In the past, I was SO motivated to write what I'd eat down everyday, getting in my daily workout in, preparing myself for my first year at Uni, and to complete a weekly 'Diet and Healthy Living Tips' diary entry. My first week of Uni was phenomenal. I gave myself a detox of eating by following the SlimGenics PrepStep plan that is scheduled to be a total of three days: unlimited raw greens, unlimited proteins, having two hard boiled eggs for breakfast along side half an orange and 1/2 cup of berries, and the other half of the orange (and another 1/2 of berries) as a snack or with another meal. This detox helped me clear out my mind from the junk I was eating and the funky feeling that cam with it. I felt SOOO good! After the third day of the detox, it was time for me to get back to eating starches and other healthy foods, which I may be talking about later in another journal entry, but all I can say is that I lost weight. In my first month of both Uni and being on this 'diet,' I lost a total of 3.2+ kg. (That's about 7 lbs.) I was happy, I felt smarter, and I could walk up the stairs without having to stop at the midway point to catch my breath! Yay! And that wasn't the only benefit, but this so called 'diet' was so easy to maintain! Never once have I felt the need to binge because of deprivation. BUT...... it all ended pretty quickly after that first month when my first exams started popping up. Let's just say that the anxiety for the tests, and the little time I had to actually prep my food, had a huge toll on my waist... and arms... and my chin area... annnnd my overall body + cravings... Yeah, I binge ate when I had to come home at around 10 p.m because of a stupid exam I had to take that was at 7. I was not prepared for that day or the other exam dates. My sweet cravings always kick in when I felt stressed. However, luckily, SlimGenics had a chapter about getting back on track where, for anther three days, all I had to do was increase my water intake and to take out one starch and one fruit portion for two of the 3 days. It was that simple! I made a mental note to step on the scale the next morning and to start this 'getting back on track' detox. (The PrepStep detox and 'Getting back on track' detox are two completely different things.) The next morning, I got on the scale and my eyes just about popped out of my sockets. Okay, I wasn't really that shocked. I was expecting a bit more weight gain than what I did go through. I was up by about 2.9 kg (bout 6.4 lbs.) My binge eating went on for about two-three weeks (and still counting), and during that time I stuffed my cheeks with desserts. In my opinion: not that bad. But, now, I'm back at a high weight of 73 kg. (161 lbs.) That was just frustrating, through. From that, I made the choice to start ALL over and to get back to the PrepStep detox phase. But... because I was so used to having dessert for breakfast, lunch and dinner... it was kind of hard to go cold-turkey like that, and I basically half-a**ed it all. I would eat unlimited greens and everything else stated before, but I would end the day with once again, stuffing my face. This led me to a whole new level of being stuck on my weight. My weight would go up or simply stay the same. I prolonged the 'detox' for an entire week, but each night would end the same. I know for a fact that the detox worked fine before and it's not the diet that keeps me from binge eating, bu it's because of the stress that I feel EVERYDAY now. Thanks to the family drama, exams, and random anxiety attacks I've been looking at food as a method to calm myself down. This is wrong. SO wrong. And, once again, I'm willing to start over with the SlimGenics diet. It's helped me once, when I wasn't feeling the stress and I was just getting settled with school, and I know for a fact that it will help me again. Today was my last half-a** effort of going on the PrepStep detox, and tomorrow I WILL complete my first day with no mess ups. I'm going to re-write some of my past goals to fit into my lifestyle now and so I wont feel pressured to have to complete them within the very tight timeline:
1. I WILL stay focused in school and learn to ignore any family issues (because they really shouldn't concern me ATM.)
2. Instead of posting weekly tips, I will try to post my updates MONTHLY.
3. I will learn to deal with my stressors in a positive way.
What I expect to see as change:
1. Improved sleep.
2. Improved relationship with self and self confidence.
3. Improved learning (Because good nutrition helps you think straight and remember things better!)
4. An increased ability to complete goals that are valuable to me and rational.
5. Improved independence.
As cheesy as it might sound, I am making an oath to myself to have a more flexible mind and schedule so I won't feel rushed all the time to complete assignments by a certain date, or to be focused on what my older sister is doing with her life instead of my own personal goals. I want to feel relaxed and take life smoothly, even with all of its ups and downs. I've already had my eyes opened to how my new life is going to be like, and I am certain that I can make a permanent change from now on.
(P.S: I am not trying to say that I won't be trying to help recover the huge gap between my family member, I will because no one else would be able to, but I am going to say that it if does make too big of a negative impact on me, I will need to find a way to get out of the system for a while. As much as I love my family and as much as I hate seeing everyone carry so much hate, I need to focus on my future and taking care of myself first before being able to make a big impact on others.)
(P.P.S: For the SlimGenics diet, it is recommended to buy their diet approved 'snacks' called Thermosnacks, but those things are expensive! I'm in UNI for crying out loud! I'm dirt poor! Maybe even more poor than that! However, me being my smart student self that I am, I learned to just buy healthy snacks that match up in nutritional value and cost less instead, and I have still been able to lose weight without feeling deprived. (Go brain power and corner-cutting!) Why I actually learned to love this diet is because it really does help clear your mind, and it's the only diet I've tried where the only things that you need to buy is what is recommended, but not required. Well, then there's the book that tells you about portion sizing and the other detox plans and vacation meal planning tips, but that wasn't too bad of a price, and I would say that that's the only thing I was willing to pay for. The diet itself always reminds you to eat whole, healthy foods and that fall-out days are fine. Would I recommend this diet to anyone? Yes, I would. It has helped me feel great before, and like I've stated, I know it will help me again this time around.)
Wish me luck!
1. I WILL stay focused in school and learn to ignore any family issues (because they really shouldn't concern me ATM.)
2. Instead of posting weekly tips, I will try to post my updates MONTHLY.
3. I will learn to deal with my stressors in a positive way.
What I expect to see as change:
1. Improved sleep.
2. Improved relationship with self and self confidence.
3. Improved learning (Because good nutrition helps you think straight and remember things better!)
4. An increased ability to complete goals that are valuable to me and rational.
5. Improved independence.
As cheesy as it might sound, I am making an oath to myself to have a more flexible mind and schedule so I won't feel rushed all the time to complete assignments by a certain date, or to be focused on what my older sister is doing with her life instead of my own personal goals. I want to feel relaxed and take life smoothly, even with all of its ups and downs. I've already had my eyes opened to how my new life is going to be like, and I am certain that I can make a permanent change from now on.
(P.S: I am not trying to say that I won't be trying to help recover the huge gap between my family member, I will because no one else would be able to, but I am going to say that it if does make too big of a negative impact on me, I will need to find a way to get out of the system for a while. As much as I love my family and as much as I hate seeing everyone carry so much hate, I need to focus on my future and taking care of myself first before being able to make a big impact on others.)
(P.P.S: For the SlimGenics diet, it is recommended to buy their diet approved 'snacks' called Thermosnacks, but those things are expensive! I'm in UNI for crying out loud! I'm dirt poor! Maybe even more poor than that! However, me being my smart student self that I am, I learned to just buy healthy snacks that match up in nutritional value and cost less instead, and I have still been able to lose weight without feeling deprived. (Go brain power and corner-cutting!) Why I actually learned to love this diet is because it really does help clear your mind, and it's the only diet I've tried where the only things that you need to buy is what is recommended, but not required. Well, then there's the book that tells you about portion sizing and the other detox plans and vacation meal planning tips, but that wasn't too bad of a price, and I would say that that's the only thing I was willing to pay for. The diet itself always reminds you to eat whole, healthy foods and that fall-out days are fine. Would I recommend this diet to anyone? Yes, I would. It has helped me feel great before, and like I've stated, I know it will help me again this time around.)
Wish me luck!
