don't push too much you'll need your strength for camden 
Half of Me:The Story of Fat Girl Slim
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ali2
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don't push too much you'll need your strength for camden
Seriously
it is the nastiest of nasties. I will only use the bathroom in the basement (it is a 6 story building) and WILL NOT drink from the water fountains. It is a sweaty mass of humanity and not one of them has the first clue as to how you should dress if you are going before a judge. Thank God our client base is mostly from other counties, if I had to appear there on a regular basis I would weep.
I lived in north jersey and only had to go to camden on occassion... but I used to have a client in DC and would take the train to DC frequently - once the train broke down in Trenton - and never went further and I got stuck on NJ transit to head north.. trenton was a scary place...
ali2
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I lived in north jersey and only had to go to camden on occassion... but I used to have a client in DC and would take the train to DC frequently - once the train broke down in Trenton - and never went further and I got stuck on NJ transit to head north.. trenton was a scary place...
I can't say I have been there, but, having done the Camden schtick (sp?) more than a few times, I can totally sympathize. It is the only courthouse that I truly mind...I cannot understand with the tax base that Camden County has that their courthouse is just so scary.
I am eating this salad which is blanaced and full of good things and I knowthat in a half an hosue I am going to be hungry again...grrrrrrrr...that is SO annoying, can I tell you?
Next time you have a salad add some protein to it... it helps keep that full feeling.. like tuna or chicken chunks - low calorie and some extra bang...
ali2
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Thanks Mal, I have been but it probably isn't enough if I am still getting hungry...I have to get past that paranoia of overeating. It is frustrating that over a year into this, I can still get like that.
nataliejo
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Hey Ali!! I can totally understand the fear of not overeating .. I think we all do ...
I wish you the best hun..
You might want to try some counciling to make those fears take a hike, but it sounds like you are too busy .. I am sure you will find your way **hugs**
love yas
your friend
natalie jo
I wish you the best hun..
You might want to try some counciling to make those fears take a hike, but it sounds like you are too busy .. I am sure you will find your way **hugs**
love yas
your friend
natalie jo
ali2
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Thanks Natalie jo - you are right, I don't have two nickels to rub together time-wise...I am trying to work through it the best I can...
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Ok, ate my salad today and had a handful of pistachios for a snack...WHY THE HELL IS MY STOMACH GROWLING?????
I am going to have to load up more on the protein b/c right now I want to eat the legal pad I am staring at (fruitlessly, I might add)...
sammyboy24
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Hey Ali.
Congrats on the 60lbs in squatting. It's a big step. I can totally sympatheize with how your legs felt the next day. I did legs with the trainer yesterday and they are so sore. He made me do one-legged squats, 3 sets of 10 per leg! It was very hard to get thru and I was even kind of holding onto a rail.... Sorry to hear your still getting really hungry all the time. I don't know if your time schedule allows it but, I know if I go 3 or 4 hours without eating, I get pretty cranky....
-Sam
Congrats on the 60lbs in squatting. It's a big step. I can totally sympatheize with how your legs felt the next day. I did legs with the trainer yesterday and they are so sore. He made me do one-legged squats, 3 sets of 10 per leg! It was very hard to get thru and I was even kind of holding onto a rail.... Sorry to hear your still getting really hungry all the time. I don't know if your time schedule allows it but, I know if I go 3 or 4 hours without eating, I get pretty cranky....
-Sam
nataliejo
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Today, this morning at nine thirty am I ate three over easy eggs ..and thats it ..later I had a yogurt ..than for lunch which was at 3:30pm .. I wasnt hungry until three thirty pm .. you might want to try have two hard boil eggs ..split in half on your salad ..they fill me right up ..not full ...but satiated ... to the point where I dont have to eat until much later ..and than I dont eat until dinner after lunch .. I may have a snack ...
but ... protien definitely is a VERY good idea .. Mal does have a point ..
keep trecking hun
best wishes on finding what will fill you up enough to make you make it through the day ...
love yas
always
your friend
natalie jo
ali2
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Hey Ali.
Congrats on the 60lbs in squatting. It's a big step. I can totally sympatheize with how your legs felt the next day. I did legs with the trainer yesterday and they are so sore. He made me do one-legged squats, 3 sets of 10 per leg! It was very hard to get thru and I was even kind of holding onto a rail.... Sorry to hear your still getting really hungry all the time. I don't know if your time schedule allows it but, I know if I go 3 or 4 hours without eating, I get pretty cranky....
-Sam
Hey Sam -
I love the squatting - I think I said it before, I am the only girl at my gym that I see doing it (at least when I am there) and there is something very cool about that. I do want to increase it over time, hopefully I can work towards that.
You know the hunger goes in phases...it may be hormonal, or not, who knows. There are times when I couldn't be bothered with food and other time where I just want to munch. The inconsistency is ANNOYING
How exactly do you do a one-legged squat???
sammyboy24
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One legged squat for me was altered. People who are more physically able can do them without holding onto anything at all. Just up and down, amazes me, just like a squat but you extend the leg your not standing on out in front of you while you are lowered. For me we did it next to a railing and I used it some to help pull myself up but I mostly used my leg muscles to get myself back up. I can just totally feel them today though, my quads are very tight, and my glutes too. Not to mention my calves are stiff as well. I've even been stretching them out every few hours too... No pain no gain, right?
ali2
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One legged squat for me was altered. People who are more physically able can do them without holding onto anything at all. Just up and down, amazes me, just like a squat but you extend the leg your not standing on out in front of you while you are lowered. For me we did it next to a railing and I used it some to help pull myself up but I mostly used my leg muscles to get myself back up. I can just totally feel them today though, my quads are very tight, and my glutes too. Not to mention my calves are stiff as well. I've even been stretching them out every few hours too... No pain no gain, right?
True dat.
Although I must be retarded b/c I just tried to do one the way you explained them and couldn't bend my knee at all...I'm going to have to check you-tube or something to see where I am screwing up...
sammyboy24
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My descriptions aren't very good usually, lmao. I even wonder what the hell I am talking about half of the time. The one legged squats are pretty difficult. I didn't even think I could do them in the beginning, even with my rail helping me. Also, my trainer doesn't let me give up on anything, he won't bargain with me one iota, if i say 5 more he says 10 kind of deal.... I like it though.
-Sam
-Sam
ali2
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I like that sort of thing also...there is something about being pushed...
ali2
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This blows.
I am having a 'fat day'. Not that I didn't earn it...the Easter candy and I were best friends over the weekend. Saturday wasn't that bad, I went out for lunch at Applebees and ate off of their Weight Watchers menu so I knew what I was doing, then that night I had a salad with fried calamari on it (not great) but I thought I was alright on my calories for the day.
Sunday, I picked and picked and picked. My meals were good but it was all of the shit that I ate in between that is a problem. The other problem is that food like that is self-feeding, I eat some and I want more of it.
I am sitting here this minute wishing I had some Cadbury mini eggs.
Actually, when I get like this I just want to eat and eat. I am trying so hard to get out of this mind-set. I fluctuated back over 190 and I don't want to do that...I have to get back on track and try to be stricter with myself.
All of the good things I am seeing are somehow not enough to keep me away from the crap that I know is bad for me. Why is that? That is the thing that sucks...part of my problem with food is psychological and I would love to have a take it or leave it attitude, you know?
I am having a 'fat day'. Not that I didn't earn it...the Easter candy and I were best friends over the weekend. Saturday wasn't that bad, I went out for lunch at Applebees and ate off of their Weight Watchers menu so I knew what I was doing, then that night I had a salad with fried calamari on it (not great) but I thought I was alright on my calories for the day.
Sunday, I picked and picked and picked. My meals were good but it was all of the shit that I ate in between that is a problem. The other problem is that food like that is self-feeding, I eat some and I want more of it.
I am sitting here this minute wishing I had some Cadbury mini eggs.
Actually, when I get like this I just want to eat and eat. I am trying so hard to get out of this mind-set. I fluctuated back over 190 and I don't want to do that...I have to get back on track and try to be stricter with myself.
All of the good things I am seeing are somehow not enough to keep me away from the crap that I know is bad for me. Why is that? That is the thing that sucks...part of my problem with food is psychological and I would love to have a take it or leave it attitude, you know?