hmm thought I posted last night.
Anyway was within points and in bed for the night, then I remembered that I needed to make goodies for church tonight and I partook in 3 of the finished products plus a small cup of millk. I was thinking as I was eating, "Do I care" and I decided in my head during the third that yes I did care but I wanted it anyway so I tried to ask myself why I would do that if I cared and I decided that I think I am trying to be like a spoiled kid to be able to have my cake and eat it too. I am trying ot see what I can get away with. DH and I last year 'grew up' in realm of our finances, learned alot, started following dave ramsey and are in SUCH a better spot now. It has required alot discipline adn when I look back at where we were I realize that we were acting like kids, spending for things we wanted instead of planning ahead like we should and that is what got us into debt. This is not unlike my weight issue, it is a matter of discipline and I need to plan ahead and act responsibly, I am sure when I look back at my old habits (ie mostly current habits) I will be similarly shocked at them. I need to look at it htis way!
Anyway I changed yesterday to a zero but in all honesty the three cookies werent THAT huge a deal I sparked it and it looks like 300 cals and then 100 for milk so not a deal breaker and I will jump back on wagon tonight. I think what I will do for church thing is kepe cals low today with no junk and then have the little 'snack buffet' during classes as dinner to compensate I will spark some likely items ahead of time.
I am taking my weight from yesterday, today is up 3lbs but I know it is from all the fiber yesterday as my tummy is bloated. I met my first mini goal of being 1/2 done by end of challenge so my new goal is to be down to 152 by end challenge, agressive, especially considering we have a church thing with goodies tonight, a work pub outing next day, valentines lunch with hubby friday, and an inevitable shipment of goodies from MIL on saturday BUTTTTT I am going to try and plan ahead for a treat from each of those and compensate in calories the rest of the day.
So that's the plan for today, I think I am catching DD's cold but I am off to the gym anyway, maybe I can 'spin' it out LOL.