Getting back to my after

dreamtobethin

dreamtobethin

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Ok; here is where I am going to record my journey of my getting back to my after.

A little about me: I have always had trouble with my weight; the biggest problem I have is I lose it with a lot of hard work and then I gain back the pounds as quickly as I lost it. I get to my weight and I guess enjoy myself so much that before I know it I am back to where I started....and then start feeling miserable and low and depressed about myself. I have wasted enough time feeling miserable about myself and have decided to get back to my beautiful after; I still remember how great I felt when I had lost weight; my confidence was throught the roof; I enjoyed life; I loved shopping; everything I tried on looked good and now nothing fits and nothing looks good...

So I have decided to take control and record my journey to my after; more to come as I get back to my after........and hopefully stay there once I have reached there.
 
Day 1 officially

Well I woke up today; did Jillian Micheals - Shape up front Workout; it really does kill you...but I feel good after doing it; after that got ready to go to work; had 2 egg whites and half a grapefruit for breakfast and now @ work.

You know as I was doing my workout I was thinking; everytime I put on weight I kill myself being meticulous with my workouts; eating right and as soon as I get to where I want to be I start becoming so comfortable. This is not the first time around I have done that; this is the third time; and everytime I start working out again I vow that never ever am I going to let myself get back here and I still do it; I am mad at myself; I could have continued doing what I was doing and gotten better with time instead I chose to take things easy and am back where I started....why do I do this always? Well here I am taking my vow for the third and hopefully the final time that this is it; I am never gonna let this happen again....

These thoughts depress me and then well atleast I am happy I am taking charge before it is too late....

Plan to go to the gym in the evening to do an hour of cardio;

For now just taking it one day at a time.....
 
hey I dont see you aroudn much but you are kicking butt with us on team 2, here is to sticking with it for a looonnggg time (for both of us) this time!
 
hey girl^^
cant wait for the challenge to start tomorrow!
i hope this is your official diary atm =P
cant wait to get to know you better!
 
dreamtobethin said:
I have always had trouble with my weight; the biggest problem I have is I lose it with a lot of hard work and then I gain back the pounds as quickly as I lost it.
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Reading this made me think about myself because it is soooo true!!!lose, gain, lose, gain, lose, gain.........its the story of my life!!!
Well like you I am on the 6 week challenge and wanted to wish you luck!
kc :)
 
Thanks everyone. I am super excited about this challenge and with all these words from all of you it makes me really want to do it............good luck to all.......
 
Hey girlie!!! I'm so excited about this challenge!!! We are really going to do this!! I can't wait to see you reach your goals as well!! :grouphug:!!! Woohoo!! :party:!
 
Hey looking forward to getting to know you!! And I've done Jillian's 30 days sherd and it killer too!! I did it for like 3 days and couldn't go on.. I decided to shape up a bit more before I started!! And I also know what you mean by being really close to your goal and getting comfortable and then just giving up!! I was at 165 several years ago and now wow gained a lot since then.. Anyways GOOD LUCK!!
 
Well today is day 2 on the challenge; I did not do quite well y'day not that I did not stick to my calories I did as I was fasting but I guess it was too much fruit through out the day.

Today uptil now I havent actually stuck to my food plan as I had thought but did not overshoot my calories feeling kind of low...it is also that time of the month so feeling overly fat and ugly....looking at myself in the mirror depresses me right now...i remember doing a double take at myself just 6-7 months ago when I was the skinniest I have ever been in 9 years....

It is just depressing sometimes....my husband is a handsome guy....and sometimes I just feel ugly or that I am just not the right person for him; I know every guy wants a pretty gal next to him to show off..and I just dont feel pretty anymore...i know underneath all this fat there is this pretty person I have seen it but why oh why knowing how important it is for me to be thin as mentally i attribute thin = pretty fat = ugly for myself; but there are other women I see and truly envy who are much bigger than me but carry themselves so well;

okay enough of ranting..time to stop ranting and get moving...I know i have done it once I can do it again...just makes it more difficult every time u try to do it....well .............what can u do? what needs to be done needs to be done...........right????
 
Honey,

I have had to learn the VERY hard way that the only way to 'feel good' on the outside, is to truly work on the 'inside' first.

I have a lot of emotional garbage I'm having to 'spring clean & wash away' so-to-speak. ;)

Even tho I still want to improve the outside and lose weight, I'm feeling so much better and I have a new HOPE that is fueling me.

I don't know of course what your belief system is, but this place is helping me so much!



If this is the type of thing you're into, the Fruit's of the Spirit is a great place to start.
:)

**HUGS**

- Stacy
 
Hey.. not really sure what your name is??? But you haven't done perfect the first 2 days no worries you have 40 whole days to make up for it!!! YAY! I know you can do it!! And as you thin=pretty.. No I know pretty of beautiful women who are overweight and personally I think really skinny ppl are ugly.. You just need to find that confidence it you!! I'm sure your beautiful never seen a picture.. But I'm your husband loves you for who are not how you look.. :) Hope your day gets better!!!
 
Thanks hickgurltx and i_will_not_fail for those words; it means a lot when you are really feeling like s**t

I have had to learn the VERY hard way that the only way to 'feel good' on the outside, is to truly work on the 'inside' first.

I have a lot of emotional garbage I'm having to 'spring clean & wash away' so-to-speak.

Even tho I still want to improve the outside and lose weight, I'm feeling so much better and I have a new HOPE that is fueling me.
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I agree with you on this hickgurltx; I just get depressed because people always judge you whats on the outside and that ends up affecting how you feel on the inside....i know I should not care about what people think but....when I am in a party with a room full of thin people I just feel miserable and it starts affecting me and from there one thing leads to another....

Hey.. not really sure what your name is??? But you haven't done perfect the first 2 days no worries you have 40 whole days to make up for it!!! YAY! I know you can do it!! And as you thin=pretty.. No I know pretty of beautiful women who are overweight and personally I think really skinny ppl are ugly.. You just need to find that confidence it you!! I'm sure your beautiful never seen a picture.. But I'm your husband loves you for who are not how you look.. Hope your day gets better!!!
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my name is sandy; and I agree there are lots of overweight people who are beautiful its just that my confidence just dies down when I gain weight..guess its just me...I know he does love me for who I am but being overweight makes me self conscious and I am just not the same person; I am not even the person I was; I think I have become a dull and boring person...because of this weight....and yet I dont do enough to get rid of it....:smash:
 
Hey Sandy, I'm Dom, also on the 6 week continuation Challenge with you :)
Well most of us here can relate to what you talk about, we've all been there feeling the same crap haha! BUT we're all here, in this together and all! so you can expect nothing but support here.

Look forward to talking to you, and of course hope we both lose those pounds aye? :)

~dom
 
Hey lady! I just wanted to stop in and say hello and good luck in the challenge! We can do this! I totally understand what you mean by lose,gain,lose,gain. I have soooo been there. Now this time the goal is to lose the right way so that I can keep it off. When I was in the military all I had to do was go on a deployment to lose weight. But now that I'm a civi, I can't really do that. So let's lose this weight so we can feel better, outside and in. Hope to see ya around!
 
Hey there, What is that Jillian work out like?I started the 30 day shred today and all I have to say is OMFG!!!LOL If anyone can get us in shape I think it will be Jillian Michaels!!!Good luck in the challenge!

 
I think Jillian is a killer when you begin with but as you progress and build up your stamina; it gets easier as is the case with everything else...but what I like best about these workouts is that she takes care of the total body; I also got the Shape up series of hers; which is a set of 5 DVD's (Shape Up - Front, Shape Up - Back, Cardio Kickbox, Maximize - Full Frontal, Maximize - Back in Action); this is good too; and the best part the whole workout is only 20 mins from start to finish; so you can kickstart your day with one of these workouts and get your body going...I normally try to do this in the morning and then go to the gym in the evening.....

Hopefully now only if I can be consistent every morning with it.......
 
Oh it is the middle of the day slept late last night and had to wake up early..I am so sleepy right now......can't even get to focus on my work; guess I will go out and get some fresh air....

Hows everyone doing on the challenge? I have been good going to the gym but with the meals I am not going above my calories but not eating the foods I planned I will eat; oh well need to get my ass back on track here....else come april i will still be brooding on how ugly i look...................
 
Hey Sandy,
I know how frustrating it can be to have worked so hard to lose weight and then to gain it back. My lowest was 148lbs about a year ago, about 15lbs away from my goal and now I'm 30lb heavier. :p But you're right I think we get comfortable and slack. I got married this past August and both my husband and I gained weight since then. We're both about 30lbs heavier and very unhappy... But we have to work to change all that together. :D
 
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