Hajni's Diary: I will do it because I can

HI SweatPea, Tammy, thanks for stopping by!!
I brake up my exercises. Mostly because I am pressed for time. I do about 35-45 min in the morning on my treadmill, depends on day and my mood it is either running or just fast walking on an incline.
Then I go about my day as normal, leave my house at 7.00 am, work till 4.15. Come home take care of things.On the days when I have bootcamp(in the gym), I just go as early as I can and hop on the elliptical until it is time to start. Interesting thing is, if I work-out in the morning by the time I get home I do not feel like I worked out that day and get antzy and want to do more.Now when I try do to the 1.5 hrs in one strech on the weekends it gets a little too much and I find myself resenting it instead of enjoying...LOL
I would love to have an elliptical, but we put out the money for a nice treadmill this year, so i doubt DH would agree to another exercise machine. Especially since he does not use it at all.
I tried all kinds of combination in the past. Only food reduction..did not work. Same amount of food, ton of exercise, did not work. Finally I got to what I am doing now and even with this method the most I ever lost is 2 lb/week and that is a rare occassion, it averages to a 1 lb/week loss since the end of May. Which I am happy with, no complaints here.

Tammy I know how hard this 45 lb loss was for me, so you have all my respect for losing 72.5!! I can't even imagine!!
Same for you SweatPea, I read in your diary, that you have lost like 66 lbs before!!
You girls both rock!!

I do have to say I feel so empowered by this loss, the fact that I did it!!!
yesterday was my measurement day in the gym. I don't know what the instructor did, but her measurement were way different than mine and according to her records I only lost 1.5 inches from my hips since the last time she measured me(when I was 165 lbs). But my body fat percentage dropped to 30%!! Yay.

DH is afraid that my weight loss frenzy is going too far. He keeps asking if I plan to stop once I reach my goal weight. The answer is : i don't know. At that point i have to re-evaluate and see how I feel. It is more important than the scale. I think he is afraid of me taking this too far and try to get like 90 lbs or something. LOL
Also he is not the complimenting kind at all but I overheard him on the phone talking to his aunt and he was so proud of me!! he told her, I work out so much and I really watch what i eat and he thinks I am in a better shape than he is. It really felt good, since he does not verbalize these things to me. :)
Wow i wrote a small novel here, enough of me now.
 
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Something about those hubbies! They really get worried about us. I would think you'd have to keep up your regimen to a degree when you get to goal - or else it would creep back on.

But if your goals change - say you were focused on weight loss before and now you are going to focus on toning, then you would change your regimen to accommodate the new goal.
 
Kudos to you and ur exercise routine. I'm still gettin used to doing cardio 6 days a week once a day, and here you are doing it 2x a time, and each of your sessions is longer than one of mine. But you are an inspiration and I will be building up my routine in steps along the way.

Keep up the good work!
 
Howdy Hajani,
I don't know about hubby's comments at times sometimes I feel he is a little jealous that can do it and that it isn't one of those I am going on a diet today then don't I am actually doing it,then he says I look good now and I am obsessed ect NO I have to do this for me until I feel comfy!!
Your doing awesome and you will know when you are at a comfy weight!
Have a nice day Tammy
 
niapage said:
Howdy Hajani,
I don't know about hubby's comments at times sometimes I feel he is a little jealous that can do it and that it isn't one of those I am going on a diet today then don't I am actually doing it,then he says I look good now and I am obsessed ect NO I have to do this for me until I feel comfy!!
Your doing awesome and you will know when you are at a comfy weight!
Have a nice day Tammy
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I wonder why it is hubbies get like that? I know Bell's hubby has been the same with her. And a long time ago, when I first started from 210 - my hubby had the same attitude.

I think for some reason they get a little offensive as if we are going to change in other ways too.
 
yarmiah said:
Kudos to you and ur exercise routine. I'm still gettin used to doing cardio 6 days a week once a day, and here you are doing it 2x a time, and each of your sessions is longer than one of mine. But you are an inspiration and I will be building up my routine in steps along the way.

Keep up the good work!
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HI Yarmiah. I started my exercise exactly a year ago in September. I started with 3 days a week 30 min, then upped it for 5 days a week 30 min. The twice day thing just started not a long time ago. It mostly because I am pressed for time, I guess if I had to do it at once I would limit to no more than 1 hr.
You will get there. And you might find out that You don't have to get there. Unfortunately my body does not want to lose weight unless I exercise like a mad woman. My food has little effect on my weight loss. No exercise=no loss for me, no matter how careful I am with the eating.
 
niapage said:
Howdy Hajani,
I don't know about hubby's comments at times sometimes I feel he is a little jealous that can do it and that it isn't one of those I am going on a diet today then don't I am actually doing it,then he says I look good now and I am obsessed ect NO I have to do this for me until I feel comfy!!
Your doing awesome and you will know when you are at a comfy weight!
Have a nice day Tammy
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Yeah, men usually don't like change at all. It is probably part jealousy and part fear: they somehow get it in their minds that we want to lose weight and feel sexy again to draw attention and run off with some other guy (especially if your better half has a problem with his own body image as well.) ...
Meanwhile I could care less about that. I want to be healthy and want to feel good in my skin. As you said: we are doing this for ourselves and not for any other reason...
 
Ok boring Tuesday

I actually welcomed a boring Tuesday at work. No drama to obsess over and no major headaches either. Like it that way!!:cool:

Food was good today. I was really pulling my leg about the night exercise and had to talk myself into it, glad I did. AGAIN. I feel better now.
So far so good on this week's challenge. We don't eat out, poor DH has to suffer for my weight loss too but he is not complaining the dear.
Breakfast: 1 scoop protein powder (110), 1c. ff milk (90), ½ c, frozen strawberries (25) 1 ww bread (35), 1 tbs p. butter (90), coffee (50) = 400

Snack: 1 apple (80), 1 diet hot chocolate (25) = 105

Lunch: 2 c. spinach (10), 5 breadsticks (125 ), 5.6 oz baked tofu (80), 1 tomato (10), cal.free dressing, 1 peach (70), ½ c. ff cottage cheese (80) = 375

Snack: 100 cal. pack graham crackers, (100), 1 plum (35) = 135

Dinner: 2 c. salad (10), 1 tomato (10), 1 c. ff milk (90), 1 veggie burger (90), 2 slices ww bread (70), mustard = 270

Dessert: 1 ff vanilla yogurt (60),

Total calories for the day : 1345

Exercise.: 40min run/walk on the treadmill in the morning 2.5 mi (325 cal burn), afternoon: 38 min running on treadmill, 2.85 miles (350 cal burn) = 675
Calorie Deficit: 1101
 
Ok I personally haven't experienced dh saying anything rude about me losing weight but then again he's not with me on a daily basis yet so he may start with the attitude once he gets home. I sure hope not cause we both have issues with our bodies after we got married that was one of the reasons we started working out together in the first place. lol anyways, Keep up the great work girl your kicking butt in the workouts. I barely finally got in some exercise today after not doing anything besides cleaning up the house and after alex the last two days. I didn't do the full 30 minutes on the elliptical but i did get in 22 minutes and 3 miles which is a start after not doing anything for 2 days. :( i know you need to kick my butt back into gear. after tom leaves i always feel so wiped out but i know thats not an excuse. at least i was still good with the food. talk to you tomorrow.
 
momma4alex said:
Ok I personally haven't experienced dh saying anything rude about me losing weight but then again he's not with me on a daily basis yet so he may start with the attitude once he gets home. .
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HI Heather,
DH is not really rude per say I would say more like concerned. I think he is afraid that "there is no end in sight". We have heard and watched on TV stories about self-image and weight loss. Seems that some people who lost a lot of weight somehow still have a distorted self-image when they look in a mirror and still feel and see themselves fat. My trainer in the gym tells us stories about this all the time. Last time she said, she had a girl who was 115 and wanted to be 110 (which for her frame was perfect), once she reached her goal, just did not know how to stop... and now 93 lbs and will not seek professional help because she is convinced that she is still fat.
I think it worries DH that I will fall to "the other side of the horse" and won't know how and when to stop. I see how he would think that since I am pretty focused on this thing. Reminding him all the time the calorie content of certain foods, refusing to eat out, refusing the touch the ice-cream cake on my birthday... almost obsessively following my weight fluctuations...
I am not concerned about it though. I think I have a pretty good handle on things. I am not trying to be skinny or a size 0 or anything like that. Plus I am big boned and kind of muscley. When I tell people my weight they never believe me, everybody always says at least 15 lbs less. I have friends who have been the same weight as I am (same height) and always wear at least 2-4 size bigger clothes than me. Like the owner of our gym. The other day I asked her what size she wears and she said a size 6 and she is 135 lbs. I was easily wearing a size 6 at 145lbs.
Anyway I can see how DHs perspective would be different in this. First of all they love us no matter what... They look at us and they see a beautiful woman and don't understand how we are not happy with the weight we are at. To them it is not a big deal...
That said, DH is happy for me and proud of my achivement so far. He is one of the greatest guy I have ever known.
Gee I wrote a novel again...LOL
Off to work now
 
I could see that kind of concern. I know before, I was like totally committed to fitness. Now, I'm kind of in the mind set that there are just as important things in life.

When I say "before" - I had a life altering change in my world. Anyway, I used to work out 3 times a week at martial arts - Mon. & Thurs. for 3 hrs., then on Sat. for 4 hrs. Granted after the initial warm-up (which was excruciating), you weren't working out every second, but it was a total body workout. Then, I would workout at home 6 days a week (whether I had martial arts that night or not) - I would try to get in 30 min/day. And I worked at Curves 3 days a week - so that would also be another 30 min. workout (the lesser evil of the 3.) Some days if I worked at curves, I wouldn't workout at home.

But, I was doing all that - and still not losing weight so much - but I was really toning (cause I could wear smaller clothes and my weight was going down, but not as fast as you would think.)

I think then I was surely only focused on myself, and not so much other things like I should've been. That would be why a dh might get worried about when you would "take a break" from your regimen.

Before all this (back when I was 210 lbs.) I started working out and dh would sabotage my efforts - but I don't think they were on purpose, I think it was the fear of "she's getting thin and I'm not." By sabotaging, I mean he would bring me home chocolate covered blueberries (mmmm!) And I have no willpower from those things. Or he would whine about me getting up so early and "making noise" while everyone else was sleeping.

But those things have all changed - now we both exercise - and no worries about him bringing me home those blueberries (I can barely get him to offer me anything like that anymore! Durn it all!)

Sorry to take up so much space in your journal...

Have a good one!
 
SweatPea said:
I could see that kind of concern. I know before, I was like totally committed to fitness. Now, I'm kind of in the mind set that there are just as important things in life.
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HI SweatPea. I totally hear you about the important things in life. I love spending time with my daughter and that's why I try to exercise in the morning, while she is still asleep or at night after she gone to sleep. But a lot often I start my exercise before she falls asleep and hubby puts her to bed without saying good night to me. Also going to the gym twice a week means I don't get home til 7.00pm, and have little or no time with her. Same with DH. hardly have time to spend with him, I either exercise or trying to figure out my food for the next day and getting it ready... I am pushing hard to reach my goal weight and things will change for the better. I will still exercise but hoping to reduce it to like 3-4 days a week like 45 min at a time. We will eat healthy but no more calorie counting...etc. Life is busy and crazy as it is but my weight-loss efforts surely made it worse. I am experiencing the effects as well.
 
Howdy Hajani,
Sorry about your boring Tuesday lol always
something going on or happening here unfortanley not always
good lol! I love your outlook on fitness and the dedication and
motivation you put into it each and every day,I need to refind that
in myself instead of on a week off a week.I may even be happy at
160's because that should put me a size 10ish and I have some 10's jeans
lying around and they don't look big at all,but 145 would be better lol!!
Your doing great and getting your exersice and spending time with your
daughter.I have to make time for each and every child to do something
special it seems like I drag my oldest daughter to my son's and my other
daughters practices 4 days a week then the game thats 5 days and then
she helps with the baby so I can get some pics of the kids games and I feel
she and I need some mom and daughter time.:beating:
I hope you have a wonderful day!Tammy
 
Today was busy again. I had a hard time getting up in the morning, and I was like walking on the treadmill with 2 mi/hr for 5 minutes just to wake up somehow.
Food was great, and I am going to exercise later on. My turbo jam DVD is not home so I just either do some homestyle bootcamp and some running or only running.

Breakfast: 1 c ff milk (90), 1 c. Kellogs special K cereal (120), 1 tbs wheat germ (25), 1 ½ tbs dried apricots (40), 1 tbs walnuts ( 50), coffee (50) =375

Snack: 1 special K bar (90), 1 diet hot chocolate (25) = 115

Lunch: Lean Cuisine Santa-Fe style rice and beans (290), 2 c. lettuce (10), 1 tomato (10), =310

Snack: 1 ff vanilla yogurt (60), 1 rice cake (50) = 110

Dinner: 2 tortilla (100), 2.8 oz baked tofu (40), 1 tomato (10), 2 c. salad (10), ¼ c. ff shredded cheese (45), 1 peach (70), 1 c. ff milk (90) = 365

Dessert: 1/2c ff cottage cheese (80) with stevia and calorie free choc. syrup. = 80

Total calories for the day : 1355

Exercise: 38min walk on treadmill, 2 % incline, 3.9 mi/hr, (2.45 mi) = 300 calories, Update : I just ran on the treadmill again, 2.85 miles in 37 min. burning 350 cal = 650 cal burn today

Calorie Deficit: 1068
 
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Thanks Tammy, yeah I am really on track. This is my "final attempt" and I will succeed!! LOL
Ok, I saw 153.0 on the scale today. And we still have two days to weigh in!! I already lost 2 lbs since last SAt. (some of it is water weight from TOM). Yay!!
I tried on my size 6 yesterday. Well, it does not fit yet. I was able to squeeze my butt in it, but forget about the zipper or button!!!:eek:
I walked on the treadmill this morning, 3.9 mi/hr, 2 % incline, 38 min.
I can't run in the morning, I don't have the energy. Last night after my daughter went to bed i went downstairs and ran 35 min straight on 5.1 mi/hr speed without a problem. If I had to do that in the morning, I think i would die.
Tonight is boot-camp in the gym, can't wait. Dh's birthday is this weekend, and my BIL and FIL (born on the same day) is first week of October. We are going to be swimming in ice-cream cakes over the next two weeks.
I lost 7 lbs this month, the highest weight-loss month for me so far. (and not even over yet. ;))
 
153! I would just like to see that on my scale (just once at least!)

Where is your Turbo Jam DVD? I mean did it just get up and walk away. ;)

Have another good day!
 
SweatPea said:
153! I would just like to see that on my scale (just once at least!)

Where is your Turbo Jam DVD? I mean did it just get up and walk away. ;)

Have another good day!
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I loaned my Turbo Jam DVD to a girl in my office to try and see if she likes it.
We exchange exercise DVD's although the ones she has I don't like. i get easily bored and for some reason, Turbo jam 20 min. does not bore me and I still look forward to doing it.
It has been a long-long-long time since I saw 153 on my scale too... It makes me so happy!!!! I think when I went down to 145 I was there for a matter of two weeks and the lbs started to keep coming back. Of course as soon as I reached the goal at that time, I just let everything loose, went back to my old eating habits...etc. Won't let that happen this time. :D
If I remember correctly I was 145 in November of 2002 and by next 2003 March I was back to 166. Didn't take long. My size 6 clothes still look brand new!!! :D Had no chance to wear them out. LOL
 
Size 6 *looking at that number dreamily* I would just kill for a size 10. :D

It's amazing how easy it is to go up, but so durn hard to get back down - isn't it?

:beerchug: Much success this time!
 
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