Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim

[ali2]

You've come this far, there's no reason to think otherwise. That re-entry step is a mutha, so I've noted, but it all seems to fall back into place rather nicely.

Be nice to yourself or imma sendin' the goons. Ya hear me ??

The goons? Are these mafia-type goons or goons of another variety

Sometimes it just seems that I have been doing this forever (relatively speaking, 2 years losing weight versus 16 gaining it) and there is always something that sets me back, messes me up or whatever. But I guess that is life - no one promised me a perfect ride and I'm not doing anything else with my time so I may as well try to reclaim myself.

Not an advertisement or anything but I did post one of those dorky, put on the fat pants pics in my pic thread and you would have to be blind not to see what I have done. Funny thing is that it took me putting on the pants to really see it if that makes any sense.

Sometimes I need to be hit over the head with a brick (or a goon) that's all.

 

[T2 Trucker]

So let's share secrets here. I think the two year mark was my threshold. It wasn't intentional. It just was. But ya know what ?? Absences does do that fonder thing to the heart.

I sure as shit missed my commitment and all it stood for. And gawd, I not need remind you of the rewards. Look kiddo, I read your throwback list. Yanno, you got real life events to deal with. Seriously, I don't have to cut up my day amongst all that. I feel proud for you and the many others who divvy up their life only to fall on the short side of their own 'hey what about me' time.


Yeah, goons. Brass-knuckled and all. Have we got your attention yet ??

 

[ali2]

Ooooooooo brass knuckles? Getting closer to getting my attention

Thanks for the props, I almost always fall on the short side of the 'what about me' time - which is frustrating to me on occasion but what are you going to do? I don't live in a vacuum here and it is all of those things that I list, and a hundred others, that have helped pull this out longer than I wanted.

But like I said, I'm not doing anything else with my time, may as well keep at it.

It was soooooooooo much easier getting fat

 

[ali2]

Sigh.

I went back to the gym last night - did weights and elliptical and I am spending my morning feeling a bit like hell...not going at all was a real big mistake on my part, I feel like I may have been set back less if I had gone even once a week over the past month or so.

Oh well, lesson learned. I am counting calories again - I was at 173 this morning, pre-TOM so hopefully that will all balance out soon enough.

It is funny how you can slip back into the old ways of eating (at least for me) - that the change I have made for the most part is a wholesale change but every now and again, fat ali shows up and I think that eating a plate of nachos is a really smart idea.

I just have to keep working at it. That's ok - I really don't see myself going back - I found some pictures of myself the day I went in the hospital to have my daughter and the day I brought her home, that is easily the fattest I have ever been in my life and I have no desire to go back to that person, physically or mentally.

Time moves on, I just need to keep moving with it.

 

[Bigguy]

Sigh.

I went back to the gym last night - did weights and elliptical and I am spending my morning feeling a bit like hell...not going at all was a real big mistake on my part, I feel like I may have been set back less if I had gone even once a week over the past month or so.

Oh well, lesson learned. I am counting calories again - I was at 173 this morning, pre-TOM so hopefully that will all balance out soon enough.

It is funny how you can slip back into the old ways of eating (at least for me) - that the change I have made for the most part is a wholesale change but every now and again, fat ali shows up and I think that eating a plate of nachos is a really smart idea.

I just have to keep working at it. That's ok - I really don't see myself going back - I found some pictures of myself the day I went in the hospital to have my daughter and the day I brought her home, that is easily the fattest I have ever been in my life and I have no desire to go back to that person, physically or mentally.

Time moves on, I just need to keep moving with it.

Ali- you will be fine. Think about it- you took a lot of time off and did you get back to 200 lbs? anywhere close? No. You maintained and didnt really worry about it too much.
Getting back to the gym is important because that is where you can achieve a lot of your goals that you have set for yourself. It is not the end all be all though.
Eating nachos is fine. There is no need to deprive yourself of anything- just moderation- you arent eating them everyday right? right?

You will not go back to being that person ali- I think you know that.
Sore is just your bodies way of telling you that you need to get your ass to the gym more often...

 

[ali2]

Ali- you will be fine. Think about it- you took a lot of time off and did you get back to 200 lbs? anywhere close? No. You maintained and didnt really worry about it too much.

No, nowhere close to 200, I held in the range of 174-169 or so - which I am pretty sure is within anyone's normal range of fluctuation. I think that I see this as something that should proceed in one direction - ali getting thinner (fitter, whatever) and then I lose myself a bit when things get crazy and it feels (even though it really isn't) like a setback. I guess the point is that there will always be something that crops up, that's life and I would like to somehow be able to get to a change in routine and not fall completely off the wagon.

Getting back to the gym is important because that is where you can achieve a lot of your goals that you have set for yourself. It is not the end all be all though.

Not the be all end all, but it is the difference between being a less fat version of myself and transforming myself, which as you know well, is my ultimate goal. I just have to suck it up and go. Plain and simple.

Eating nachos is fine. There is no need to deprive yourself of anything- just moderation- you arent eating them everyday right? right?

You mean I'm not supposed to be eating them everyday?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Ut oh....

Just kidding Not everyday but I go on runs where I have a lot of bad shit over a few days if that makes sense. Just need to make better choices - nachos will always be there...

You will not go back to being that person ali- I think you know that.

Not on your life. I was horrified by those pictures. Really.

Sore is just your bodies way of telling you that you need to get your ass to the gym more often...

True dat sweetie

 

[JustJessie]

Hey Ali!

Just wanted to check in on you and see how things were going. I hope things have calmed a bit for you and that you are still hanging in there.

You have been one of my biggest role models here and I still hope that I can have as much success as you have.

Hope you are doing well!