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Lilyofthevalley
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whoa.
So it's been a while since I've been on here, and I restarted again today. I walked on the treadmill this morning for an hour and a half on an 8% incline, made better food choices (relatively, at least.) and have started writing everything down again. Hopefully it catches on. Seems I've lost my motivation
but I'm working on it. I'm feeling like I did before I lost all this weight... floundering, yelling at myself to do something and never actually doing it... screaming at myself to not walk in the kitchen for the 10th time this morning looking for food, then of course, walking in the kitchen and doing just that. 
I did what I wanted today, though. I indulged and got a personal pan cheese pizza and 3 breadsticks (this was at around 3 because my therapy appointment was supposed to be at 3 and dinner after, but it was really at 4 so I ate before. Madre took me to pizza hut/taco bell [I actually went there last night too... and got the same thing haha] and I ate the pizza and one breadstick. I took the other 2 home and had them with some chicken noodle soup [campbells ] later when I got hungry, so I didn't inhale them like I did last night.) So basically I'm pretty pleased that I did no munching of the fudge stripe cookies in the freezer, or the vienna finger cookies on the counter. I am proud to say I can account for every single thing that passed my lips today.
Another thing I am VERY proud of-- I MAINTAIN MY PERFECT 4.0 GPA!!
Grades came out tuesday and I was SO PSYCHED when I found out I had an a in public speaking, an a in intro to computer applications and concepts, and an a in ENGLISH COMPOSITION 112!! So, yeah. I decided to celebrate by getting a handle on the stress that caused me to fall off the bandwagon and take care of myself more. Woo!
At therapy today, my therapist said that my jeans looked baggy on me, and that I should get a smaller pair. I told her I had actually gained weight since she last saw me (around 8 pounds... I know, SUCKS!) but she says I must have grown. So I measured myself at home... Indeed! I am 2 inches taller than I thought I was! Yay for still being a teenager!
And now the Lilly Household Crisis. A pipe under our sink leaked water under the linoleum floor, and then the floor started to bubble up, full of water. My dad drilled a hole under the house and let the water out, and we just thought we'd have to get new linoleum... My dad called servpro, some restoration thing that works with insurance in case you have like a fire, or a flood. Yeah, so they showed up today, and I let them in because neither parent answered their cell (I mean, seriously? WHAT IS THE POINT OF HAVING A CELL PHONE IF YOU DON'T ANSWER IT?!!) and they immediately got out their tools and went to work diagnosing the problem. Seems the leak caused mold to start growing, hence the musty smell. They said that they couldn't do anything tonight because there was too much furniture in the way and my parents weren't home at that moment. So I call dad and he actually answers this time, and I gave the guy my phone to talk to him. He met him at home at 7 and they talked... so tomorrow around lunch they're going to come and tear up the kitchen floor, but right now, they set up a dehumidifier that's like POURING water down the sink from the air, and an air purifier to clean up the mold in the air. So I'm sitting here on the desktop PC because we needed to move EVERYTHING out of the kitchen (except the table, benches, and pantry because they said they can move it as they work) so our living room is full of crap from the kitchen and computer room and my laptop needed to be taken upstairs. My head is starting to hurt and I can't hear the television (American Idol, too. BOOO SERVPRO) over the REALLY loud hum those two appliances are generating.
My brother Sam is graduating from VA Tech this weekend! We're going down to see his graduation, and there will be much food and merriment. Lots of temptation! Also, my mom brought home this amish friendship bread starter (we all know the kind. Someone you work with brings bunches of bags of this weird starter liquid, and you take it home and mush it every day, and on the 6th day you put a cup of sugar, a cup of flour, and a cup of milk in with it, mush it real good, and then on day 10, you make this AMAZING cinnamon bread/cake that is just SCRUMPTIOUS, and you make 4 new starters and give them to your friends. It's actually kind of annoying because someone just hands you this bag of responsibility [and ultimately, temptation] and you're expected to keep the starter alive and mush the bag every day and keep track of the days and everything. BOO!) So next Sunday, we're going to have a fresh batch of friendship bread. I haven't done too well with it in the past... I hope my resolve will be strong enough to resist eating all 24 of them (you can make them into muffins/cupcake thingies) AHHH!!
ANNNND that's basically it. haha sorry for the really really long post, sometimes when I start writing, I just can't stop.
Summary: I did bad, but today I did good. I maintain my 4.0 gpa in college, I grew 2 inches, there's ANOTHER household crisis, I have a headache, there are TEMPTATIONS in my future (sam's graduation and that damn friendship bread), I'm pissed because Danny should have been in the final two with Adam (American Idol geek, I know... I voted over 100 times via text message) RIDICULOUS, and now the mentalist is on and Emma's being a bitch and sitting in MY seat and I'm sitting in here and I can't hear a damn thing because, once again, emma's being a total bitch and told dad to turn down the tv because it was loud enough I could kind of hear it in here.
That summary is as long as the paragraphs.
<3 Annie
So it's been a while since I've been on here, and I restarted again today. I walked on the treadmill this morning for an hour and a half on an 8% incline, made better food choices (relatively, at least.) and have started writing everything down again. Hopefully it catches on. Seems I've lost my motivation
but I'm working on it. I'm feeling like I did before I lost all this weight... floundering, yelling at myself to do something and never actually doing it... screaming at myself to not walk in the kitchen for the 10th time this morning looking for food, then of course, walking in the kitchen and doing just that. I did what I wanted today, though.
I indulged and got a personal pan cheese pizza and 3 breadsticks (this was at around 3 because my therapy appointment was supposed to be at 3 and dinner after, but it was really at 4 so I ate before. Madre took me to pizza hut/taco bell [I actually went there last night too... and got the same thing haha] and I ate the pizza and one breadstick. I took the other 2 home and had them with some chicken noodle soup [campbells ] later when I got hungry, so I didn't inhale them like I did last night.) So basically I'm pretty pleased that I did no munching of the fudge stripe cookies in the freezer, or the vienna finger cookies on the counter. I am proud to say I can account for every single thing that passed my lips today. Another thing I am VERY proud of-- I MAINTAIN MY PERFECT 4.0 GPA!!
Grades came out tuesday and I was SO PSYCHED when I found out I had an a in public speaking, an a in intro to computer applications and concepts, and an a in ENGLISH COMPOSITION 112!!
So, yeah. I decided to celebrate by getting a handle on the stress that caused me to fall off the bandwagon and take care of myself more. Woo! At therapy today, my therapist said that my jeans looked baggy on me, and that I should get a smaller pair. I told her I had actually gained weight since she last saw me (around 8 pounds... I know, SUCKS!) but she says I must have grown. So I measured myself at home... Indeed! I am 2 inches taller than I thought I was! Yay for still being a teenager!
And now the Lilly Household Crisis. A pipe under our sink leaked water under the linoleum floor, and then the floor started to bubble up, full of water. My dad drilled a hole under the house and let the water out, and we just thought we'd have to get new linoleum... My dad called servpro, some restoration thing that works with insurance in case you have like a fire, or a flood. Yeah, so they showed up today, and I let them in because neither parent answered their cell (I mean, seriously? WHAT IS THE POINT OF HAVING A CELL PHONE IF YOU DON'T ANSWER IT?!!) and they immediately got out their tools and went to work diagnosing the problem. Seems the leak caused mold to start growing, hence the musty smell. They said that they couldn't do anything tonight because there was too much furniture in the way and my parents weren't home at that moment. So I call dad and he actually answers this time, and I gave the guy my phone to talk to him. He met him at home at 7 and they talked... so tomorrow around lunch they're going to come and tear up the kitchen floor, but right now, they set up a dehumidifier that's like POURING water down the sink from the air, and an air purifier to clean up the mold in the air. So I'm sitting here on the desktop PC because we needed to move EVERYTHING out of the kitchen (except the table, benches, and pantry because they said they can move it as they work) so our living room is full of crap from the kitchen and computer room and my laptop needed to be taken upstairs. My head is starting to hurt and I can't hear the television (American Idol, too. BOOO SERVPRO) over the REALLY loud hum those two appliances are generating.
My brother Sam is graduating from VA Tech this weekend! We're going down to see his graduation, and there will be much food and merriment. Lots of temptation! Also, my mom brought home this amish friendship bread starter (we all know the kind. Someone you work with brings bunches of bags of this weird starter liquid, and you take it home and mush it every day, and on the 6th day you put a cup of sugar, a cup of flour, and a cup of milk in with it, mush it real good, and then on day 10, you make this AMAZING cinnamon bread/cake that is just SCRUMPTIOUS, and you make 4 new starters and give them to your friends. It's actually kind of annoying because someone just hands you this bag of responsibility [and ultimately, temptation] and you're expected to keep the starter alive and mush the bag every day and keep track of the days and everything. BOO!) So next Sunday, we're going to have a fresh batch of friendship bread. I haven't done too well with it in the past... I hope my resolve will be strong enough to resist eating all 24 of them (you can make them into muffins/cupcake thingies) AHHH!!
ANNNND that's basically it. haha sorry for the really really long post, sometimes when I start writing, I just can't stop.
Summary: I did bad, but today I did good. I maintain my 4.0 gpa in college, I grew 2 inches, there's ANOTHER household crisis, I have a headache, there are TEMPTATIONS in my future (sam's graduation and that damn friendship bread), I'm pissed because Danny should have been in the final two with Adam (American Idol geek, I know... I voted over 100 times via text message) RIDICULOUS, and now the mentalist is on and Emma's being a bitch and sitting in MY seat and I'm sitting in here and I can't hear a damn thing because, once again, emma's being a total bitch and told dad to turn down the tv because it was loud enough I could kind of hear it in here.
That summary is as long as the paragraphs.
<3 Annie
diarrhea. I'm not sure how to fix that.
I think that's definitely a Steve question!
You keep on doing what you're doing, just think every time you're going to put something in your mouth... Am I really that hungry, and although you might eat it anyway, I'm positive that you won't eat as much as long as you think before you eat