Right...Soo
Dear Me,
Pizza is not an essential of life. There are other foods out there. Eat something healthy for lunch/dinner at work. Go on, try it! I dare you!
Love,
Me.
Yeh. See I work at Target. Target has a pizza hut in it. They offer small pizzas (they are turly small like, small. It'd probably be equal to two slices of normal pizza. And they offer bread sticks. Three of them. And if you make it a combo it costs $5.63.
And guess what fatty gets it? That's right. ME. Cause it's good. Actually, no its not. I mean it IS, but I dont love it and I KNOW I should be eating something with a nutritinal content. But after working 6hrs with a few more ahead of me, by that point I just go "gimmie fooood!!"
Btw my house doesnt contain any good foods to bring with me to work. Trust me, I've checked. A few times. I mean its no excuse but really, nothing. at all.
Today tho. I ate raviolies for breakfast. (ravioli in lean ground beef with plain tomato sauce with some part skim moz. cheese ontop) And then for lunch, that damned pizza combo. And for dinner? Guess...go on...guess.....
Pizza. Yeh. Pizza. Again. Disgusting, I know. But we buy plain crusts, to make our own. It's a thin white crust. I put plain tomato sauce on. Part skim moz cheese. I threw on like 5 small pepperonis (mainly for my boyfriend). I contemplated adding mushrooms but decided it takes too much effort to open the jar.
No soda tho. I drank lite minutemaid lemonaide at work and then minutemaid lemonaide at home. Not the greatest thing to drink but it wasnt soda. Plus I drank water on my breaks.
So I looked in the mirrior and was horrified. It seriously looks like I'm pregnant. It's gross. I feel so ashamed. Yet at the same time, I just dont knw how I'm going to do it.
Ive done it before. I did really well at the beginning of the year. But now I dont even knw where to begin. My brain is crammed full of school thoughts and work related stuff that it seems like I cant focus on anything else.
I need to find that balance between everything. I'm hoping work will slow down a bit and I can go back to 26hrs a week. Almost 40hrs is just wiping me out cause I come home laaaate at nite n then stay up doing school work. Then repete.
Natsky and Trusylvr, thank you for your comments. They mean alot that people will support me when I dont support myself. I'm trying to get back into this site, so I'll try to check out your journals and offer as much support as I can to you both! =)