Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim

Most radiant dear :)

It rained last night and totally cooled off here, I am finding I have no shirts with sleeves that fit so I am wearing an 18/20 top and looking most ridiculous...

Cute mind you, but ridiculous as well :)

Lol, but being too small for an 18/20 top is a good thing, darlin!

I was looking at your pic thread last night and Mike saw your pics - he said you were very pretty. :D
 
Lol, but being too small for an 18/20 top is a good thing, darlin!

I was looking at your pic thread last night and Mike saw your pics - he said you were very pretty. :D

Tell that wonderful man of yours I said thanks :)

It is a good thing, believe me I know this...I just get frustrated not having things that fit...another Ross trip is in order.
 
I swear the two of you scare the crap out of me.

Hell week two is in full throttle. Just stopped to say high to everyone. :)
 
Ok so I decided to take yesterday and today off from working out to see if it had any effect on this cold and I think that it may have helped. I woke up this morning feeling better than I have in a week and I beleive that I should be able to get back to things tomorrow, hopefully mostly recovered.

I had a really crappy day at work and immediately went back to my fatty habits...I ate a piece of jewish apple cake in something like three bites and the relief I felt afterwards was palpable. That scared the crap out of me...but I was able to stop it at that. Later I had some chocolate and again, at least managed to stop it. I have to be happy with the small victories...

Weight is still up but not as up as it was...to be honest I am still not eating as consistently as I should be but I am at least off the junk for the most part. I just need to get the energy to do what it is I need to do...I need to get this fat off my bod for good...
 
Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better and about the small victories. I wonder if there's a way to replace the crap food you go for when stressed. I used to do that myself. If my day was shit, I'd throw my diet out the window completely. Eating was a comfort. Then I started gorging on cold veggies instead of crap. Actually, I worked up to that point. At first I'd gorge on veggies and after, have some crap. It certainly helped limit the damage. When you're belly is full, it's full. A stretched stomach sends the full signal to the brain.
 
Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better and about the small victories. I wonder if there's a way to replace the crap food you go for when stressed. I used to do that myself. If my day was shit, I'd throw my diet out the window completely. Eating was a comfort. Then I started gorging on cold veggies instead of crap. Actually, I worked up to that point. At first I'd gorge on veggies and after, have some crap. It certainly helped limit the damage. When you're belly is full, it's full. A stretched stomach sends the full signal to the brain.

I wonder the same thing - I ate the cake at work when I knew full well I had yogurt and apples in the fridge, it is like my mind shuts down to what I know I should do and I just revert. It is so frustrating...I probably should try to keep some more things here for when that sort of thing happens. The emotional component gets me every flipping time. At this point I was just happy to be able to stop it before it got really out of control.

Another thing I am having a hard time incorporating is tracking my macros. It seems like I am making excuses, but I have such a hard time planning and I eat a lot of things on the fly. So I know that I don't get nearly the protein I should be and that while I am not eating junk per se, I am definately out of whack on what I am eating as far as balance goes. I wonder how much of an effect it is having on what I am trying to do here.
 
I wonder the same thing - I ate the cake at work when I knew full well I had yogurt and apples in the fridge, it is like my mind shuts down to what I know I should do and I just revert. It is so frustrating...I probably should try to keep some more things here for when that sort of thing happens. The emotional component gets me every flipping time. At this point I was just happy to be able to stop it before it got really out of control.

Without a doubt you should be happy you were able to control it. Slow motion is better than no motion!

For me it was a matter of thinking about what I'm doing. "Duh Steve." Yea, I know, sounds too simplistic but it's harder than it seems. My life has had a lot of stress... some chronic which we've discussed before. As I said previously, emotional eating has definitely been part of my journey. What worked for me was simply asking myself a list of questions every time I felt the need. It's real hard to do this simply b/c emotional eating is a natural, habitual response stemming from your preprogrammed subconscious mind. That's a real hard thing to break.

But you have to consciously break it repeatedly if you're ever going to make any sort of dent.

I'm a list person when it comes to these sorts of things. So I'd pull out my list and read such things as:

"Would overcoming any sort of stress by way of food be worth not reaching my physique goals?"

"Will the stress really be vanished if I eat chocolate, or will it simply perpetuate stress down the road if I gorge on shit?"

"Think about, using very clear mental pictures, how important this is to you, you big goof." (yea, i'd really have that on my list)

"Are there any alternatives around I can use such as celery or carrots?"

"If all else fails, go punch the punching bag... you'll feel better when done. Remember?"

I kid you not, this was a list I'd carry in my wallet. And it definitely helped break that habitual pattern. There were other things too... but this was certainly a key player.

Another thing I am having a hard time incorporating is tracking my macros. It seems like I am making excuses, but I have such a hard time planning and I eat a lot of things on the fly. So I know that I don't get nearly the protein I should be and that while I am not eating junk per se, I am definately out of whack on what I am eating as far as balance goes. I wonder how much of an effect it is having on what I am trying to do here.

Hard to say how much of an impact it has.

If you're getting a disproportionate amount of carbs relative to protein, for instance, it could be negatively effecting your satiation.

But all in all, there are only 3 macros so it's hard to be really out of whack unless you're eating loaves of bread, lol. That's why it's a good idea to balance out your meals with a source of each macro. This way, even if you aren't keeping strict tabs, you know you can't be far off.

Pre-planning your meals, as I always say, goes a long ass way. Even if it's just a spreadsheet, you could jot out quick meals that you can even eat on the run and make sure you're always stocked with them.
 
Excellent advice Steve, thanks so much :)

I would say that for the macros, I am light on protein, I just never get enough in it seems. I would have to track it to be sure but that is where I think I am. I will pay closer attention and see what that does.

Such a process - sometimes I think my mind is just not capable of watching all of this but I just have to do it if I want to reach my long-term goals...
 
It's like anything else. It can seem overwhelming at first but quickly becomes manageable. Eventually it becomes second nature.

If you're having trouble getting your protein in, you can also shoot for a shake.
 
Oh, and don't just listen to that advice about the list.

Implement it.

I tell people that stuff all the time but it seems too stupid or too easy. They never even try it... blow it off as hogwash and I guess they assume I'm 'special' or some bullshit like that.

I'm not promising it will work.

But I'm promising it's worth a shot.
 
I'm not up to speed on all that macros stuff yet, either, but one thing I'm trying to do is start keeping an eye on one or two parts. Right now I'm looking at my protein and fiber. I figure that if I keep both of those up without going over calories it's a good start. When I'm more in tune with this I'll start looking at the other parts.
 
"Would overcoming any sort of stress by way of food be worth not reaching my physique goals?"

"Will the stress really be vanished if I eat chocolate, or will it simply perpetuate stress down the road if I gorge on shit?"

"Think about, using very clear mental pictures, how important this is to you, you big goof." (yea, i'd really have that on my list)

"Are there any alternatives around I can use such as celery or carrots?"

"If all else fails, go punch the punching bag... you'll feel better when done. Remember?"

Very interesting advice. I should try this, too. I do have a list in my phone of all the reasons I want to lose weight and when I feel like I want to just give up I remind myself why I am doing this. It's actually a pretty long list.
 
That's a good point trops.

Keith recently discussed this in another thread not too long ago and it's something I've been preaching for years. Not always, but usually if you ensure you are getting adequate protein and good fats, the rest will fall into place.

Of course it's possible to overdo your intake still, but it's a lot harder. Protein-containing foods are very satiating.

So if you're going to pick one macro, I'd go with this.
 
Very interesting advice. I should try this, too. I do have a list in my phone of all the reasons I want to lose weight and when I feel like I want to just give up I remind myself why I am doing this. It's actually a pretty long list.

I have used lists for pretty much all mental hurdles. I have shit on my fridge, I've had stuff on my monitor, my phone, my mirror. The more times your interrupt your habitual thought patterns, the more likely you are to change them.

Habit is what got us to look a certain way we don't like.

It has to be changed.

If you do nothing to change it, yet force weight loss to occur, chances of reverting back to old habits after are a lot more likely.

That's why I say it's good to work on the mind from the get-go.
 
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