Height: 5'3.5"
Starting weight: approx. 175lbs
I haven't weighed myself in over a month so I'm only guessing at what I weigh now. I usually try to avoid weighing myself as the number I see is enough to either strengthen my resolve or totally break me down. So I generally won't weigh myself and pass right by the scale at the gym. When I first began working with a personal trainer in September, I weighed around 181 so I haven't made a lot of progress...
Lately I haven't been working out nearly as much as I should be. I'm really stressed out so, instead, I've had my calorie intake on lockdown. I won't go above 1200 and so far I feel fine. I'm not extra tired or weak and I feel better when I'm not overstuffed.
I think part of my problem is that I'll only workout at night. It's an anxiety thing, I dislike being around a lot of other people so I go when I'm likely to be alone. But by the time night falls, sometimes I don't feel like doing anything anymore as night is typically when I start thinking about a lot of stuff, usually things that are bothering me at the time. This is also why I sometimes find it difficult to fall asleep...
I'm trying to remain positive however - I may not be hitting the gym like I should be but I'm restricting my calorie intake, drinking only healthy things, and am not gaining weight. I've noticed a difference in my figure, I'm definitely slimmer, but I have a long way to go.
I typically work out without music but maybe I'll try switching that up. Sometimes using music works, sometimes it doesn't.
Even though I'm stressed, I feel as though things are coming together in a way. Like I can see things lining up and I feel strangely supported by my professors. I've talked to two people recently, a professor and my personal trainer, about my anxiety and both understand. Both seem to be rooting for me to pull it together and that, alone, makes me want to work harder. I'm glad that I have such genuine people to help me out, I really am. I need to keep that in mind more often, it's important and sometimes I lose sight of this fact because, in addition to good people, I also sometimes associate with less kind people who bring me down...which I really need to stop allowing.
So here is entry one, hopefully many more follow and the pounds start falling off!
*Blog titled after Firefly by Paul Oakenfold.
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Starting weight: approx. 175lbs
I haven't weighed myself in over a month so I'm only guessing at what I weigh now. I usually try to avoid weighing myself as the number I see is enough to either strengthen my resolve or totally break me down. So I generally won't weigh myself and pass right by the scale at the gym. When I first began working with a personal trainer in September, I weighed around 181 so I haven't made a lot of progress...
Lately I haven't been working out nearly as much as I should be. I'm really stressed out so, instead, I've had my calorie intake on lockdown. I won't go above 1200 and so far I feel fine. I'm not extra tired or weak and I feel better when I'm not overstuffed.
I think part of my problem is that I'll only workout at night. It's an anxiety thing, I dislike being around a lot of other people so I go when I'm likely to be alone. But by the time night falls, sometimes I don't feel like doing anything anymore as night is typically when I start thinking about a lot of stuff, usually things that are bothering me at the time. This is also why I sometimes find it difficult to fall asleep...
I'm trying to remain positive however - I may not be hitting the gym like I should be but I'm restricting my calorie intake, drinking only healthy things, and am not gaining weight. I've noticed a difference in my figure, I'm definitely slimmer, but I have a long way to go.
I typically work out without music but maybe I'll try switching that up. Sometimes using music works, sometimes it doesn't.
Even though I'm stressed, I feel as though things are coming together in a way. Like I can see things lining up and I feel strangely supported by my professors. I've talked to two people recently, a professor and my personal trainer, about my anxiety and both understand. Both seem to be rooting for me to pull it together and that, alone, makes me want to work harder. I'm glad that I have such genuine people to help me out, I really am. I need to keep that in mind more often, it's important and sometimes I lose sight of this fact because, in addition to good people, I also sometimes associate with less kind people who bring me down...which I really need to stop allowing.
So here is entry one, hopefully many more follow and the pounds start falling off!
*Blog titled after Firefly by Paul Oakenfold.
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