Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim

I suppose whether it is 'good stuff' or not depends on whether or not be being naked is a good thing...

:p
 
I feel like I am about to turn a corner here...

I am running consistently and making continuous strides with it - my last run was 2.85 miles in 30 min or a 5.7mph average. If you told me when I started running (which to be honest was just really at the end of September) that I would be able to run at 5.7 I would have called you a liar. I am so happy with where I have been able to go with this. I have a real good support system which has been crucial in helping me along the way. So important when you are trying something new and you are unsure of yourself. I feel so much better about it than I did before.

Regarding my weight loss, I weighed in today at 170.6. Holy crap, right? Not an official weigh-in, that's tomorrow, but that is easily the lowest I have been since my senior year of high school. My goal is to be below 170 by 11/1 - and I know I will reach it.

The running seems to have shocked my body in a way, I am seeing compositional changes like I did when I started weight-training which are just fabulous to see.

I am at the 94lb total mark.
100 is right around the corner :D
 
Damn, Ali! 170 is great! I guess the new mindset of starting fresh again is setting in. 15 pounds gone. Amazing. :hurray:
 
Thanks guys :)

The bat mitzvah is this weekend so I will post pics of me in my dress...should be a good time :)
 
Today is weigh-in day. I have no idea what the heck is happening to me but it is so freaking cool.

168.8

Ticker updated. This one's official kids.

:D
 
Good morning, darlin. What can I say? You floor me every time. 168 and still trucking. :auto:

Are you working today or off?
 
Good morning, darlin. What can I say? You floor me every time. 168 and still trucking. :auto:

Are you working today or off?

Good morning dear :)

Today is the day of the bat mitzvah...I'm up and getting ready. So not really work, unless you consider attending an event where both of my dad's ex-wives and his current girlfriend will be there, work :D

I am looking forward to it, it should be a good time.

I floored myself for once - I can't believe that I appear to be out of the 170s...my 100 lb loss is right around the freakin corner :)
 
Good morning dear :)

Today is the day of the bat mitzvah...I'm up and getting ready. So not really work, unless you consider attending an event where both of my dad's ex-wives and his current girlfriend will be there, work :D

I am looking forward to it, it should be a good time.

I floored myself for once - I can't believe that I appear to be out of the 170s...my 100 lb loss is right around the freakin corner :)

Hey Ali :)

Congrats on the weight loss. You seem to be right back on the ball with things and have the results to prove it. The 100lb mark is right around the corner and that is terrific!

and Yes, I do consider the event work then ;)

Have a great day,
Sam
 
So I guess it has been about a week or so since I have posted...not much is new here - I am still chugging along more or less. This week has been a bit of a wash for me, I spent the first half getting back on track from last weekend with the food orgy that was the bat mitzvah and then went off the wagon last night making cupcakes for my daughter's daycare class. For some reason I felt that the batter was put to better use in my mouth than in those little paper cups you use...what is interesting is that I felt like crap almost immediately afterward. My body rejected what I did but the behavior in my mind was the same. That is the part I need to change, the thing in my head that thinks that it is a good idea to do things like that. There is no way that feeling sick for 12 hours is worth the batter I ate. I need to either not eat it at all or eat enough to satisify the craving and nothing more. I was whole hog last night, right back in my 'fat girl' ways.

Lesson learned...again and again and again...
 
I really don't have anything to report on the weight loss front, I have been really busy with work and life and my eating has suffered a bit. Nothing crazy, I just haven't maintained the level of attention to my eating that I had been previously.

Eh - no big deal - just wanted to say what's up.

Hi all!

I did do something cool yesterday...

ran a 10 minute mile for the first time in my life :D
 
Beautiful stuff Ali.FastFeet

Keep at it... and eating at maintenance does wonders for those hormone levels, especially after a nice stint of dieting.
 
I'm tryin Keith - I will tell you, I wanted to die after that mile...my body was oh-so-pissed at the temerity I had, trying to make it do new things...

I am trying to take it easy with the eating and try to just be sensible for once in my ever-loving life. Nothing crazy for a week or two and then back at it...

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For those of you who have seen my before/during thread, you probably have noticed I have a bit o' the acne. I have had it since I hit pubery at about 12 and have never had it in remission, ever. I have spent the past 20 years dealing with breakouts and trying to either cover them up or make them go away. Nothing, I repeat, nothing, has worked. It actually bothers me more than being fat.

With losing this weight I still felt incomplete. I have this great new (albeit unfinished) body but was still embarassed about how I looked. Well, yesterday I started on Accutane, which for those of you who are blessed enough to not have to deal with the whole acne mess, is the medication of last resort for acne suffers. It is the stuff they give you when nothing else on the market works. It took my Dr. all of 3 minutes to determine that I qualified for this drug.

It is a 5-month course of treatment and 80% of suffers are 'cured' in one course.

Now, if you haven't heard anything about Accutane it is a pretty scary drug. It has a lot of possible side-effects and you can't get it w/o enrolling in a federal compliance program b/c of what can happen if you get pregnant while you are on it. It pretty much causes guaranteed birth defects so the whole program is designed around educating women of child-bearing age not to get pregnant.

So while it is a lot of work, it is going to be so worth it in the end. I will feel complete I think and I will have so much more confidence b/c I won't have to cover myself up under a layer of makeup. I didn't go through all of this to still have a part of me that I am unhappy with.

Not much to do with weight-loss, but hey, its my diary, right?

:)
 
Hey... I understand where you are coming from (<---- cut cut)... I think you know that fairly well. Just be careful with that stuff. I've heard scary things.
 
I will be, don't worry. I read the fact sheet and know what the side-effects are. Told some close friends so they can keep an eye on me too.

My SIL is on it, a few months in, and has had great results. I am excited. Cautious, but excited.

And I know you know, believe me :) It is just one more thing to get me 'complete', ya know :)
 
Ali, well done on the 10 min mile. Glad to see you are still keeping up with the running. I've found that when things get real busy that's one of the first to go. Eating right I can stay on top of, but actually getting my ass outside running, that takes a lot to work up to.
 
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