Today is my first day on this thing. Bought a treadmill a couple of months ago after losing nearly 30 lbs at the gym, sure that it was my answer to everything. It was so hard to find the time to get to the gym, hard to coordinate child care and everything. But honestly, since the TM has been here in my house, so convenient, I've slacked off and put some weight back on. The eating has been not so good, to say the least.
There is this strange thing I do. I'm not the one who gets frustrated when they don't see immediate results and gives up. I'm the weirdo who quits when things get good. If I get results and things are looking up, that's the time i sabotage. Not just with weight loss, but school, relationships, jobs... anything that starts going well, and there's an actual chance for succes... I do my best to blow it. I don't know why. It's like I don't want to really be happy/healthy.
Trying to work on this.
There is this strange thing I do. I'm not the one who gets frustrated when they don't see immediate results and gives up. I'm the weirdo who quits when things get good. If I get results and things are looking up, that's the time i sabotage. Not just with weight loss, but school, relationships, jobs... anything that starts going well, and there's an actual chance for succes... I do my best to blow it. I don't know why. It's like I don't want to really be happy/healthy.
Trying to work on this.
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