General hysterical diet related rambling: From Flab to Fab.

Hey girly! Stay strong! You will go back and you will show them, I just know it.

As for all the rioting, please stay safe!:Angel_anim:
 
Hope you are okay, darlin. Scary that's just up the road from you... and scary with all those sirens. How is Charlie going with it all?

Love the picture of you and the rainbow-coloured-smiley-faced-waterfall of pizazz. :)

xx
 
Gee Rainbow, its all happening over there. I hope it doesn't get any closer to you or any worse anywhere. Stay safe.

I didn't realise you were locking yourself away from the world. I thought you were a confident person. I think its so terribly sad when people become too afraid to leave the house, alone or not. ON the depression site i sometimes frequent, there are so many people who get into this state. I was somewhat shocked to realise how common it is. The best antidote tip i can suggest for that is to read at least the first chapter of Feel The Fear and do it anyway. I loved that book. So full of good ideas but i use that first chapter mentally all the time. ITs a real winner.

Anyhow, you are gorgeous inside and out and you have nothing to fear from nasty people. Spit something clever back at them - though i know that's not very buddhist but getting angry in response to such nastiness really does help you be stronger and more in charge of your life.
 
Thanks Tete :) Ah well, its weigh day tomorrow, I will see if I'm on target or not! I doubt it haha.

Amy I can't believe how they are spreading, I heard its started in paris as well now! Don't worry too much, I think there is very little chance of getting hurt unless you live in the town centre, and a nearby shop is set on fire. It seems to be more about robbery than violence. Except towards the police.

My bf's mum was evacuated from her local town centre earlier on because they had looted a department store (debenhams). The shops are still all shut, and police and fire engines are still cruising up and down waiting for trouble to happen, but its felt a lot calmer today. You couldn't get through to the police yesterday- it makes me really angry, because there were probably people out there being murdered or something who really needed the polices help, and they didn't get it.

Thanks everyone :grouphug:

Charlie's alright with sirens with the windows closed :)

Fortyfour I will check out that book :) I know I have confidence in there somewhere! I just have this feeling of being totally exposed and panicky when I am alone. I know it sounds weird, but if I've got my sunglasses on I can almost relax, its like I hide behind them. But its getting colder, and I can't wear them in the rain :) Its just that given the option, I would rather stay indoors. I know this isn't healthy and it needs to change! And I will change it because I'm not happy living like this. Its getting boring. And I like my own company, going to galleries, shopping and having coffee just with me. I will be fiiiiine! In a few weeks I'll be saying to you all how silly I feel about this.

I've spent all day organising and cleaning, am I'm shattered, so I'll comment on everyones diarys tomorrow x My camera went flat, but I had this for dinner tonight with a big salad. It had pesto and marscapone on it and was yummy.

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Food
100gs porridge oats
tomato and pesto tart with salad.

Excercise
7 hours organising and cleaning.
 
I read yesterday from news about the riots over there! SCARY!! It seems like there is a total chaos! Huhh.. How people can act like that, sick world..

But I hope you re ok over there and nothing bad happens to you, be safe!!
xoxo
 
Glad everything with you is okay, m'dear.

How can you just have 100g porridge and then that incredible-looking tart? I'd have eaten a whole oven tray full of it! And with that puff pastry... it looks to die for... if you like that, you reallllly should try my bruschetta!

And yeah, what a work-out! No wonder you're buggered! x
 
Oooooh the tomato pastry looks awesome. It never occured to me that i would be able to have that. What is the cal content? We use to sometimes have that on a fri after getting back from tesco's cos it's quick and easy (easyroll pastry of course).

I have wanted to change the sad face but i don't know how to...Any ideas?
Also, OK, OK i will get Mark to take some photo's (he will have to take about 50 for me to maybe agree to one being put on here) I have real issues with my apperance, i can barely cope with looking in a mirror. If i am ever anywhere where there is mirrors i have to move. I know, total headcase but that's me. I am going out on saturday so will be dressing up (sort of) so i'll try and remember to get him to take a picture then. Are you on facebook, there is loads of 'drunk Kate' pictures etc on there, you can see my weight flutuation too lol (Kate Rogers. The profile pic is of me and Mark with our heads together)
Oh, by the way, my hair is that dark you can only tell it's red in some light. I really like it though, she trimmed it too and i thought it made my face look thinner!
 
FleurIt was quite unenergetic to tell the truth! I've got rid of at least 6 black bags full of rubbish, and set aside loads of stuff to donate. I've got LOADS more to do tho. It is my dream to have a house which only contains the bare minimum of stuff. And with all the stuff being things I love. It gets messy so quickly- Once upon a time I was in a rented place away from my "official" house, and only had clothes and a few bits of make-up there, and well selected toys for charlie. The place never got messy, it was heaven. I want to have as few possesions as possible. No junk. And everything organised to within an inch of its life. That is, my dream (said dramatically).

Eericka I think the riots are calming down a bit now. I bloody hope so anyway. I don't see it as being awful compared to a natural disaster or anything, but its quite worrying. At least they haven't got guns! I could imagine if America or somewhere decided to copy us, that would be awful. But then I guess the police there have got guns to control the crowd better. Hmmm...

Joh aka dm, and half KateI actually had loads of porridge, the 100g was just the dry oats :eek: Then, at bedtime I decided to eat a humongous bowl of cereal. Ooops. It was delicious, I can't wait to have it again. Was like pizza times ten. It is quite calorific tho at 500 calories a slice, but seeing as a big salad is probably under 100 calories, it didn't matter that much to me. I am adding bruschetta ingredients to my shopping list now :) Sod the nationality thing for one day next week! Would quite like to get superposh balsamic and oil. They last for ages so I'm sure that will justify the ridiculous cost :/

Kate I know exactly how you feel. I don't think I looked in the mirror for about 3 years when I was a teenager. I haven't seen you, so for all I know you could have two heads, but you know what, even if you did have two heads- so bloody what. Only supermodels look like supermodels, and there is so many other great traits a person can have other than being jaw droppingly stunning..... I know I am telling you despite hating the way I look, and I am being a bit of a hypocrite, but still. I like you, and I think that you have a great personality, and I don't want you to feel so crap about the way you look :( We are our own worst critics, and I bet you anything that what you see is NOT what other people see. I just wrote this mahoosive long list of things I hate about myself. But then I deleted it. I thought I am trying to encourage you to be more positive and I have gone off on a mad one myself lol.

There are LOADS of Kate Rogers on facebook! Add me.... https://www.facebook.com/ruthyliscious

I weighed myself today, and I only lost 100 grams. I have been letting it slide a bit though, and not counting calories. So I am going to count calories again from now on, and have the best next few weeks ever, and I am going to reach my august challenge high target of 9lbs. I would love to be half a stone lighter (7lbs) at the notting hill carnival in almost 3 weeks.

I tried on a dress in topshop today, after I had weighed myself and felt bubbery. It was quite a prim 50's type floral summer dress, but it had a cut out crochet band below the boobs. I thought that I would try it on so I could berate myself for looking so shite (As I used to do ages ago with bikinis in the changing room lol), but it didn't actually look too bad. It actually almost looked SEXY! Size 14 that I tried on had room to move inside it (although I think it was supposed to be cut that way), so I think I might get it in size 12 for the carnival in 3 weeks. I can always take it back if it doesn't fit by then.

All this talking about getting skinny and I haven't lost weight this week. I'M A FRAUD!!!!!!

Just watched that alien film "Paul", it was so funny!

Please, people, nag me if I don't count calories!!!!!! I have counted them today and they are under, which is a nice change. I'm sure one day of being under won't wreck my metabolism.

Tonights dinner... mega scrummy.... and low cals.

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Food
Shreddies with milk 288
3 nectarines 189
Trout with almond butter and new potatoes (with butter that isn't in the pic) 410
4 coffees 100
=988 Edit.... Oh sod it, I'm having some cereal (288) = 1276.

Exercise
1 mileish walking
NEED TO START MY MORNING WORKOUT AGAIN!!!!!
 
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Hey hun, thanks for being so supportive, i cant believe you live in London and are near the riots, I hope you are doing okay,stay safe chick:)

On a positive note you are doing so well:) That cleaning was obviously a really good workout in the end! Im loving the food pictures you put in your diary entries:)

Keep going strong!!! xoxoxo
 
Hi Ruth. now I remember but i also like calling you rainbow because its such a positive image. Same with sunflower.

About the mirror think and self image. I also have had significant issues iwth the way i look. Here's what i learnt. When you feel you are ugly, its because you are depressed. Therefore, i believe it pays to get help with that. I noticed that when i was not depressed, i did not have such a negative feeling about my appearance, even though objectively speaking, I no i am no stunner but my feelings were different about my appearance whether i am depressed or not regardless of objectivity.

I actually found it helpful to avoid looking in teh mirror when i was in my most negative state because looking in teh mirror then only made me feel worse. So i think its a good coping mechanism not to look in the mirror but a better one is to get some sort of therapy and maybe medication if you are diagnosed.

About that scrumptious looking tomato tart Ruth, if i had that on my diet, i would still be hungry afterwards becuase it would be so high cal - marscapone is afterall cream. How can you manage to restrict yourself to one slice is beyond me. I guess you can bulk up on salad or something like that and try to hide the rest of it somewhere you may forget or forcefeed it to your boy so that there's nothing left for you do a midnight raid on.

Fish dinner looks yummy too. I'd still want to eat more than that though. It looks so such a small meal. I like to eat a lot. I am just a gutz i guess.
 
Hey overtherainbow, counting your calories is important. I find if I don't do that, I gain some weight. I just can't eyeball just yet, if I ever will I don't know.

But you're doing well and counting calories isn't very hard anyways. I know you can do it.

I need to workout when I get up in the mornings again too. I stopped and just haven't been able to get back into it yet.
 
Im totally with you on houses without too much stuff. Its better for the mind (at least for mine, hè, hè) when you literally have space around you.
 
Thanks princess :)

What you say is very true forty four, you do feel like you look nicer when you are happier. I have had many of them stares in the mirror, not posy stares, but just looking at myself and thinking "Eurgh". Its probably better not to look in the mirror than to do it for the sole reason of assessing you ugliness.

Restricting myself to one slice was easy, I only made enough for one slice each :) I could easily polish off the whole lot as well :) Think next time I'll use Philadelphia light, maybe the one with garlic and herbs to give it a bit more vavavoom. That would bring the calories down a bit.

Fleur You've been so great with the exercising, don't give up now! Just start with a couple of minutes, NO EXCUSES!

Sweatdaily That is so true.

Sooo.... this is the first day I've actually counted calories AND exercised in the morning for ages now. I'm getting back into the mode!

I should have done some more organising today, but I didn't. I've been mainly playing with the kids and going off and on the computer. I have been wearing a size 12 dress, and skirt all day. Yep, a dress, tucked into a denim mini skirt. I know, I'm weird. But with loads of stuff waiting to be organised all over my bedroom floor, I thought I'd try them on! The skirt is from primark, and the sizes come up quite big in there, and it is tight, and not flattering. But, what the hell! Its size 12, and if I want to wear it in my own house, I will bloody well do so :)

I'm having the duck mushroom and spinach thingy again now. The kids ate out. I've just ordered a badminton racket for Saturday :) I've decided I want to be on a team lol, Joh has inspired me. But first I need to see if I'm any good :D

Food
50g shreddies with milk 125
salad with light dressing 149
slice bread and butter 130
Duck with spinach and mushrooms with maple syrup dressing 741
5 coffees 125
=1405

Exercise
10 minutes trampoline
100 sit ups
I think I'll do another 5 minutes pre-dinner trampoline as well.
 
Whoop Whoop!!! get you in your size 12!! That is so cool.

I'm gonna take a leaf out of your book and have a look on Ebay for a dress! gonna go for a size 14 to start with, it is gonna be forever before i get to a 12 so i'lll get a stopgap one.

Just wanted to say thank you so much for all your support, you are true inspiration.
 
You're right. I made sure I've been doing my 2 mile walks at work at night. I think I only missed one this week, but we were super busy at work that night. Gonna get an exercise bike this weekend and I'll be on my way. Might hop on the rebounder tomorrow, but if I don't I think mowing the law will compensate pretty well! Then of course 2 mile walk. Pretty proud of getting back into it this week.
 
:) Thank you girly!!!!!! Ditto, times a million! I'm glad your getting a goal dress as well! When I first tried it on the zips were so far apart, but they are gradually getting closer and closer together. I probably have about an inch to go now before it will zip up, and about 2 inches till it looks good. Its a great feeling.

I'm going to go and check up on you fleur. You are doing great getting back to it. So am I. We are fabulous :D

I woke up feeling particularly skinny, and I went and bought that topshop dress with the cut out middle.It makes me look quite wide, and other clothes are definitely more flattering. I may as well put up the photos tho as I took them....

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I have a red line on the top of my tummy where my spare rolls used to be. Its still a bit flabby.

I've got badminton tomorrow, ARRGGGHHHH! Hope I don't make a prat of myself and talk so fast that nobody understands me. Would it be unethical to go to badminton pissed? I think it may well be :D

Food
Fruit and fibre 344
vegetable sushi 192
2 peaches and a pear 265
porridge with cinnamon and real sugar 424
5 coffees 125
=1352

Exercise
10 minutes trampoline
1 mile walking
 
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overtherainbow, we have the same camera I think! That's so cool!

You're looking so great! When I get small enough and my legs are no longer jiggly and flabby I want to get into a sun dress. My legs and calves are just waaaaay to big for that now. But when I do, I'll be posting pictures just like you!

thank for all the encouragement!
 
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