ForRealThisTime Diary of a mad man

Jana you speak sense! I know this sounds odd but I dont want a burger, I want THAT burger. I think I will have to get it. I could easily not get it but I did promise myself if I wanted anything I would get it.

I just checked the BK website and a double whopper large meal with diet coke is 1460calories!! holy shit!! haha. I cant believe I used to eat them without even considering what might be in it.

I gotta go do some grocery shopping later on so Ill see if I still have it in my mind when I am on the way home. (I have never thought about what I am going to have for dinner so much before in my life. Its not a huge decision or anything but its just showing me how my consideration of what I eat has grown and I dont just randomly pick stuff up and shove it in my face anymore)
 
So I thought about it and JanaNanner you are right! I know that if I go to a drive thru its gonna be easy and its gonna be shit food that will make me feel like crap tomorrow.

I tried to think of an alternative... so I am going to pick up some real bbq from a local place that is supposed to be really good. Its gonna be calorie packed but its real food and not going to make me feel like crap tomorrow.

sorry for rambling so much on such a trivial matter :p although it is my diary so I guess I am allowed ramble... I think the reason this has occupied my mind so much today is because up until this point I have not had any cravings for food since starting my weight loss. This has kind of taken me by surprise. I think it may be related to me going below 200lbs. I had placed so much emphasis on getting below 200lbs that when it actually happened my brain must have suddenly felt a release of pressure and started thinking about foods I might like lol....

Anyway... its BBQ tonight mmmmMMMmmm
 
ForRealThisTime said:
Jana you speak sense! I know this sounds odd but I dont want a burger, I want THAT burger. I think I will have to get it. I could easily not get it but I did promise myself if I wanted anything I would get it.

I just checked the BK website and a double whopper large meal with diet coke is 1460calories!! holy shit!! haha. I cant believe I used to eat them without even considering what might be in it.

I gotta go do some grocery shopping later on so Ill see if I still have it in my mind when I am on the way home. (I have never thought about what I am going to have for dinner so much before in my life. Its not a huge decision or anything but its just showing me how my consideration of what I eat has grown and I dont just randomly pick stuff up and shove it in my face anymore)
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That's just insane. It's almost 1500 calories and I can only imagine how much sodium is in it. But you're right... I think we all used to be like that at one time, just stuffing whatever we wanted into our mouths without really thinking of what we were putting in our bodies. This experience of paying such close attention to what you are eating makes you so much more aware and conscious of what you're eating even when you're not reading nutrition labels, let alone when you do.

ForRealThisTime said:
So I thought about it and JanaNanner you are right! I know that if I go to a drive thru its gonna be easy and its gonna be shit food that will make me feel like crap tomorrow.

I tried to think of an alternative... so I am going to pick up some real bbq from a local place that is supposed to be really good. Its gonna be calorie packed but its real food and not going to make me feel like crap tomorrow.

sorry for rambling so much on such a trivial matter :p although it is my diary so I guess I am allowed ramble... I think the reason this has occupied my mind so much today is because up until this point I have not had any cravings for food since starting my weight loss. This has kind of taken me by surprise. I think it may be related to me going below 200lbs. I had placed so much emphasis on getting below 200lbs that when it actually happened my brain must have suddenly felt a release of pressure and started thinking about foods I might like lol....

Anyway... its BBQ tonight mmmmMMMmmm
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I can't lie; I'm really glad you decided to pass on the burger. :) And don't apologize! It's your diary and that's what it's here for... rambling. I've done my fair share of that in mine. :D It does make sense, though. You had that goal and now you've reached it so the driving force to lose weight may have put itself temporarily in park. ;) That's why short-term goals are so great. Once you've reached one there's another waiting to take over. So, keep focused on those next 8 lbs. And enjoy the BBQ. I hope it's great. :)
 
something that popped in to my head last night...

I was thinking about human beings limitations and the fact that so many humans have different limitations, many of them psychological and not physical and then the ways in which society collectively accepts these limitations or in some cases promotes them.

People that are physically disabled in some way have a reason they cannot do certain things. For example a person with no arms cannot play tennis. People with certain diseases or conditions might not feel physically able to do certain things because of lack of motor control or lack of energy. Some people with depression might not be able to get out of bed.

But another thing I thought was how social conditioning and acceptance of down right laziness is playing such a large factor in todays life. For example sitting in the car yesterday a commercial came on for these weight loss shakes. It repeated a couple of times "we all know that it is impossible to beat food cravings"... I sat there and thought "do we all know that or are you trying to re-enforce that belief in the listeners mind?"

I started thinking about this more and more and I came to the conclusion that the reason I have been overweight for so long is because I didnt do anything to change it. It is as simple as that. The world was so accepting of me being overweight that I had no reason to change. I could buy clothes in XL, I could fit in seats no problem, I didnt need to be fit because I drove everywhere. There was no reason that I needed to be lighter than I was.

I am starting to really see things clearly now. Now that I realise the formula to weightloss is so easy I see things much differently. When that radio ad comes on I hear someone trying to sell me a promise that they have no intention to deliver on. I would believe ME much sooner than I would believe some guy on the radio trying to sell me something. In that case why dont I make a promise to myself. I know the formula... burn more calories than you consume... so if I do that I will lose weight. I can make that promise to myself and I can deliver on it.

I dont believe in god and I dont believe in organised religion. That said however I do see why some people do and I think it is a very personal choice. The reason I bring up religion is that I find it very similar to the guy trying to sell me something. I know that I should not kill. I dont need someone to tell me this and frankly if I did need someone to tell me this I am a danger to society. The same is true of stealing etc. These are all very basic concepts much like weightloss is a basic system of using more energy than you consume. Why then do so many people need guidance?

I understand the reasons why people might need ideas for what types of things to eat and I understand that support forums like this are great because they do just that - offer support. But beyond this why do people need to buy products and fad diet books etc?

Back to religion. When someone is involved in a car accident and thanks god that they got out of it alive why is that? Why are they not asking god why they were involved in the car accident to begin with? This is the bit I dont get. Someones house is burned to the ground and they are thankful to god for getting them out alive... why would god let it happen to begin with?

So the only way I have been able to figure this out is that people have an inherent fear of things they cannot explain, come to terms with or have a problem dealing with. It might be a crash, a home burning down or being overweight. It is easier to look to something mystical than face the truth. It is easier to believe in anything than believe in nothing. Nothing is very difficult to comprehend. If your house burned down it is easier to believe that someone was looking out for you than to believe an accident happened and you could have easily died but you didnt. If you believe that how do you sleep at night again? It could happen again... you could not get out next time.

Back to weightloss... So believing in something is easier than believing in nothing. How I think this may be important with weightloss is that for a lot of people there is no reason for them being overweight. There is nothing that is stopping them losing weight but it is easier to believe in something than nothing and so people think there is something stopping them from being the weight they want to be. They blame it on the food they have access to, genetics, people around them etc etc etc. The solution for a lot of people is SOMETHING. It is easier to believe there is something out there that can fix the something that is making you overweight, many people search for the something to fix the something.

So to end this severe ramble... for many people there is nothing stopping them losing weight. They could begin right now but society facilitates and accepts them to a degree. If the something that was stopping you from losing weight was smaller than the immediate consequences of being overweight I bet a lot of people would make an immediate effort to lose some lbs. If I went to buy clothes and there was nothing in the stores that fit me it might make me think that I need to lose weight asap. America is unusual on this point. Nowhere else have I been in the world where there are big and tall sections in stores. I cant help but think that if I had grown up in a country that had a big n tall section in stores I would have gotten to XL and when that stuff became a bit tight I would have drifted over to the big n tall section.

My friend from the USA visited my home country recently and we were out shopping. He could not find anything to fit him in ANY shop because the sizes pretty much do not go above XL.

I am all about making people feel self worth and accommodating people that are different in society but at some point perhaps that acceptance is hurting people. Maybe we need to be more open about it and if someone is getting very overweight they need to be offered help.
 
did another 5 miles on Tuesday night and it was boiling outside again. I have gone back to calorie reduction as its just too warm out to do anything. I might try a hike on Saturday but Ill see how the weather is.

I noticed something last night... I can really feel my ribs now which is weird. They are visible when I look in the mirror but when I actually feel them they feel weird.. much different to how they used to.

I am up a couple of lbs but I havent been particularly regular lately so I think I just need a good clear out.

Food has become just a source of energy for me now and nothing more than that. I have no desire to eat and have no cravings at all. When I did my shopping last weekend I had to force myself to put stuff in the shopping cart. I had no interest in anything... I used to pick stuff up off the shelf and think "oooo that might be nice" but now I just dont care. Its actually a bit unfortunate because I used to like tasting new things and cooking. The thoughts of cooking a dinner now make me feel sick. The smell of the food cooking would turn my stomach.

So I just got lots of fruit. I have been blending frozen bananas and fruit and really enjoy the flavors and texture. Every morning I have a frozen banana, strawberries, yogurt and vanilla protein powder blended... it is MMMmmmMMMmm.

In the afternoon I might have a subway turkey breast or maybe another smoothie and thats pretty much it. I know some people will say that it is unhealthy or I am not consuming enough calories but to be honest I cant force myself to eat so if I am hungry I will and if I am not hungry I wont.

I did go to a nice mexican place last weekend and ate lots of nice things but it felt different, kind of like I was eating socially and not just to taste food. My whole perception of food has changed since I started this diary. The best thing I ever did was regular fasting. It has shown me that we really do not need to eat a lot to live.
 
Still at 198... cmon whoooshhh where are ya?!?

On a positive note I tried on a pair of board shorts that someone gave me as a gift last year. These shorts were so tight they wouldnt even nearly close. You know when the two sides of the part that closes dont even come close to each other!

Well I saw them hanging there today and decided to give them a shot and they fit perfectly!

I am going to have to go clothes shopping soon as all of my shirts, tops, jeans and shorts are hanging off me and look like I borrowed them from someone else. Its a shame because there are things in my wardrobe that I never even got around to wearing (I am somewhat of a shopaholic). I counted 7 Ralph Lauren polo shirts and 3 Burberry polo shirts that I have never worn and they are all XL and wont fit me now :( The folks at the goodwill are gonna be dressing well!
 
down another 1lb... woohoo! 197 now. With 2 more lbs I will be under 14 stone! I dont think I have been under 14 stone in many many years. Last time I cut weight I got to 199lbs (14st 3lbs). Now I am 2lbs lower than that, I cant believe it.

7lbs to my big goal and I really feel like I can do this before the end of August.

This might sound very weird but I cant stop poking and prodding myself in places where I have lost fat from like around my hips and ribs... I can really feel the difference now.. I feel a bit boney lol.
 
Wow its been a while since I logged in. I have been really busy with work lately and have not had much time for updating but I am glad to report that I am still hovering around the 200 mark or just below so no gain!

I am going to get back in to it this week and see if I cant get closer to 190 by the end of the month.

It feels great to be able to take a break away from concentrating on weight loss and what I am and am not eating or how often I am or am not training and just live and not gain weight.

Anyway... back to it for me! I really need to go and update my wardrobe. I am finding it very difficult to wear anything without feeling like I have borrowed it from my big brother as all my clothes are too big on me. I am going to put the majority of what I own in bags and take it to the goodwill. I never intend fitting in to that stuff again so why hold on to it?

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first weigh in for a while now and I am down to 195.5! I havent even been trying and havent gotten any walking or running in for the past couple of weeks due to the horrible hot weather.

I am now only 5lbs away from my goal woohoo :) 27.5lbs gone! I actually cant imagine that weight on my body now.
 
more weight gone! Only 4lbs left to target! I can do this!

Once I hit 190 I will probably set a target of 180 but right now to get from 223 to 190 in a couple of months is going to be a huge achievement for me, I cant believe how quickly it has passed.
 
weekend of indulgence. Friday I had lovely bbq from a pit bbq place close by. Saturday I had chik Fil-A for lunch it was mmmmMMmmmm... and dinner was chicken fried steak with mashed potatoes and gravy. Sunday I had a cheese burger fries and onion rings and a massive slice of choc caramel cake.

Back on track today with my usual blended frozen banana delights! I think I have found a system that works for me. Absolutely no restrictions at weekends and strict intake during the week.

I will see what weight I hit this week, if it is below 194 then I am continuing to lose and I will stick with this regime.
 
Hey Alta,

wow its been a while!

I have been really busy travelling and getting work done. Finally I am back in one place for a while and ready to start back toward my goal weight again. I was right down to 194 before I went on my holidays etc and think I am somewhere around 204 now but will wait to weight myself until I have had a week of good living again :)

My whole attitude toward food is still the same and my whole attitude toward life is the same. I no longer fear that I may be putting weight on or losing it I just know that I need to continue doing what I was doing and I will get where I need to go, its very liberating.

So tonight I will be having a sub for dinner and tomorrow will be day one of the mission toward 190 :)

Weigh in will be next week 7 days from now when I have cleansed myself of all the badness!

Woohoo Im back and feeling as great as I did before I left!
 
:cheers2:! Damn right!! Glad you are back!! Missed you.

Work for it, Son! ;)! Let me see you worrrrrrrkkkkk!!!! :D! ;)! HEHEHE!
 
haha do work yo!

Well I stepped on the scales today, I said I wasnt going to until next week but hey I couldnt help it. I was delighted to see that I am only at 202lbs. This is kind of a relief as I have been partying pretty hard for the past 7 weeks and I know I will be back under 200 in a few days :)

I am in the middle of a cleanse at the moment. Thankfully I am not on the main forum and am just in my own thread here, I know that I would have people saying stuff like "cleanses are all gimmicks" etc. My cleanse works, not to be too informative but the stuff that comes out is pretty impressive and I would rather have it out of me than in me. I have been using this stuff every 4 months or so for 5 or 6 years and its excellent. Completely natural and you cant buy it in many places plus no one seems to know about it - the TV pitchmen obviously havent heard about it yet!

I will keep this cleanse up for a week or so and I would think by this time next week I will probably down around 197 ish..

Feels great to be back in to this again, woke up this morning feeling excellent.
 
Woohoo back with a bang. Its been a while. Well I gave up with the fitness due to crap weather and being swamped with work. In my typical way I just chilled and did not try to fight things I could not control. I hate working out inside and so it was never going to happen. Rather than feel guilty about it I just decided to pack it in until spring.

Anyway.... here I am! Ready to go again!! woohoo!!!

I havent weighed myself in the past few weeks so not sure if I am up significantly or not, I would say maybe a few lbs up but nothing major - all my clothes still fit me :)

My plan is to get this week out of the way and then begin my 5 mile runs starting from next Monday. I know what works now after last years experimenting I found something that works so I will just go back to what I was doing which saw me drop from 224 to 194 in 3 months.

I am feeling positive, loving the sunny sky outside, and ready to get back in to it :)
 
hey you - i have just read your diary. Well done on your weight loss!!! :)
i m sure with your dedication you get to your goal soon.
Also i picked up on one of your entries:

ForRealThisTime said:
I am in the middle of a cleanse at the moment. Thankfully I am not on the main forum and am just in my own thread here, I know that I would have people saying stuff like "cleanses are all gimmicks" etc. My cleanse works, not to be too informative but the stuff that comes out is pretty impressive and I would rather have it out of me than in me. I have been using this stuff every 4 months or so for 5 or 6 years and its excellent. Completely natural and you cant buy it in many places plus no one seems to know about it - the TV pitchmen obviously havent heard about it yet!
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You are soo right - i ll never ever mention detox or cleansing on another topic other than my own thread. i really gt picked on for it the other day.
I find cleansing really beneficial too - I buy something too - with all natural ingredents etc - and do it at every season change - it works magic! :)

Good luck on the rest of your journey!
 
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