I had the surgery April 2001 at a weight of 361 pounds on six feet height. I moved like a slug and knew it was either surgery or a funeral. Had problems right after surgery, all organs shut down, but they pulled me through. By Christmas of 2001 I was weighing near 190. My problem is, I cannot eat meat, yet I grew up eating steak sometimes three times a day. On the Idaho farm we butchered our own beef and such, but since my surgery, I throw up after I eat most meats. I can eat chichen in a salad, or a small hamburger with lots of lettuce and tomato, pasta with meat but not a lot of any of these. But straight meat won't stay down. I can tell the instant a food goes into my mouth whether I will keep it down or throw it up. My biggest problem is that I have regained 100 of those lost pounds, and that is because I can eat almost anything that is sweet. I'm just wondering if there is a certain nerve or something that could function to make me hate sweet and love meat. I know this sounds weird, but trying to lose the 100 is accenting my depression and I truly hate myself. I hated how I looked after all that weight loss because all I had was bags of loose skin hanging on me. Sometimes I'm sure my wife wishes I hadn't made it through the surgery. I'm at a crossroad and not sure if I want to go forward, back, left or right.