General hysterical diet-related rambling: From Flab to fab; Part two.

Yeah that's very true. I can't wait until I can fit back into some of my older clothes. The first time I joined the forum, I got down to 148 (goal is 135). So I was SO close. Why I stopped and went back to my old habits, beats me. I could kick myself!!! But, that won't get me anywhere. Then I gained most of the weight back, then got pregnant, then lost (got to 178) then got pregnant.... and here I am at 199.6! lol I'm just sick of looking like crap and being the only fat sister (I have 3 sisters and they all look great).

As for TV and eating, I'm glad I don't have that problem. It was more of a problem when I was in my own place. But now my family and my sister's family live in the same house. We have the downstairs but share the kitchen upstairs. I'm far too lazy to go all the way up to find something to eat! Not only that, but I don't every have time to watch TV during the day because of the kids, onlhy after they go to bed and that leaves me with only an hour, maybe two if I want to stay up late (and if the baby doesn't wake).
 
I got so close to goal as well :( This was the lowest weight I got too last time I was on here... 168.... You can see that I only had a little bit left to lose... I think the problem was that I broke up with my bf and comfort ate (I deserved it because I was miserable, is what my stupid brain told me!)



I have 4 half sisters: same dad, different mums... they look very similar to each other tho... They are stunning with big wide set eyes, high cheekbones, and heart shaped faces. I have inherited the full lips, but nothing else unfortunately. It is so not fair!!!!


Wow, I bet it is a mad house, how many of you altogether?
 
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Wow, you looked great. Since we've done it before, we can do it again. Plus now, the way I think has changed! I won't get down on myself if I have a bad day like I used to. I will just do better the next day instead of going all out (since I blew it already, I might as well blow it completely).... so dumb!!!

Yeah it is crazy here! There's 8 people in the house (my hubby, me, our two girls and then my sister, her hubby and her two boys). My kids are 2.5 and 8 months. Her kids are 4 and 2.5. So they are all very young! It's actually my parent's house, but they are living in my grandparent's house to help them out as they aren't so healthy anymore. So we get to live here for cheap to try and pay down debt and then save up for a downpayment for our own place. But man, that is taking forever!!! I want out so bad.
 
I know right, its almost like getting a nasty scratch on your leg, and thinking 'That's it, my legs scratched now, I am going to get a knife out the cuipboard and make the cut deeper and worse, its scratched anyway'. (Weird analogy, I know, but it is self-destructive behaviour). Any fool could see that if you carry on making it worse, it will take longer to recover eventually- Why make it worse at all? ITS STUPID!!! Put a plaster/bandaid on it, and a few days later it will be gone, it won't even matter. I read this article a while ago, which is of a similar sort of subject, and it has stuck with me even two years later, it basically says why we shouldn't gorge ourselves, thinking we will 'start on monday'.....

Oh my gosh, it sounds like a creche in your home, pheeeewwwww! No wonder you are desperate to get out! Do the kids play together well? Even if they do, it must still be pretty full on! It must've been nice that you were pregnant at the same time as your sister. It is amazing that you have the chance to live somewhere cheaply and save for a down payment :hurray: ... I don't know what the house prices are in Canada, but to afford a family home in Central London, you have to be really rich. I probabally won't ever own my own home. So, at least your situation is for the grteater good. Will go and check out your diary.

Soooooo..... Exante has gone kaput. Not mahoosively, but I did have two slices of honey and toast. My brain is back to full functionality now, and the toast really filled me up. I might do Exante on alternate days from now on (need to use up the sachets, they have a short expiry, and its silly to waste them), exercising on the days when I am eating. Or I might have the sachets for breakfast and lunch, and have a proper dinner... Not sure what will work best for me yet. But Exante doesn't. Fainting is not good. Ketosis is probably all a load of old cobblers anyway... Its about the calories, at the end of it. I managed to lose 2.5 inches last month without being in bloody ketosis. I am going to count calories, and I aim to have 1100 a day, on average, per week. Plus do the 30 day shred.

My bike is here! Just need to assemble it, then I shall be on it like a car bonnet.
 
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Thank you for your posts Ruth! Makes me feel alot better catching up with your diary. I've been feeling discouraged because 10 days into july ive been eating really well and exercising and i haven't seen a change on the scale :( went down but then back up.

I love the scratch on the leg analogy, so true! I took me so long to lose the weight the first time, I reached my first goal weight but never my second. I maintained for over a year. My life was so much better when I slim and fit. I was so much happier. I can't believe I let my weight creep back up again. It feels like i've just wasted so much of my life being fat. But I've been trying to think more positively about everything. Yes we made mistakes, but so how as everyone. And i honestly think in retrospect my mind erases all the happy and goodtimes I experienced because it is overshadowed by the unhappy knowledge that I was overweight and unfit.

It sucks that we can't go back and make better choices, but every moment from here on in we can! Worrying about the past won't change it, but we all have the power to change the now and future :D

BTW i know its tempting to do more extreme diets but I think balance and calorie counting is a better way to do! I felt like shit when I was in ketosis.
 
Yeah they play together ok. Both 2.5 year olds don't get along the best though, so that's a pain! The worst is not all the kids, it's my sister. She can be very inconsiderate of us downstairs. She used to do stupid shit like move furniture around at 7 am when we were trying to sleep! She also lets the kids be noisy as hell in the early morning. I don't know how many times we have to say to be quiet in the morning. She could have them do quiet activities instead of running rampant, screaming, yelling, banging, etc. while she's off doing god knows what! That kind of stuff is what makes me so very angry. It's not AS bad lately, but it's still not good. I have to go up, especially on the weekends when my husband has his days off and can sleep a little longer, and tell the kids to be quiet.

I totally get that analogy you used. That's exactly it. Like tonight I did super bad at dinner (Japanese all you can eat....went 600 cals over, it would have been worse if I didn't breastfeed and burn 500 cals :p... then I would be 1100 over! AHH!) But I'm not going to let that side track me, I'm going to be super good tomorrow, I'm not going to make it worse like I used to do.

As far as calories per day, I have read and heard from many people/sources, that women should not eat less than 1200 calories. So maybe look into that. It's not good to eat too few calories either!
 
Hey you :)

Just wanted to say hi and yep, i'm back too :blush5: I'm gonna go to the beginning of your diary and have a read thru..........

Love and hugs

Xoxoxoxo
 
Katie Don't worry about the scales. Scales are stupid. Scales know nothing. We are not made out of 100% fat, and nothing else. I bet you anything that after your crazy-insane workouts, your muscles are retaining fluid for repair purposes, which is affecting the number on the scales. You're doing everything right, so your fat is definitely reducing. There is no wway it couldn't be... So don't let it discourage you, I bet you are in for a huge loss this/next week.

I know how you feel, being fat overshadows everything in my life as well. I am alway, always aware of my double chin and my tummy. You are damn right tho... Its no point thinking about the past, we have to look to the future! There is only a fourish month barrier between what we are now, and the skinny people we are going to be! And we will do it.

Risty Oh god, that does sound like an absolute nightmare. I couldn't deal with that in the mornings. It shouldn't be your job to tell her kids to keep quiet! Do the floorboards bang all the time?

Its great your still breastfeeding :D I breast fed my daughter til she was two (Would have never believed I would do it for that long if someone had told me that when she was a baby!). 'Mummy milk' makes everything better. And it does use a lot of calories too :)

I had my first meal in 5 days, and omg, it was the best thing I have ever tasted! Now I see why people regain after crash diets, I just want to eatandeatandeatandeat, like the hungry catipillar, but even more. I sharnt though. I shall be good. Have decided to go to the festival tomorrow as I'm no longer on exante... Justin Timberlake and Snoop Dog are on. Should be fun!

Food: Strawberry shake, Chili con carne with basmati rice, Orange jelly.
Exercise: Short walk to the shop and back, 10 minutes trampoline, 50 crunches.
 
Heya sweetie

just read thru your diary and i'd forgotten how bonkers and funny you are :)

I really have missed you my lovely.

I've started a new diary....it's called ANOTHER NEW ME

Looking forward to following you on your journey :)
 
Yeah it's like that every morning. It onl really upsets me when it's overly noisy so that it could wake the baby. Or when my kids are sleeping in a bit and I'm being kept up by the noise upstairs. It sucks!!

I breastfed my first until 15 months. I don't want to go longer than that with this one either. I love it, but I don't want to do it for too long! lol
 
Oooooh KATE. SMILEY FACCCCEEEEE !!!!!! Lately, I cannot be bothered to do smileys, but tonight, you get the whole shebang :grouphug: :party: :seeya: :waving: :hurray: :cheers2: :beerchug: :beating: :jump: Hug!!!!!!! So glad your back here. almost like old times ey? Smiley face. Update---- No more than 10 smileys allowed in a message.... It cant be true!!!!!

Bonkers? Me? Nooooo, you must have me confused with someone else ;) Will have a nosey on your diary.

Ritsy Maybe you should get up at 5 o'clock one morning, and rung about the house banging loud clangy things together, singing "HAPPY MORNING!" That would subtle-y convey your message. Smiley face.

I stopped feeding lily in public when she was about 8 months, it was our little secret after that. Smiley Face ... I remember trying to hide the fact I was breast feeding from my friends lol, a bit hard when they are old enough to pull at your top and say what they want. I still miss it though, makes me sad that I probably won't be doing it again. Have you got any plans for any more bubbas?

Right people, sooooooo, I am stark raving drunk. Many typos to correct in this post! Sold the tickets for the wireless festival, as we couldn't get a babysitter. I bought the tickets for Nick as a present for fathers day, so took him out for a nice meal instead. Had half a bottle of wine on a more or less empty stomach as didn't have breakfast eeek. The food was absolutely delicious. I mean WOW WOW WOW delicious. Mmmmmmmhhhhhh delicious. Yes Yes Yes delicious. Had scallops on some sort of ridiculously tasty mash, with a salad and sauce. It was arranged so artfully on the plate, it was a shame to eat it. Then a dessert which I won't describe for fear of being lynch mobbed by you. Then, I came home, and thought, well, I'm not going to the festival, lets have an at-home festival instead and boogie in front of the telly, which is what I'm doing... Came downstairs to eat two exante cabonaras though, so thought I would update.

Will update properly tomorrow, probably wrapped up in my duvet, wondering whythehell I drunk so much

I leave you with a clip from 'drunken Histories'. Smiley face.
 
Loving all the smiley faces :) :) and yeah, I was proper pissed when I was told that there was a 10 limit!!!!! Shocking :eek:

I forgot to say in my last post that I loved your youtube video it was so cool. I could never do something like that. You must remember how bad I was with even posting a photo lol

Xoxoxoxo
 
Yeah my hubby and I joke about getting up early and being noisy... but I can't do it. lol Even if I did, she would say it's not even close to being the same thing!

I never had any negative comments about breastfeeding, so I never felt the need to hide it. I mean I use the cover, but that's just for my own comfort. All my friends breastfed past 1 years old too. Maybe it's more like that here?
 
Hope you enjoyed your hangover. I haven't done any 'drunken posting' on here in a while. It's usually pretty interesting.
 
Kate I know, the admins need to listen up... WE WANT SMILEYS, WE WANT SMILIES, WE WANT SMILIES :) Sometimes just 10 of them don't get the message across.... When people reach a goal, they need at least 100 -parties- in succession!

Hmmm... Well, the first time I did a video, donkeys years ago, I looked back at it, and realised quite how weird I was :) ... But at first my fear of videoing myself was crippling. I just couldn't put two sentences together, I was all ummmm.... And errrrr.... But I am so awful at presentations and talking in public, that I have been practicing a lot, so I can have a full conversation with myself on camera now, which is always good :)

Ritsy You are just too damn nice.

What put me off breastfeeding in public were a group of blokes who surrounded me and asked if they could have a suck! And people I know just didn't know where to look. I cannot remember the last time I saw someone breastfeeding in public. Hail to the breastfeeders tho :D

Hana I knooooow. Pah!

MrVee It was a wonderful hangover, it was like riding on a carosel all day, but for free, and without leaving the house. And also without the fairground music. Please do a drunken posting :)

Still sufferin'. This has got to be the worst hangover ever, actually. I drunk half a bottle of wine, and a medium sized bottle of vodka. I never say that I'm not going to drink any more, and this time, I'm not going to say it either, but I will be leaving it a month, at least, before I touch alcohol again :)

My exercise has gone to pot, haven't done any for two weeks. I was getting out every day for a walk, but I haven't today and yesterday. Going to take my bike to the shop to get it assembled tomorrow. Need to take library books back, and get other life-stuff sorted as well. I am going to also buy three of those round tin alarm clocks with the metal, ear-like domes on top, and nazi myself out of bed every morning, at an early hour, and do press ups, sit-ups, tricep dips, stretching and trampolining. I also need to clean my house from top to bottoim, which will probably take an entire day, as every singl;e room is in a state of chaos. One good habbit I got into last time I was on here was waking up and cleaning and exercising and bathing before breakfast. It was nice to start the day knowing the house was clean and I had done my exercise. My laundry situation is dismal... No clean clothes left. But the bonus of that, is that today I was forced to dig through my old clothes, and I tried on an old summer dress that now fots again, yahhhooooo :)

Going to do a healthy shop now... There won't be much there, just low calorie evening meals, jelly and fruit. And my beloved pepsi max, which is only 99p a bottle in tesco right now :) Still can't get over the shock that there is still sugar left in the sugar bag from 5 weeks ago! I would have eaten/drunk my way through at least 15 bags of sugar if I hadn't renounced the devil (Tea). Pepsi max is my NBF. I love you, pepsi.

Only 6 pounds left before I am both out of the 'Obese' catogory, and am in One-derland once more... So it will be a double celebration.

Yesterday: 3 slices of pizza, small bowl of frosties.

Today: Three meal replacments (200 calories each), plus 2 small fajitas, three onion rings and a salad. With mayo.
 
OMIGOSH! One-derland, that beautiful realm, is lingering so close! You know my obsession lol. You got this girl! I'm so excited for you and hope to be following in your footsteps very soon <3
 
Omg, I think I would die if a bunch of guys did that to me! That's crazy. Maybe it's more tolerated here? YAY CANADA! haha.... but in public or around most people I use a cover! It's wonderful. It has a wire at the top where it ties around the neck so it's stiff and so I can see the baby when she's nursing. The only problem is now that she's bigger, she's always pulling at the cover and playing with it... she likes trying to tear it away from her! So I have to try and hold it somehow so she can't rip it off. If I'm just at home I will nurse with no cover, but I keep my shirt covering my boob (so it goes all the way to her face) so that if anyone is around they can't see anything.

And yes, I know I am too nice! It's a problem sometimes! I'm trying to stand up for myself more!
 
Katie I know :D I only wish it was winter, so I could attatch a video of "Walking in a winter one-derland" :)

Risty That cover is a brilliant idea :) I usually used a scarf. But sometimes I just whopped them out :)

My father is from Canada orginally.

Had tea this evening with no sugars, and it was actually drinkable.

Food: vanilla shake, 1/3 small quiche with a large salad, chocolate shake.
 
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Today I have grazed a lot. I promised lily a picnic. I might have a shake later on if I feel hungry, but I don't think I will. Resisted the urge for a Starbucks. Really, really tired, so this is going to be short.

The shopping came, along with 15 bottles of pepsi max... When they have gone I am going to try and wean myself off caffiene.

Food: 4 cartons of KA mango, half a pre-packed BLT sandwich, Four bits of cheese, a hard boiled egg, 2 bits of fish sushi, 2 small slices of malt loaf, tropical fruit salad, 5 small chunks of coconut.
 
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