Hey Rainbow.
I have read the rest of your diary this afteroon and then i got to your last post and it really floored me. I just wanted to give you a big hug! I have really really enjoyed reading about your life thru your 'food eyes' and it was so inspiring. It's sad that you are feeling so low today. I have to say that i don't know what you are going thru as i, luckily, have never been thru anything like that. Yeah, we have had our ups and downs but nothing out of the ordinary. I wish i could help but know that i'm here for you. Big squishy hug sweetie. Xx
I came on to write about what i thought of your diary and saw what you posted today and then thought 'that's insensitive' But then i thought 'no, maybe it will cheer her up a bit' So.....i am gonna write in the hope that it might make you smile a little bit.
I even made a note of what i wanted to write (how totally pathetic of me!) Anyway.....You proper made me laugh out loud when you said about the left and right side of your brain arguing and bullying and throwing choc sauce over the other. So so funny. That is me totally, i can have that arguement and talk myself into eating choc in about 30 seconds flat!!! I will try and put up a fight but hardly ever win.
I love your photo's (you are a stunning woman by the way) The first comparing ones were great but the second one was WOW!!! such a different, you look amazing, with a lovely shape too.
I would love to have a tummy tuck. My belly is my worse part. I was nearly 19 stone when i was about 20 (really ballooned with depression) and a size 24!!! hence large belly. Then lost a lot and got to about 14 stone, then gained to 16, got pregnant and went up to 18 again. Had a section when i had Jack so then had a nice fold to make it even worse. Now at 38 (very nearly) my belly just hangs in a baggy tyre shape around me. I have lots of excess skin, it's gross!! i don't think i will ever like it even if (WHEN!!) i get to a size 12, maybe i should pleat it lol. Ok rant over.
I loved the room full of crappy food story, very very true. It really made sence.
You said about friends who aren't trying to lose weight not being supportive. I have that too. Some of my friends are really pleased that i am feeling so much better in myself but they just don't get how really amazing it is when you achieve something so when you can say 'no' to something. That is what you guys on here do for me too. I must think at least a dozen times a day 'oh, must tell them that' You guys are so so great and it's also good that we really don't know each other so we can be totally honest.
I too am a cereal addict!!!!!! i would be totally happy if i could only eat one type of food for the rest of my life. It would be cereal and if i had to choose only one, it would be plain old rice krispies!!!! Stop it Kate, i want some now, luckly we don't have them in the house, i can't have them here cos they would be gone lol
Lastly, i couldn't miss out the 'going for a jog and end up jumping over your garden wall' story. I am so so sorry but i laughed....a lot (to the point where Mark looked at me and asked what was so funny, don't worry i didn't tell him!) I totally lived it with you, i would have probably done the same, ya just want the ground to open up and swallow you, but no, that never happens and we have to resort to extremes like wall jumping.
Your diary was truely a great read and your a true inspiriation to me. I hate that life is rubbish for you at the moment but remember we are here for you. Sending love your way hun. Xxx
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You've done so well and you're almost done!! I lost my first pound today from calorie counting the past few days. I was so excited! I can't wait to see what next week will be like when I've had a whole week!
Im sending you lots of hugs and warm thoughts!!