I'm still alive and hopping! Ugh, been slacking terribly
I could fill a few pages with everything that's happened in the last month, so I'll try to keep it in a nutshell.
Went to a Bar Crawl with some friends that were celebrating a few birthdays (2 are identical twins). It was pretty cool - we even had shirts made for the event!
We started this whole event at around 6pm, and I didn't fall asleep until about 4:30am at a nearby friend's house. I drank a little, but not too much.
Btw, here's a pic of the shirts we had made for everyone (I wore a medium)
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So, that was the weekend of Feb 10th.
Now, last week, me and about 10 other friends made a trip to Atlantic City for a bachelor party.. yeah. Well, ate like complete crap (Tropicana Buffet followed by 5am pizza/cheese fries). Ate a bunch of donuts, chocolate milk... chips. Erm.
We left on the 23rd (Saturday) at about 11am. I was 180lb. We finally got back the next day, Sunday, at about 6pm.. and I was around 194lb... ERG.
Lots of fun in AC tho!
Unfortunately, I'm rather sick now -- an unwanted souvenir from the trip no doubt. It was cold and nasty almost the entire time :\ I never get sick, and I've felt like complete crap these last couple days.
I'm still keeping up with my running, even though it feels so difficult right now.
I'm back in the 180's again (barely), and I REALLY need to update my chart here!
Sorry I've been a ghost

I really don't mean to be, but my life just feels.. encumbered right now.
Greeeeeeeg!!! I was starting to wonder if you were ever coming back. lol!
I'm so sorry you're going through a tough time. I know this is always a really tough day for you, as expected. I'm already getting anxious about my dad's, and his is still a few months away. It's such a hard thing to deal with. (((hugs)))
A new lady friend, huh?...interesting! Chef had to convince me he wasn't a murderer too. It wasn't easy.. haha!
So glad you're back!
Yeah Jen

I'm always around, in some form or another! hehe
I hope your father's anniversary of his passing isn't too difficult for you

I went to visit my mom's grave for the first time in years the other day and I just kinda fell over at her site.. not one of my best afternoons that day, but it was good in a way to see her again.
The new lady friend thing has sort of fizzled, through my own fault I think. With everything that's happened this month, I just kind of became a bit distant with the texting and whatnot :\
We're still friendly, I'm sure, but not much is going to happen beyond that I expect. I'm really just focusing on my surgery this year.
Hope you're doing well!
Yeah that's always been the tricky part for me. Usually after about a year to a year and a half they're reasonably confident I'm not an axe-murderer and they get slightly more comfortable around me. So you seem to be well ahead of my schedule there. Wish I could give you some dating advice, but I'm pretty sure you don't want any from me.
Year and a half?? Holy crap, Vee!
I don't know if I'd invest that much time before a meet-up. Maybe a month, but if it seems like there's not even enough trust for a simple meet-up after that amount of time, I'd say just move on
Oh, and I do appreciate dating advice from any and all sources! I'm still quite the noob at it
I was about to look up your thread the other day, it had been so long since hearing from you.
I know how it feels to have those bouts of anger, and feeling in a funk. I get that a lot these days. I'm sick of my job, but I'm going no where, I don't know what to do. I've been working 6 days every week for the most part for the last 2 years. My job isn't as stressful as yours, but retail sucks all the same.
I understand how you feel about losing your mom, as I mentioned, I lost my dad. I still cry sometimes when I remember stuff about him...but I haven't been to his grave in ten years. The worst part, is hearing from your family that your lost parent wasn't the person you thought they were. It's hard to figure out what's right or wrong, especially when you lose them young.
Anyway, you're here now, that's all that matters! I'm sure you'll feel better once the cold weather goes away. I'm happy to hear you had a date! Some advice from me, stay positive! If you want to form a good relationship, you have to push past a few boundaries, and text her. Girls LOVE to get texts from the guy they're getting to know. If you don't text or talk to her in some way she'll think you aren't into her.
I met my current boyfriend on OkCupid as well. It's so much better than Plenty of Fish.
Hey Loch
Yeah, funks are just.. blegh. I'm still in a bit of one at my job too. The thing that sucks the worst is just not knowing when it'll end. It will, but it's just like.. come the hell on! Something good happen!
Well, when it comes to your father and hearing the things from your family, I'd say listen to whatever you heart tells you about him. The good moments and memories you had with him are all that matters now, not the opinions of others
The date(s) went pretty well, although I don't think anything is really going to happen. She's a nice person, but I think friends is all we'll be.
I've been thinking about it, and maybe I'm just not ready for any kind of relationship right now. If you read the first bit of this post, my old flame kind of made me realize that maybe there's still a few unresolved issues rolling around in my head that I need to sort out.
My body image is still a big hurdle as well. I've actually been to a consultation last month for reconstructive surgery! Now, I just need to see if my insurance will cover any of it.
I submitted all the necessary bits and met with the surgeon and my doc, both of whom seem pretty optimistic about the whole thing
So, we'll see!
Hey there stranger, how are you?
I can not believe that I have been talking to you for almost 2 years and I have only just found this diary
I have read the last few pages and I am sorry that you have had such difficult times, my thoughts are with you, and I hope you are feeling better, and that you have managed to get back on track.
I have also lost some information on here and I can not seem to get my head around these changes haha
Anyway I am back and I really hope you are doing ok, not just with weight loss but with life in general.
Take care.
-Minimee
Heya Mini
2 years has flown by! Wow.
Glad to see you're back, and yes.. all the lost data does suck

Old profiles that were deleted are back as well. Funky.
Things are getting better in some aspects, and more confusing/frustrating in others!
Just need time to sort it all out, but the priority is, and has always been, getting my health/body to a point where I'm happy and confident
Thanks for stopping by, Mini! Hope you're doing well
