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Ok so i'm new here :newbie:. Tried posting this twice and lost it! :mad:
Long story short, i'm overweight...

Height: 5'2 (5'3 on a good day;) )
First Goal Weight: 130
Second Goal Weight: 125

Highest weight: Feb 09, 154.4
Lowest weight: Aug 09, 142ish

But that was last year... what's in the past is done. Sucks to think where i would be now had i been consistant in the gym and didn't have a yoyo diet.
Oh well... New Year!

Jan 4: Dr. Appt weighed in at 147ish
Jan 9: Started P90X
Jan 18" Started diet. (at or less than 1500 cal, low sugar, carb and fat)
Today: Weighed in at 144.4 (1st full week of diet and excercize)
Tomorrow: 2nd full week of P90X complete

My diet this week went really well. I'm eating more frequently, since that's what everyone says works (i'm not sure if i like it yet).

Today:
7am: Atkins protein shake. I'm not doing atkins, but i was drinking the special k protein shakes and realized that wasn't good. Special K protein shake: 190 cal, 10g protein, and A LOT of sugar and carbs. Atkins protein shake: 160 cal, 15g proteind, and 1g sugar and carbs... you can see why i would rather drink the atkins versus the special k.
10am: 1 cup honey nut cherios (sugar i know) w/ half cup of light lactose free soy milk.
12pm: Thai Garlic and pepper chicken over a bed of cabbage instead of rice (YUMMY left overs from night before)
2pm: Handful of grapes
Worked out at around 6ish. Legs and Back. Ab Ripper X. (double ouch)
7:45 pm: Banana
8:30 pm: Tuna and egg salad w/ a handfull of spinach instead of bread.
I know 8:30 is late to be eating dinner but i got distracted after my workout and forgot to make my dinner.

Thats how my weekly diet went. Breakfast drink, cereal or oatmeal, lunch, snack (apple or wheat crackers w/ cheese), and dinner after workout. Usually stay at or under 1500 cals.

I'll try and post a daily log of food and activity.
I'll post some of my old and current measurments. And MAYBE post some before and current pictures.
Only 76 more days till i complete P90X! I am already seeing results in my arms (as in muscle gain), and my legs feel a lot stronger. But you can't see a 3lb loss... can't wait to hit a 5/10 lb mark!
 
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So today i woke up at 8ish, and waited for my boyfriend to get home so we could do our work out.
I was debating if i wanted a banana or apple, cereal, or a protein drink for breakfast... then i figured i wasn't really hungry and i wouldn't want to eat anything before my work out (mistake), so i just had some water.

Kenpo X was our workout for today, and i have officailly completed 2 weeks of the program :hurray:

I usually work out in the evening and with some food in my stomach (food from through out the day, i usually stop eating a couple of hours before my work out), and today i didnt. I felt weak through out the work out, but i finished it :boxing:
Since my stomach was literally talking to me torwards the end of the work out i knew i needed something fast.

I made myself a protein shake: whey protein (120 cal, 23 g protein, and 2 carbs), light chocolate lactose free soy milk (1 cup 90 cal), and a banana (prolly 120 cal).
Shake was huge, in the process of trying to finish it... don't think i can. It is pretty yummy. It has a lot of protein so hopefully it will keep me satisfied till i get some solid food.

I have a baby shower to go to in a bit. Hopefully i there will be some semi healthy food options. I need to hold strong! No cake or cookies! Wish me luck.
Saturdays are my weak days.

I do have good news... i lost 2 inches in my waist (in one week). Prolly just water weight, i was feeling extra loose, gigly, and bloated when i measured my belly earlier this week... but the number still looks good!

Ok, gotta shower and get dressed!
Prolly wont be back on till tomorrow, but i'll update how the remaining of my saturday went.
 
Great name for your diary! Good luck with your journey. Get off to a good start and never look back!
 
8.30 isn't THAT late... because of my hectic schedule my meal hours are 8 am breakfast, 3 pm lunch, 11 pm dinner! So I think your times are pretty good!

Also don't beat yourself up over 1 bad day. I am in a similar weight range as you and a bad day happens sometimes. Sometimes it is more important to enjoy a party or a baby shower and have a piece of cake and a cookie than to stick to your "diet". That is why I don't call it a diet, it is my lifestyle, and in my lifestyle there needs to be room for special days because there will be special days throughout my life but my "diet" will also stay throughout my life. I mean honestly how many joyous occasions do you have a month? One maybe 2... 2 days a month of eating outside your schedule means 29 days you eat fabulous! And you will look fabulous!

Have a great week, Camy
 
So yesterday i ended up going to the baby shower and that began an ugly day. :rant:

They had chicken salad sandwiches, chips, dip, fruit, veggies, cookies, and cupcakes.
I had a little bit of everything... yes i had one cookie and one cupcake! gah i'm so weak! But in my defense, i did only have a LITTLE of everything. Maybe a tablespoon of dip, half a sandwich, a few chips, and carrots and mushrooms. Sounds like a lot, but it really didnt feel like it.

It didn't end there. My boyfriend was off from work last night and we ended up going out to have a margarita and chips and queso! I must admit that margarita's are my absolute weakness! Didn't have that much of chips and queso, kinda nibbled on it. We had a jr. burger for dinner... no fries, but it was still horribly delicious.

It's so hard because i aknowledge that i'm trying to diet, and he tells me not to worry about it too much; that i have to live life. And i do agree with him, but there was no excuse for my diet yesterday.

Maybe i woke up with the wrong mentality. I knew it was saturday, that there is always temptations, and i'm weak.

Anyway...

I know i shouldn't weigh myself everyday, but that stupid scale in my bathroom is staring at me every morning. I stepped on it, and it read 143.4; down 1lb from friday.
I'm assuming my saturday fiasco will show up on the scale tomorrow.
And even though i weigh myself daily, Fridays will be the only weigh in that counts. I hope that my strong diet last week will continue through next week, and the scale will show 142. ::crossies::

Today is my day off from P90X, but i may go for a run later... i dont deserve a day off after yesterday.
Later today we are going to my boyfriends parents house for dinner. They are making chicken carbonara, high in fat and carbs! I'm going to stay strong and have a small portion They always have salad with dinner, so i'll go heavy on that (light on the dressing of course).
As of right now i have had a bowl of cereail with my light soy milk.
I know this is wrong, but i'm going to try to drink a lot of water, and have a super small snack... i'm worried about dinner so i want the rest of my day to not be horrible.

I think i just convinced myself to for sure go for a run...
Yes.
Thats what i'll do.
 
Camy said:
8.30 isn't THAT late... because of my hectic schedule my meal hours are 8 am breakfast, 3 pm lunch, 11 pm dinner! So I think your times are pretty good!

Also don't beat yourself up over 1 bad day. I am in a similar weight range as you and a bad day happens sometimes. Sometimes it is more important to enjoy a party or a baby shower and have a piece of cake and a cookie than to stick to your "diet". That is why I don't call it a diet, it is my lifestyle, and in my lifestyle there needs to be room for special days because there will be special days throughout my life but my "diet" will also stay throughout my life. I mean honestly how many joyous occasions do you have a month? One maybe 2... 2 days a month of eating outside your schedule means 29 days you eat fabulous! And you will look fabulous!
Have a great week, Camy
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Thanks Camy, but if you read my recent post you'll see that i murdered my diet! haha
Oh well it does happen. I just need to remember that it can't happen every weekend.
It is definately harder having a boyfriend who is extremely support, but wants to see me happy. He is always telling me to screw the diet, just to work out and not over eat... but i dont think that will give me the results i want.

I really do appreciate the kind words!
 
01/24 pm -01/25 am

Ok so after i posted yesterday i went for a 3 mile walk/run mix!
3 miles!
It took a looong 49 minutes, but seemed to have flew by.
This is how i boke down the run/walking:
1/4 mi - 3.5 mph
1 mi - 5.0-5.5 mph (5.0 seemed a bit slow so i bumped it up_
1/4 mi - 3.5 mph
1/2 mi - 5.5-6.0 mph
1/4 mi - 3.5 mph
1/4 mi - 6.0 mph (though i was going to die)
1/4 mi - 3.5 mph
1/4 mi - 5.5 mph
The only reason why i break up my speeds like this is because i'm trying to work up to running over a mile nonstop easily. The fact that i ran a mile non stop yesterday was a huge surprise, considering i havent been on a treadmill in almost a month; i guess the cardio in the P90X is working!

After my run, i felt amazing! I cleaned my whole apartment! The bathroom, kitchen, bedroom, vacumed everything, cleaned ceiling fans, dusted everything, did laundry... yeah, it was A LOT!

After my work out and cleaning, we went to my boyfriends parents house like i said before. The carbonara was delicious! The salad was not so good, they added olives and olive juice! ICK. I just don't like olives unless they're black olives on pizza! haha

Anyway...

Today so far i've had an atkins protein shake, 190 cals.
I usually have a bowl of cereal by now, but i'm not hungry... guess i'll wait for lunch (i brought a Healthy Choice, 310 cal: Salisbury Steak, Green Beans, and Potatoes. It comes with apple crisp, but i prolly wont eat them.)

Today is day 14 of the P90X - Chest and Back (push ups and pull ups).
Try to update later!
 
On a complete low...

So yesterday sucked.
Shortly after i posted on here i got a text from my boyfriend saying that he will be leaving for boot camp on Feb 8th. I knew the day would come sooner or later, i was just expecting later. I thought i had at lease 3 more months with him, not 2 weeks.
So yeah, yesterday was crappy.

Yesterday:
I had my Atkins shake, and some Beef and Shrimp Lomein (prolly 1/3 of my plate, if that)... and that was my diet for the day. A peice of chocolate cake was offered to me (like already on a plate, with a fork and some milk), and i turned it down with ease.
I didn't work out like i said i was. We ran a lot of errands trying to get things situated so we wouldnt be in a complete rush later. I was completely drained by 6 pm... crying takes a lot out of you.

Today:
So far today, I have had a atkins protein shake.
And today will be day 15: chest and back, and ab ripper x.
 
Eh

Ok, yesterday's diet:
Breakfast: Atkins protein shake
Lunch: Ceasar salad from McDonolds (light on the dressing, no croutons)
Dinner: Crawfish Chicken was the name of my plate (me and my boyfriend went out to eat). It was a chicken breast stuffed with crawfish, scallops and shrimp, topped with this creamy crawfish sauce, served with rice. I didnt realize there was a creamy sauce that came on it, so i scraped it off (but it still had the flavor from it). I ate half of the chicken and maybe two bites of the rice, and i was stuffed! I had a salad w/ no croutons and a small piece of bread.

Overall i did good at dinner!

Now after dinner, is a different story...
We went to this restuaruant/bar to see this band that we absolutely LOVE, and we have a lot of good memories at that place watching that band... so it was extremely emotional for me. I'm such a girl! Anyways, i had 3 light beers. :cheers2:
Oh well, we had a GREAT time and i don't regret it.

Work out:
Yesterday was day 15 of the P90X - Chest and Back, and Ab Ripper X.
It was rough, nothing but push ups and pull up (basically). I'm already seeing a difference in my strength. I'm still doing push ups on my knees, but i'm getting deeper into them, and it wont be long before i'm doing standard push ups! I feel it coming!
Ab ripper X is a B****! haha sorry, but it is. I'm doing modified versions of it, but because if i did it the way it shows on the video, id be sitting on my ass the whole time (sorry for the language). It hurts so good!
After P90X work out i was feeling extra motivated, and we went for a light run outside! O M G... i always for get how much different it is running outside vs treadmill. It was super windy, i was slow, but i pushed myself pretty hard, and it hurt bad. It was prolly a mile that we ran, but the wind made it feel like 3!

So yesterday had it's good points, and aside from the beer i did ok.

I weighed myself this morning and it read 142.4! :hurray:2 lbs since friday! But i only count friday weigh ins... maybe it'll be the same! better yet, maybe it'll be more! ::crossies::

I'm kind of in weird mood. Jealousy is a B***!
In my dept at work there are 4 girls. 1 is naturally skinny 'E'. One has (and still is) losing weight through Atkins... Doing Good Mindy! Keep it up!, and another that has also lost weight 'D'.
Well 'D' use to prolly be my size, but is a little taller and has a bigger butt. She recently lost weight, and i'm happy for her... but today she showed me a picture of her tummy, and the jealous part of me came out. Not because i dont want her to have great results, but because she doesn't eat at all through out the day, and if she does it's junk/ fast food! And then she talks about how she use to be fat, and now she's not; almost like rubbing it in/ flaunting it. I understand that she is on medication that curbs her appetite, but It's not fair. And i'm being a toddler, and i shouldn't... but AHHH!

OK i think i'm done.
So other than that small rant, the day is going ok.
Try not to think about Feb. 8th, but it's right around the corner.
 
I hate PLYO!

Yesterdays Diet:
Breakfast - Atkins Protein Shake
Lunch - Half of a gross grilled chicken salad. The chicken was cool and lettuce was hot! UGH, i forced myself to eat the chicken some lettuce, but i threw the rest.
Snack - I had some peanut butter cookies that a coworker had made. They are Atkins approved, but i dont know what the calorie count was... they were delish!
Dinner - Had a semi-heavy dinner, since i felt like i was starving throughout the day. Grilled Ck sandwhich: on a wheat bun, spinach, tomatoes, half a slice of mozzerla cheese, 1 tsp (if that) of fat free mayo. And cup of the campbells light soup (80 cals).
I'm going try to have a heavier lunch and a lighter dinner. I was pretty down on myself since my dinner was heavier than i'd hope for... and it had more carbs than i would like. On the upside i didn't feel stuffed after eating, i felt completely satisfied! I did eat dinner after my workout which was around 7ish... so hopefully i was still burning calories??? <--- prolly not, just being optimistic.
I felt heavy this morning... BOOO!

Work Out:
Plyometrics
I thought i was going to die! I realized yesterday that i loathe Plyo.
My boyfriend absolutely loves it. I guess i get pissy because i can't jump for sh**! And i have weak ankles, and the first day of plyo i rolled my ankle, so now i'm scared i'll do it again. I'm getting aggravated just thinking about it.
After Plyo my boyfriend jumped in the shower before me! So i decided to do some crunches. Knees up 25 to center, left and right. Then i did side bends standing up with a 12 lb weight (i don't know the 'real' name of the work out, but basically i stood up and had weight in left/ right hand and bent over my left/ right side... that prolly doesnt make sense. oh well).

I don't ever record what i drink throughout the day, since all i drink is water.
I cut out diet soda, because i think it was making me have cravings and hungrier.
Although, my coworker told me about Powerade zero, so i've been drinking half of one after my workouts... other than that, strictly water.

Today is a blah day again.
"E" (coworker) brought in krispy kreme donuts :drool5:, and offered some to everyone in the office. I declined! woohoo!
Then she said she was going to get breakfast tacos and offered some, and i diclined again! woohoo!
Then the girl who doesn't eat "C" says "no i had a donut; i couldnt resist since you brought my favorite one!" so we laugh, then i come back and say "you prolly brought ALL my favorites!" and they all laughed again...
Well then "E" says to just have one, and i say i'm trying to be good and diet...
Then "C" says as she is eating 'omg this is soo gooood, every bite is delicous, mmmmm...' and what ever, what ever.
Then i snapped and told her i hope it goes straight to her hips. lolI
t felt good saying it too.
I know she was just joking, it's just not fair; she eats crap (if anything at all)! :nopity:
blah blah blah... why do i care again? oh right cause i'm a baby! lol
Anyways, i'll try to be more optimistic... i just been down lately.
:(
 
oh yeah tomorrow is weigh in! Wish me luck! Today's work out is shoulders and back, and ab rippier x... but i may have to add in some cardio to get a weigh in that i like!
 
Good luck! Sounds like you have been doing pretty good so the weigh in will probably show a good number.
 
01/28/2010

Yesterday's diet:
Breakfast - Protein shake: 1c light choc soy milk and 1 scopp of whey protein. 25g protein, 210 cals.
Mid morning snack - 3/4c Cherios w/ 1/2c light soy milk. Around 150 cal
Lunch - Left over lomein noodles... no clue how many calories. wasn't much, but i'll guess 400 cals? idk.
Snack - apple 100 cals?
Another snack - 3/4c frosted flakes w/ 1/2c light soy milk, 150 cals
Dinner - Fajita salad... it was yummy! not healthy at all. Beef and Ck fajita, lettuce mix, guac, tomatoes, cheese and cucumbers, and no dressing (obviously it didnt need dressing). Delish... like i said pretty high in cals bc of the cheese and guac, but better than a crap load of carbs! It was served with queso... i guess as a dressing, but i put that on the other side of the table to not be tempted. No chips or tortillas... it was quite an accomplishment, since i'm easily tempted and influenced.

Work Out:
Shoulders and Arms, and Ab Ripper X
I realized that i love all the arms and back exercises... but i hate PLYO and legs! its just soo hard!
Went pretty good. I'm working with resistance bands, but some of the exercises are rough to do with it, wish i had free weights.
Didn't do cardio, i've been lacking energy and motivation. I'm pretty much stressing out w/ the whole "my boyfriend is going to boot camp" thing, and it is very draining.

I was really hungry throughout the WHOLE day. As you can tell by the 2 cereal snacks. I thought that the protein shake would curb my hunger since it had about 25g... but it didnt :(
My dinner was on the heavier side also.
I didn't eat too well yesterday, and i should have since today was my weigh in...

So getting to the weigh in...

I've been talking to my boyfriend who is trying to cut weight also before he gets to boot camp, along with another friend, and both have convinced to start weighing in wearing just undies. They say it is closer to my real body weight. So i did that today. Keep in mind that last week i weighed in wearing my night shirt and night pants (both oversized), and today i weighed in in undies.

SOOOO.... todays weight was 141.6! lol... not too bad, but it is flawed since my attire wasn't the same. Oh well next week will be more precise.
I would have liked to have more of a weight loss since this is my first month, but i haven't been eating too great (not too bad either in my opinion), oh well! At least i've lost something. I'm shooting for another 2 lbs by next weigh in, but i'll be happy with 1... don't want to lose it too fast (ok maybe i do :))

BTW this is the lowest i've weighed in a long time. I'm going to try to post some pics tonight either before or after yoga! Haven't changed much at all, but maybe after another 5lbs i'll notice something (anything!) lol
 
ok so wasn't able to post on the weekend, but here's a brief run down.
Friday:
atkins shake - 160 cals
cereal w/ light soy milk - 150 cals
HC meal - 310 cals (didnt finish all of it)
half a banana

Work out:
Yoga X.
I always feel great after yoga. I think i'm getting most improvements from yoga, i always seem to lose some size in my waist the day after.
And my back fat has gone down! Noticed that the day after yoga too.
Yoga is all i want to do now, even though i hate doing all the moving poses and my legs are always wanting to give out.

Saturday i didnt work out (shame on me).
It was supposed to be Legs and Back, and ab ripper X, but i had a break down with my boo :(
I'm so unbelievably crushed, and trying to hold myself together.

Sunday
Kenpo X
was feeling sick from my stomach.

Saturday and Sunday i didn't eat too great, but not too horrible either.

New week!... my last with with him too :(
 
02/01/2010

Yesterdays Diet:
Breakfast - Atkins shake 160 cals
Lunch – HC Ck Marinara w/ broccoli 310 cals
Dinner – 2 slices Dominos pizza :banghead: 416 cals (I looked it up online)

So yesterday was weird diet day, I normally try to have a mid morning and afternoon snack, but I got busy at work.
I wanted to have a snack when I got home from work but I was too lazy and nothing sounded appetizing.
Dinner was a failure, I shouldn’t have had pizza, but it wasn’t my idea! My boyfriend was absolutely crazy about getting Domino’s, and hey if he wants Dominos then he’ll get it… just want him to be happy! I did stop when I was full (2 slices) and I did stay under my calories. I was actually surprised I got full off of two pieces, I probably could have shoved another piece or 2 down, but I would have been completely miserable. I really did eat too little throughout the whole day, and that wasn’t my intention at all… I don’t want to go under 1200 cals a day.

Yesterdays Work Out:
Off day from P90X.
Since it was an off day and I missed a day over the weekend, and my diet wasn’t great I decided I needed to have a good work out.
I was going to do yoga (cause I have a love/ hate relationship with it), but I saw my schedule this week and saw that today is Yoga… so I did Cardio X instead… it was only 45 mins and I actually enjoyed it.
It was a combination of Yoga, Kenpo, Plyo, and Core.
I was running out of steam through the Plyo portion (lack of energy, too little calories), and I couldn’t do the core work out too great (it was hard! And I’m weak!).
After that I was pretty tired, but energized, so I decided I would try to run some.
I did 2 miles of a run/walk mix, and I thought I was going to die (30 mins).
After my run, I did Ab Ripper X… OUCH!

So I didn’t do too bad for a “day off” :party:

I hope i can keep up in yoga today!
 
02/02-02/04

ok so i haven't been posting.
i'm in a slump, not with working out or diet, but emotionally. my boyfriend leaves on monday, and i feel the anxiety working up more and more.

anyway

tuesday: yoga, day 21
wednesday: kenop, day 22
thursday: core synergistics and kenpo, day 23

yesterday was my first day doing core syn, and i loved it! i thought it was going to be like ab ripper, but it wasn't. my heart rate was actually up, and i didnt expect that. being that it was my first time, i obviously couldnt do all the exercizes but i did better than i imagined.
after core i did kenpo, so i did a double work out yesterday! i was absolutely exhuasted half way through kenpo, but i was able to get a second wind.

yesterdays diet:
breakfast - atkins protein shake, and 2 hours later bowl of cereal w/ light soy milk
lunch - chicken fajita whole grain pita thingy from jack in the box. (looked it up online and it was 310ish cals)
snack - sugar free jell-o pudding
dinner - grilled chicken and fetta cheese salad with tomatoes and light italian dressing (300 cals), and it was delish

Being that its friday i had my weigh in. I would have liked more of a loss, but i've been slipping a bit on dinner; nothing bad, just eating too late (and sometimes carb heavy).
so the scale showed 140.0!
Hopefully next week i'll be in the 130's! i'm shooting for 138. this is the lightest i've been. can't tell appearance wise, but that will come eventually.
 
I need help!

Ok, so there is this relay race here in my city on May 15th and i just got asked to join my companies sponsored team.
Originally they had a team put together quickly with 2 alternates ready, and i wasn't one of them... i wasn't even asked to be an alternate! lol
well one person dropped out, and the 2 alternates didn't want to commit to it... so thats when i was sitting in the room and they asked "uh, would you be interested?" lol
so i thought about it, and offered to be an alternate.
i was scared to commit to it in fear that i would just fail, and not be able to run my leg of the race.

Here are the legs:
1.) 4.08 miles (running on the beach, no thanks plus it was taken)
2.) 4.67 miles this is me!
3.) 4.36 miles (running up a bridge, no thanks plus taken)
4.) 4.69 miles
5.) 4.0 miles (taken)
6.) 4.4 miles (taken)

I got stuck with a long "leg" cause everyone else had already chose the good ones.
4.67 miles! what am i thinking?!?!?
The more i did think about it, the more sense it made to actually commit to this and follow through.
Last year me and my boyfriend had talked about doing the relay this year, but life happens and things change (like him joining the millitary), so we obviously cant do this together.
The relay is called Beach to Bay, and if you go to the site you can see why it is so fitting for me to do it even with out my bf (i would put it in here as a link, but i dont want this to be removed as spam, but you can google it).
I told him i joined a team for it and he was super stoked. I know if i do it he would be so very proud of me.
This will also force me to do more cardio every day, and progress my weight loss (hoepfully)

With all this said, i need help.
I am extremely out of shape. I want to be able to run my leg in 50 minutes or better. Is that unrealistic? I have 3 months to train. How should i tackle this?

I started today, lol why put off tomorrow what can be done today?
I did 3.5 miles in 45 minutes, on a treadmill... so you can see i have a great deal to go. I need to be able to run better than that OUTSIDE! Its windy (and hot in may) in my city too.

No one really reads my journal, i get some views w/ comments from only two people (which i do apprecieate btw, thanks derrick and Camy).
But i would love some suggestions! Please!

Thanks in advance!
 
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