I also had one beer, two JD and diet cokes and a glass of red wine.

I'm estimating about 2100 total for the day.
 
Okay, today's eating was slightly better than yesterday!

I started the day with a pretty full on workout (for me anyway!). I ran a whole lap of the park near my house. First time i've been able to do that! Then I ran another 4 lengths of the football field, running up, walking down etc. I noticed that I was running the lengths a lot faster than normal, more like an actual run as opposed to my usual barely more than walking jog! It felt good so I really pushed myself on the last length and tried to go as hard as I could, it felt good! Hard though! Did some dips and pushups and abwork after that.

Breakfast was one weetbix with half a banana = 175 calories

Lunch was tofu curry with brown rice = 700

Dinner was Minestrone = 800

Dessert was icecream and a small square of chocolate = 300

Total calories = 1975

Not too bad....probably could have skipped on the dessert though! I had a really rough and stressful day with WAY too many things going wrong. I will admit, it was my comfort food! But I didn't over kill on it so that's good :)
 
Okay, so once again not a fabulous day of eating, but not hideous either. I was quite active today though.

I ate

2 crumpets with vegemite 300
Left over Spag Bol 500
Boston Bun 400
Chocolate Spread 200 (momentary binge urge...grrr)
Chicken n Pot Casserole 800
2 pieces dark choc 100

Total 2300

I also got about 30 minutes walking in there, 3 hours of houswork, 1 hour of washing 2 very big and active dogs....my muscles are aching from my workout yesterday morning still too!

GOOD NEWS!

I measured myself this morning and i'd gone down! Woohoo!

Current measurements = H-125cm W-97cm B-115cm
 
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Hi folks,

Just clocking in with an update. I've been feeling quite good these past few days. I feel like i'm listening to my body more about how much/what/when I need to eat. Last night I only ate a small dinner because I wasn't very hungry. Normally I am programmed to eat a proper meal because that's what you do. But listening to what I needed felt so much better. Also all of my housemates were eating lollies and chocolate last night and I was offered some so many times. But I just did not feel the urge at all. It was great!

Did my monday measurements this morning and they're still going down! I am most happiest about the progress on my hips, which were going down slower than the rest but got a bit of a move on this week!

W = 95cm H = 123cm B = 115cm

My waist is now down 11cm, my hips down 8cm, my bust down 11cm. It seems like such a huge difference! Shame it doesn't look like that much, but i'm still definitely noticing it. It feels good!
 
Okay guys, so it's been just under 2 months since I started focussing on my weightloss. I thought i'd post some pictures of my progress even though it's INCREDIBLY embarrassing!!!!!

I appologise if the almost nakedness offends, but all "bits" are covered :)

I can definitely see a difference in my stomach. It's poking out far less and looks softer. I can definitely see that I am going to have some problems with loose skin on my lower belly, but i'll deal with that when I get there.

Overall I am happy with my progress :party:

Oh...and I don't have a pole growing out of my leg. It's the only thing I could find to press the button on my computer!
 
Thanks Kirsty!

Well...about two years ago I did a month of capoeira. It was really cool, but the lessons fell through as my teacher moved to japan and I couldn't afford to join a club.

Last night I suddenly thought of it again so I downloaded the Axe Capoeira instructional DVD's. Nothing could possibly beat playing in a club, but for now a video in my bedroom is as good as it'll get! I did about 20 minutes this morning - SHEESH! Capoeira is SO much hard work, but so amazing! I'm going to try and do a little every single day.

My goal is to learn the basics on my own, building my strength and fitness. Then when I reach a size 12 I will feel confident to join a club. That would be so incredible, because capoeira is more than just the play. It's the music, the culture....can't wait to get there!
 
YAY! I am so happy right now!

When I started this weight loss at the beginning of August I weighed 106kg. I weighed myself today for the first time in AGES and I am so happy because I have broken through the 100kg barrier and made it to 99.4kg. Woohoo! That's 219lbs.

Considering I haven't been perfect with my eating - still a fair bit of chocolate and beer in there - that is such a good loss. It motivates me to exercise more and focus on my diet more. Yay! Feeling so happy today!
 
Hmmm...okay, so an absence of 4 months kind of shows that I went of the rails a little for a while.

Why does it seem that as soon as I recognise that I've made some progress I screw up!? Major self destructive issues!

Anyway, it's not all bad! I've actually lost another 1.4 kilos (3lbs) since my last post...woohoo!

I've just started up with a new therapist (for my binge eating disorder) and I'm feeling really positive because he seems to want to work on weight loss with me, which is something that my other therapist ignored. So all is good! I've eaten really well these past few days and my running is going well....well, I can run 1.3km and I do that every second night....so it's okay....haha

I'm going to clock in as often as possible and REALLY try to keep focussed this time!
 
Thanks Trusylver!

Well, a week on and I'm glad to report that I'm now down to 97kg...woohoo! I've been keeping my calories at about 1800 - 2000 for the past week and I'm definitely noticing a difference. I haven't exercised a huge amount, but I went for a run and have walked about a fair bit. Just hoping to maintain the focus for the coming week and keep up the progress.

I joined the "Valentine's Day Challenge" last week. I set my goal at 95kg by valentines day. I'll be extremely happy if I hit that goal, even more if I surpass it! I've only got 2kg to get there so if I work hard it can definitely be done.

This week I have decided on an alteration to my diet. I am constantly changing between vegan and non-vegan. The main reason in the past for my inability to stick with it was the fact that I was sharing meals with my housemate and she would get bored of vegan. But now we're not sharing I think I will be fine. It feels better health wise, it certainly has a positive effect on my wallet, and it makes me feel more at peace ethically. I am not going to be too intense on it. If I'm out with friends or, more so, if I am having dinner with family I won't worry about sticking with it too rigidly. If there are options I will definitely take them, but I won't panic or piss off everyone else if there isn't!

Also, I've decided to go gluten free as well. I know this sounds like a bit of a bandwagon, BUT...A few years ago I was diagnosed with chronic fatigue syndrome and on doctors orders I was put on a diet of no gluten and no dairy (along with other things). I stuck with it for 6 months and the difference it made to the way I felt was incredible. The chronic fatigue pretty much disappeared in the first two weeks and I started to lose a lot of weight. Well, recently I've been experiencing some of the same symptoms I had back then (falling asleep when I'm reading, turning into a zombie every time I eat something, even if it's only something small...) so I'm going to see if going GF will help that. And obviously with the vegan thing I'm dairy free as well.

So, there you have it. That's my weekly update! Hopefully I'll have good stuff to report back next week too!
 
Gosh I'm a slackarse!!!

It's been over 3 weeks since I last clocked in!

Well, things have been going well :D I'm currently at 95.5kg (210.5lbs), so down about 3lbs from last time I wrote. Feeling very positive that I can reach my goal of 95kg by Valentines day!

I've been doing some Capoeira lately which I'm sure has been helping with the weight loss! Also my appetite is virtually non-existent this week which is good and bad. Good because it means it's making it easy to lose weight and bad because I'm really not eating enough. I just can't seem to bring it to my mouth, and I am NEVER like that! Hopefully it eases off over the next couple of days. Though as I write I have a bowl of oats sitting next to me that I made about half an hour ago and have only eaten about three small mouthfulls. Hmmmm.
 
Woohoo! Just weighed in and the scales told me a very awesome 94kg! That means I've surpassed my goal of 95kg by Valentine's day - joy!
 
Yay! Officially clocked off on the Valentine's Day Challenge at 94kg. Feels good! It's the first time I have participated in one of those challenges and actually stuck it out, let alone surpassed my goal! It's such a good feeling!

So...my next goal is to take me through the next 7 weeks. At the start of April I will be going to visit a friend of the male variety (hehe) and I'd like to have reached 89kg by that time. I think that's very realistic, and if I keep it going at the rate I have been so far this year then I may even get a little lower!

I know 89kg seems like a bit of a funny goal, but that's the weight where my body really started to go kaput - stretch marks started appearing, and I couldn't shop in normal shops any more. To get back to that weight will really make me feel like I'm on my way back to normality and happiness!
 
Yay! I just ran 3km non-stop! And it was outside with a couple of slight hills even!

AWESOME!

I haven't done that since 2006 so it feels pretty darn good! And when I DID do that in 2006 I was 30kg lighter so I think to do that NOW is a pretty big accomplishment...woohoo!

:party::party::party:
 
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