Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim

Got a lot of crap in the fire this week so this will be short -

Ran my race - it was tough (about 1/3-1/2 involved hills) but I met all of my goals.

1 - finish the race without walking - i did this with a time of 34:52
2 - don't finish last - i didn't 180/195 overall
3 - don't finish last in your age group - didn't - 12/14 in the 30-39 age group.

I decided that I am going to run another one - b/c now i have goals to beat. For now I am going to work on building endurance/speed and see where it goes.
 
Got a lot of crap in the fire this week so this will be short -

Ran my race - it was tough (about 1/3-1/2 involved hills) but I met all of my goals.

1 - finish the race without walking - i did this with a time of 34:52
2 - don't finish last - i didn't 180/195 overall
3 - don't finish last in your age group - didn't - 12/14 in the 30-39 age group.

I decided that I am going to run another one - b/c now i have goals to beat. For now I am going to work on building endurance/speed and see where it goes.

:driving: way to go, Ali!
 
Thanks Ange!!

So I have determined, after consultation with someone whose advice I really value, that I have a HUGE consistency problem. I can kick ass for a few days with my eating, staying in line, counting calories, ,losing weight, etc and then as soon as a wrench is thrown into the mix, I forget everything I know and slip.

I need to figure out how to handle those times that are out of the ordinary - if I can do that - I could finally beat this thing...
 
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Congrats on the race, Ali! You must've been stoked. :)

Overcoming consistency problems can be a real bitch for people. In my experience, it's usually a multidimensional problem consisting of an objective and a subjective dimension.

Objectively, what often is the root of the problem is poor planning. People who have busy schedules really *need* to plan out their nutrition and prepare a lot of their food in advance. Without doing so, the moment a 'wrench' is thrown in, they resort to what's easy and what's easy often isn't conducive to dieting.

Sticking with the objective angle, as I've stated to you in the past before, simply being flexible with your workouts is key. For instance, if I'm slated to train 3 times per week using a full body routine and an insane schedule overloads me and I'm only able to make it into the gym twice this week... you better believe that I'm going to do *something*. It might not be as 'good' as what I do in the gym but I still did something... at the least a body weight circuit.

The subjective side of things seems to be the most powerful and the most common breaker of consistency. People get on a role for a few days. Then the weekend roles around and all things associated with the weekend oppose those things that must be done if you're going to achieve your goals. These associations easily over-ride your conscious desires b/c they've been ingrained habitually for so long.

Asking yourself key questions and answering them on paper can go a long way, as silly as it sounds...

Why do you want what you want?

What are you willing to do to reach your goals?

What would you be willing to do if you could reach your goal tomorrow?

What will it feel like and what will it mean if you don't ever reach your goals?

What will it feel like and what will it mean if/when you do reach your goals?

I am always answering questions like this myself. And not only answering them, but writing down my answers. It's not that I lie to myself either. It's not that I'm lazy and need to 'sell' the idea of being consistent to myself. It's simply the fact that the decisions we make this moment have a lot to do with the mental conditioning we've had over all the years prior to this. Said conditioning plays a significant role in our perceptions, our decision making abilities and our emotions. They've also gone essentially unfiltered into our minds for a long time with little attention paid. Our actions are the output of the conditioning. Left to their own, what you'll get most likely is what you've always had. Re-programming your internal voice and thought patterns is potent. But it takes continual focus and conditioning, just like your body

When you're on a role, you more than likely don't need to remind yourself of these things. You don't need to read your list of questions and answers. But if you don't consistently read over these sorts of things, as soon as the 'wrench' is thrown into the mix... you're going to trip. And tripping is fine once in a while, assuming you pick yourself up and learn something. Tripping every single week to the extent that you're negating progress... that's not fine.

The subjectivity of it is very individual and there isn't a cookie cutter approach to it. The universal concept is you need to input 'data' into your mind that leads to healthy emotions and behaviors relative to your goals.
 
Steve - I never told you this - that was really so helpful to read, I have definately been incorporating your advice into my routine and think I have seen some improvement. It has helped when I have had a wrench thrown in eating-wise or things haven't gone my way workout wise. I try to remember that this is a progression and something I have to just keep working at. I have managed to make gains in the last month in this regard. Thanks for taking the time to write all of that, it is most certainly appreciated.

Can't wait for the start of the WS :)

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So I have been gamely plugging away here working my tail off and adhering to a good caloric intake and working out regularly. I have been making great strides in my running - yesterday I ran 2.8 miles in 30, an average of 5.6mph which is an all-time high for me. I am really excited about this.

I am seeing a flattening of my stomach (this is relative, in no way would my stomach be considered flat under any circumstance) and the emergence of a waist of all things. Dare I say I am looking more and more 'normal' every day.

What I am getting from people now are comments like, well you are done losing, right? How could you lose any more weight, you are so thin. Um, these people need their frickin eyes checked out b/c there is no way I am construed as anything close to thin. I think that people say this b/c I don't look like someone who weighs 172. I was really lucky in that regard my whole life - I never looked to be as fat as I really was (although looking at my befores, it was a hell of a lot closer than I thought - I looked like a, um, what's a good word here...I know! a house :D) Anyhoo - I personally feel that I have at least 20 to go and then I will see where I am and how I look at that weight. I get embarassed telling people I'm not finished b/c they act like I should be happy with where I am.

Where I am is a size 12ish, 172 lb woman who is 5'4". Last I checked, that is still overweight. Not good enough, not anymore.

So I will keep going and see where I end up. Can't do anything more than that.

:)
 
ali.isdoinggreat, Wonderful news about the run. 2.8 in 30 so amazing considering what you were running just a couple weeks ago. Keep smokin that trail. :sifone:
 
Hehe... welcome to a new world of frustration. Just when you think you are having a break through and starting to see progress you will start hearing people say things like "You're too thin" or "You need to stop losing". Ignore it. You know what the goals are... if it helps, don't tell people you are still losing either. Fuck em... they don't need to know.

BTW, great work.
 
ali.isdoinggreat, Wonderful news about the run. 2.8 in 30 so amazing considering what you were running just a couple weeks ago. Keep smokin that trail. :sifone:


I know - it really just blows my mind. I never thought I was capable of doing something like this, honestly. I kinda wonder how fast my stubby lil legs can take me...
 
Hehe... welcome to a new world of frustration. Just when you think you are having a break through and starting to see progress you will start hearing people say things like "You're too thin" or "You need to stop losing". Ignore it. You know what the goals are... if it helps, don't tell people you are still losing either. Fuck em... they don't need to know.

BTW, great work.

I am seeing that now...I want to pull out my poor wrecked stomach and say, SEE??? Does this look like the belly of someone who doesn't have more weight to lose? Just b/c I dress well and hide it doesn't mean it isn't there...

I may have to take that approach Keith - it is really embarassing for people to say you don't need to lose any more weight...they don't see me naked...how can they possibly know?


Thanks :)
 
I am seeing that now...I want to pull out my poor wrecked stomach and say, SEE??? Does this look like the belly of someone who doesn't have more weight to lose? Just b/c I dress well and hide it doesn't mean it isn't there...

I may have to take that approach Keith - it is really embarassing for people to say you don't need to lose any more weight...they don't see me naked...how can they possibly know?


Thanks :)

I think you'll find that in my posts about a hundred times over. To this day, if people find out I am still losing weight, they flip out. Most of my friends know better to not even cross that road with me, because on more than one occasion I've slapped out the OLE stomach for them to see. I mean hey, if you wanna give me shit, I'll give you proof, but for the most part, they all understand now. :)
 
I think you'll find that in my posts about a hundred times over. To this day, if people find out I am still losing weight, they flip out. Most of my friends know better to not even cross that road with me, because on more than one occasion I've slapped out the OLE stomach for them to see. I mean hey, if you wanna give me shit, I'll give you proof, but for the most part, they all understand now. :)

I remember reading that...it really isn't my close friends but those acquaintence types who haven't seen me...those are the ones who experience the 'shock and awe' and all of a sudden decide that they know I have lost enough. My goal is to get rid of the fat - if I can grab the extra padding on my hips, I'm not done. Nuff said.

:)
 
I remember reading that...it really isn't my close friends but those acquaintence types who haven't seen me...those are the ones who experience the 'shock and awe' and all of a sudden decide that they know I have lost enough. My goal is to get rid of the fat - if I can grab the extra padding on my hips, I'm not done. Nuff said.

:)

Atta girl. That should be in your Signature :)
 
Which part? Everything after the hyphen or just the last two sentences? :)

A variation of this "My goal is to get rid of the fat - if I can grab the extra padding on my hips, I'm not done. Nuff said."

It's good words to live by when you're in this stage. I almost lost my mind this weekend and I should have just had a mantra to fall back on. Steve naturally stepped in to calm my dumb ass down.
 
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