GrooveArmada's Journal

GrooveArmada

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Sunday, April 13th 2008

Today marks day one of my weight loss journey. My determination set in about a week ago when I started the South Beach Diet and realized...it doesn't work for me! I was feeling kind of low and decided to go shopping for some summery clothing. I headed into Abercrombie and skimped through the sales rack and purchased two polos. I looked at the medium and thought that they would fit me well...couldn't have been further from the truth. I noticed how my stomach poured over my favorite pair of jeans and this figure hugging top wasn't helping me look like I was ready for summer and this was AFTER a week of being on South Beach and having GAINED weight.
I am back on the French Diet, which is the ONLY weight loss plan that ever has worked for me. I am working on documenting my efforts along the way. The other thing I need to follow is an exercise plan because after not having exercised for over nine months, it's time to whip me back into shape. Below is my plan:

1. Re-read the French Diet and follow phase 1 to a tee.

2. Plan meals for this week to ensure that I stay on track with all my meals and snacks.

3. Find and read Factor 5 work-out plan (25 minutes a day is completely do-able)

4. Plan out exactly when I am going to work-out.
 
I've finished day one sucessfully and am into the swing of things on day two :). My meal plan yesterday consisted of the following:

BREAKFAST:
- 2 slices of pumpernickel (100% whole-grain) bread
- Fat free cream cheese
- Sugar free jam

LUNCH:
- 3 egg omlette with mushrooms and tomato
- Large salad

SNACK:
- 12 grape tomatoes

DINNER:
- Large salad with a drizzle of olive oil (hold that salt!)
- Whole-wheat pasta with tomatoes, broccoli and mushrooms
- 5 strawberries with fat free ricotta

Yesterday was definitely a great day for me and my determination is set. I've taken the advice from my stepfather that writing a journal helps to formulate your thoughts and keep you dedicated. It's a commitment. I am a little impatient and wish that I could be down to 125lbs immediately, but then I haven't experienced the journey, which is all too important. The weather here has in some ways been a blessing to me. Having snow means no shorts, no skirts and gives me that extra little bit of time for me to focus on my goal. By my birthday, May 17th, I fully intend to have achieved most of goal (if not all of it). The biggest thing for me is my weekly weigh-ins that will cause me grief. It's going to be hard for me to not judge myself by that number and think I should have done this better or that better. I am so tempted just not to weigh myself until June. I will have to find better ways to deal with my impatient and unkind self.
Today has been another great day and I have prepped myself well as far as food goes. Finding the food I like seems to be a little more of an issue. Finding 100% whole grain bread isn't the easiest task. There is NONE in my local Jewel. They've got squishy bread that claims to be whole grain, but they've added wheat flour and all kinds of other things which I can't have on the French Diet. Even the pumpernickel was your regular squishy toast bread. Whole Foods did carry it, so I bought 4 loaves and am loving my whole grain bread (it looks like a bunch of grains mushed together in a retangular shape) with that sourdough flavour and it's so healthy for you :).

Here's today's meal so far:

BREAKFAST:
- 1 slice (it's a very big and rectangular) with fat free cream cheese and polaner all fruit grape spread with a glass of V8 juice.

LUNCH:
- Fried catfish (unbreaded and with less than a tablespoon of olive oil) with a large salad.
- Hard, low-fat cheddar cheese for dessert

The rest we'll see how it goes. I'll probably have an apple in the afternoon to tie me until dinner. Dinner will likely be the leftover spaghetii I didn't eat. I am one step closer to slimness :).
 
Day three and I'm marching along!!! My summer body is well on its way. I did something I wasn't supposed to do...I stepped on the dreaded scale to see if I had lost any weight whatsoever (just to see if I was moving in the right direction)...my reading this morning was 129.8lbs!!! I know most of this is water weight as I have been very careful about the salt in my diet over the last two days (I am a salt fiend!). 125 is doable and in reach. I can't wait to unveil the new me on the beach this summer!!! To wrap up what I had yesterday...

SNACK:
1 apple

DINNER:
- Large salad with a drizzle of olive oil
- Left over whole wheat pasta (made up about 1/4 of my plate)
- Dessert: cut up strawberries, fat free ricotta, cocoa powder, followed by a small piece of 86% dark chocolate.

I don't know why I stray from this eating pattern...my body LOVES how I treat it. It feels nourished, satisfied and to be honest, it doesn't even feel like a diet. It's just a more wholesome way of eating. I mean, I get to have CHOCOLATE and dessert after lunch and dinner! Incredible. My breakfast is almost a dessert for me with that wholegrain bread and sweet (and yet there's no added sugar or sweetner, just fruit juice) jam and cream cheese. I've been having more vegetables than ever: V8 with breakfast, large salad for lunch WITH a side of steamed veggies, large salad for dinner. I guess I've finally understood what it takes to fuel my body. To think that once upon a time I was 160 and unhappy. I mean, I never thought I look that bad. Sure, I thought I was a couple of pounds overweight and looking back (there is one picture in particular) I can't believe how puffy my face is, how round and protruding my stomach is. I don't want to go back there...ever. I had always labelled myself as big boned...boy, was I wrong. I am actually SMALL boned (took my wrist circumference) with an apple shape. My legs are shapely, but thin. My arms are thin and shapely as well. I have a round face and all fat gathers in my waist and hips. I am positive that I can look incredible and like a beach babe...I've got those last few pounds to go before I am satisfied and smoking :). I can just envision the day where I wake up and I've got no roll left to pinch and tug at and it's only weeks away :).
 
Day Four! I am so proud of myself! I RESISTED handcut fries. I mean these babies were fried to perfection and golden brown and I resisted them. Not a nibble, not a bite. Instead I order the spinach and artichoke dip with veggies and ate a bucket load of those baby carrots and tomatoes. I am determined to lose this last bit of weight. The lower part of my belly is bulging a little and I'm due for TOTM. I guess I get a little freaked out each month hoping that I'm not pregnant. I haven't had cramps yet and am starting to worry. I'm not late yet, just freaked out is all. Now would not be a good time to have this fall on my boyfriend's shoulder as he's stressing out about the fact that his sister is going in for a biopsy today because they discovered abnormal activity in her cells during her yearly check-up.
I've learnt that planning is key to success on sticking with the plan. I made chicken breasts with a fat free ricotta cream sauce, lemon and capers to go with my salad. That's my lunch for the next three days, so I'm all set to go :). I also preprepared dinner for the next couples of days. I got inspired by a recipe in the Dean & Deluca cookbook. It's a Brazilian black bean dish. I made mine with garlic, onions, bay leaves, buillion and a dash of red wine. It's pretty tasty. I was going to have it for dinner yesterday, but my appetite subsided.
Here is my food log for yesterday:

BREAKFAST:
1 slice of wholegrain bread with fat free cream cheese and grape and apricot jam (both without sugar)
Glass of V8 juice

LUNCH:
Lightly fried (unbreaded) tilapia with steamed vegetables (sugar snaps, mushrooms and broccoli and cauliflower).
Small salad drizzled with olive oil
Hard low-fat cheddar cheese

SNACK:
I was rushed to make my train, so no snack for me.

DINNER:
Baby carrots, tomatoes with spinach artichoke dip
A few tablespoons of my feijoda
7 strawberries with 1 square of 86% dark chocolate
 
Holy! Your outlook is great and you're doing very well! You're going to reach that goal of yours in no time at this rate! Make sure you stick around and support those of us who are still losing, eh!

Keep up the great job!
 
Thanks so much! I'd love to stick around and help those who are working towards their goal. I am hoping that my food log and diary will help inspire those as well. When I've reached my goal I'll be sure to be posting pictures as well, as that is what really motivates me! You've started your journey and with determination and careful planning you'll be sure to achieve your goal of 170! Also saw that you answered a Q&A that I must have missed from the sticky in this section, so I thought I'd go ahead and answer it as well :).

Q. What is your current height and weight?
A. 5'6, 129.8lbs

Q. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
A. 125lbs...I think. I say I think because I have never been 125lbs as an adult and am not sure whether it would flatter me or not.

Q. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
A. 125lbs

Q. Why do you want to lose weight?
A. I want to look GREAT not good in a bikini.

Q. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
A. I do have a mini reunion coming up in July and that would be fun to look at, as last time they saw me I was a good 15lbs heavier.

Q. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
A. I'll start justifying why baked potato chips are "ok"...

Q. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
A. Let's just say my stomach isn't as flat as it could be.

Q. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
A. Healthy eating. Focussing on whole grains, vegetables, lean proteins, skim dairy products, less sodium in my diet.

Q. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
A. The only thing that truly has helped me in the past is The French Diet. That's it. Nothing else works for me.

Q. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
A. I am filled with determination this time round. No cheating!

Q. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
A. Low carb diets like South Beach, Atkins - both those point me in a direction where I justify that eating a whole lot of avocados is ok (as opposed to other leafy green vegetables), Calorie Counting: I don't like to think about how many calories I have left...creates pressure, Body for Life: 6 meals a day and I overeat at all of them.

Q. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
A. Keeping a journal to help me on my way and track where I could stand to improve.

Q. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
A. I have started to. Much easier to control what you're eating.

Q. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
A. 3x a week.

Q. What are your three favorite foods?
A. Tortilla chips with guac, burritos, anything Mexican, Sushi, Italian sausage pizza and hand cut fries.

Q. What are your three favorite restaurants?
A. Blu Coral, Adobo Grill and Spacca Napoli.

Q. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
A. DRINK MORE WATER...I love my tea.

Q. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
A. My stomach would be flat and I'd have a waist.

Q. Do you eat when you are not hungry?
A. It has been known to happen...especially when I am exceedingly stressed.

Q. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
A. I used to have a YEARS where I'd shove chocolate down my throat to soothe whatever I was going through. Since I started working full-time, I don't do that as much. I don't even snack that much in the evenings anymore.

Q. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
A. I hide my chocolate (86% dark) - out of sight, out of mind.

Q. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
A. ABSOLUTELY!!!

Q. Do you eat as a reward?
A. Sure do. Especially when I see that I've lost a little bit of weight, I start overdoing it with the food as though I can afford to do that because I've been good.

Q. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
A. Yes, I do it at work for breakfast and lunch and sometimes at dinner time.

Q. What do you normally eat for a meal?
A. Which meal? Breakfast: wholegrain bread with fat free cream cheese and sugarfree jam, Lunch: lean protein with salad and steamed veggies; Dinner: carbs (beans, whole wheat spaghetti, etc.) with a salad and veggies. Dessert: Fruit/1 piece of dark chocolate >70%

Q. What type of snacks do you eat?
A. Usually an apple, sometimes broccoli and cauliflower.

Q. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
A. Not much. I walk 25 minutes to the train in the morning and in the evening as well.

Q. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
A. Walk to restaurants, to the train, to the bus.

Q. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
A. Dancing, dancing and more dancing. Anytime. Anywhere. Reggae bars are a lot of fun because everyone is dancing. I like swing dancing too though.

Q. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
A. A pair of True Religion jeans. I'll settle for William Rast as well though ;). And a really cute bikini so I too can strut my stuff by looking like a beach babe :)
 
I am sitting in my living room crying and wondering what the hell just happened. It's 5:58am and I keep replaying yesterday's occurence over and over again in my mind. The words are ringing in my ear. He tells me that he is not sure that he wants to be with me. Everything went so fast and now he's not sure. His sister who's just had a biopsy put everything into perspective for him. His packed are bags and then we'll reconvene when we've had some time away.
I personally don't know who I am anymore. I feel like ever since moved here I've become dumbed down. Me, the person who prides themself on their intelligence and ability to execute. Now what? I mumble, I'm uneasy.
Thing is I'm angry at him because he didn't mess me around. He did what I asked of him when we first starting dating. He told me the truth and what he felt. I can't be angry at that. I can however be upset and sad and confused about what the heck happened. Too much, too fast. Just another one of life's bumps. Now it's up to me to make my friends, to meet new people and learn to remember who I am. Maybe that's where it all went wrong in the first place. My co-dependency. Except, I always have been the independent one.
One thing is certain. Dating is something that is definitely going to be off limits to me. I don't need anyone right now. I need time for me to sort my head out and be alone.

Needless to say that my appetite is supressed.
 
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