FOr real this time Diary

[howdoi]

Alright.....


So, as I posted in the newbys place, Ive been struggling with the same 10lbs for the past 10 years.

Im tired of it...mostly bc i KNOW if i could possibly POSSIBLY stick to SOMETHING that may in some way shape or form keep me motivated to work out regularly and taking into account what i eat i would reach my ideal weight.

So...Ive tried calorie counting...but I live at home (not for long!!!) and home made food is hard to count since it has so many ingredients. So that was really frustrating and time consuming.

Ive tried going to the gym "three times this week"....two days into it, something happens and I dont go back

Now Im going to try this.....so lets see if it works...

1) Wake up 30 minutes earlier and do 5 sets of 25 abs in the stability ball, 30 push ups and legs...
2) Write down everything i eat....even if i dont know the calories
3) *most important part.....* WRITE IN HERE....WRITE EVERY DAY WHAT i ATE, HOW MUCH I WEIGHT, AND IF I DID OR DID NOT EXERCISE...

I hope I can stick to this....I hope is not gonna turn into one of those "ohh yeah....i was doing that...ha...forgot about it!" thing....

We shall see....but for now...here is where i start....

Current Weight: 112.2lbs Goal Weight: 100 lbs
Current Waist: 27inches Goal waist:25in or less

Food:

Breakfast: -Smokey Ham - 120
- Hot chocolate- 260
-1 slice of bread (wheat)-110

Snack: -waaay too many cookies...(about 10 small butter cookies...yikes!)- 320
-Wine -129
- Hot cider-116
- Coffee with cream- 60
Lunch/Dinner: - Small plate of spaguetti with mom's sauce (had some mushrooms, pieces of chicken and some other stuff...creammy too...good lord! )- 700


Total Cal: 1815
Exercise: Walked 1 hour, 5 sets of 25 crunches in stability ball, 30 push ups, legs work.


Good god...I should be glad Im not gaining crazy weight! Now...Id be LOVELY if i get comments and encouragement and most importantly reprimends when i dont exercise unless is a scheduled non exercise day....That SHOULD be motivation...so THANK UUUUU if you do


That is all for the day

 

[maleficent]

I"m really curious to know how tall you are and if you really believe that your goal weight is realistic and healthy?

You also really might want to ask yourself why you've been unable to stick with any sort of plan in the past...was it too rigid, too difficult, too easy... too much... too something... for your efforts to be successful - this is a rest of your life thing so you want to make sure your plan is realsitic

 

[howdoi]

Well, you see there's a debate on that...SOME people say im 4'11, I say im 5'.....so we'll say im 5'. Healthy weight for me is between 95lbs to 115...

Um....well, no i dont think they have been difficult. Usually is either "go to the gym 3-5 times a week" or at the very least "go this week once, next week twice,...so on and so forth" or something like that to trick me into going to the gym....

Food wise is even harder....bc i have to deal with my mom's "but i made it just for you!" complains, no matter how much i tell her I dont want to eat so much or food that is going to make me gain weight...

But i say its a matter of finding the right push for me to stick to things....im hoping this here diary, adn you guys can help me do what i am setting out to do....

 

[howdoi]

Jan2....

WEll hello! HAppy NEw YEar!!!

So lets see...

Dec 31.

Work out: 30 minutes basic home work out (better than nothing!). Didnt wake up early...its ok, so long as I work out some!
Ate: ughhh this is tough...hm....
Breakfast
- Soy milk tea
- Slice of bread
- Egg
Lunch
- Beef Curry with rice
Dinner
- Mamma's lasagna (her cooking does not help my case AT ALL )
-Two cokes instead of alcohol! (thats right I celebrated the new year with coke! good god))

Jan 1

Work out
-um....none
Food

Breaksfast
- Egg omelette with chesse
- Bread
- tea

Lunch

-Lasagna

Dinner

-Two pieces of samosa?...thats more like a snack!

So...obviously I am STILL not motivated enough to eat right and exercise. So im putting even MORE incentives....see if I can have ANYTHING motivate me

My bday is coming up in 2.5 weeks. I will treat myself to a day off from work, going to a spa, get a massage, my nails and hair done and a facial. IF, AND ONLY IF I stick to a good diet and exercise and Im able to lose at least 3-5 lbs in those 2.5 weeks. (sticking to the plan seems like good enough for me to be honest...I have no discipline)

Anyhow, I got a more set plan as to how im gonna do this.

1. Walk every day for those two weeks during lunch (that 1hr every day)
2. Eat 1200 calories
3. Work out either in the morning or at night. If im too lazy, as i know i can get, to go to the gym i MUST go out and jog for 30 minutes and then come back to exercise at home.
4. Drink 8 glasses of water...(this one is gonna suuuuck)

It is really hard for me to eat good, non fattening food since i live at home and my mom cooks well, not so healthy. IF i dont eat her food, she gets offended, sooooo I figured so long as I stay within the necessary calorie range, I can deal. Right? I mean the food isnt all that bad, just, not weigh-loss promoting. We'll see, if im wrong about this (I can eat what she makes so long as I dont go over 1200) then please let me know. I am determined to get myself that bday/good job gift...so if i have to offend my mom, well so be it.

*sigh* we'll see how it goes.

So far, for today

Jan 2

Work out: Walked 45 minutes at lunch - 140 cal burned (15 minutes were spent buying a watch so wouldnt get back to work late!)
Food:
-Breakfast
* Tea-100cal
* Slice of bread-110
* Hot dog - 100 (this will be erased from my "i can eat" foods...no matter what my mother says...yukkk)

Lunch

* Left over lasagna -650 calories (ok...thats it, my mother is gonna be offended, I will not be able to reach my goal unless i stop eating food like this)
* Diet Snapple -0
* 18 onz of water -0

Good lord I have eaten 950 cal at least and its only gonna be 2pm....sad sad days....

 

[howdoi]

ALright...

So...im done eating for the day

Dinner:

-Half a sandwich made with All grain bread (110 cal) & Ham (80 cal).
-Cup of chocolate soy milk (140 cal)

Total Cal consummed today: 1280
Now im off to the gym.....

Im sooo gonna make it!
Oh btw, current weight: 112.6 lbs..
**********************

Much later

So went to the gym , did 30 min of cardio. 15 in treadmill at 5.5-5.8 then elliptical for the rest 15
Then half an hour of weights, working out abs and arms....

yey!

Weighing in tomorrow morning

NITE!

 

[howdoi]

Yey for first victory!!!

Current weight: 110.6 lbs!!! 2lbs down!!!

Ofcourse im sure thats water weight...but hey...happy nonetheless!!

So...here's how im doing today...

Work out: None so far...didnt wake up on time but planning on walking 1hr at lunch

Breakfast:
-Soy Milk tea-100
-Hard boiled egg-78

Snack:
- NutriGrain bar -140
- Green tea-0

Lunch:
- Apple salad -35
-Half piece of ham - 60
-Rice-130

Total: 543

 

[howdoi]

Ok lunch time..i really dont want to go walk. I got mad at my bf and now I just want to sit here, eat my lunch and be pissed off....not very helpful....

sigh....

on goes the walking shoes...

 

[howdoi]

Ok...here's how ive done so far

Last nite: Work out- Gym from 9pm to 10pm

Dinner: Chocolate soymilk - 140
Slice of bread- 100
Snack: Crackers...lots of crackers- About 120 cal
(I was starving when i got back from the gym)

Total yesterday:

Today:543 + 360 = 903...opps...no wonder I was starving!! I guess i gotta keep count thru the day so I dont over eat but also dont under eat....

Alright here is for today

Current weight: 110.8 (no clothes....with clothes is a variation between 2-4 lbs depending of what im wearing)
Waist size: 26.5

Breakfast:
-Soymilk tea -100 cal
-Weiner -100

Snack:
-Green tea-0
- Oats n Honey (1 bar) - 90 cal
- Coffee w/ 2 creamers - 80 cal

total so far: 317 cals

**********Lunch time*************

"Lunch": Yogurt Berry (Like a self serve pinkberry which is for those of u who dont live in Los Angeles, frozen yogurt with fresh fruit...ridiculously delicious) = 200 cal.
- Pretzels - 100 cals.
Snack: NutriGrain 140
Total: 440 (give or take)

Work out: 1 hr walk

 

[howdoi]

Yesterday I noticed something I had not paid much attention to.

I always wonder why I would have so much determination at some points and then i just totally would lose it. So yesterday I realized that I usually let other things that happen make me lose focus. For example I was mad at my bf yesterday so I was so focused on that that when it was time for me to go take my daily walk at lunch i didnt want to go. (but I forced myself to do it, which i normally wouldnt do). Then at night I was fine with him again, so I wasnt rumminating on that and I was able to refocus on the weight issue. (took me quite a bit to fight the "ugh its too late/im too tired...but i did it! )

So...i think that I need to consciously tell myself that no matter what happens i need to keep on track with my goal. Working out is independent of ANYTHING else that may be going on, and as reluctant as I may be to let go off a problem for even a few minutes to focus on something else, I NEED to do it if Im going to "for real" lose the weight that i want.

so this is my new mantra

My goal is independent of what is happening right now. I will continue to strive for my goal, no matter what else is going on.

 

[howdoi]

Sad Day...

Well, Im right back to where i started....112lbs

Friday worked out a bit...but not much...

Sat didnt do a thing, and ate a lot...

Sunday went out running/walking...
Monday just walked and ate a lot...

Ugh....

Now not only i gained back the two lbs i had lost...but I also got sick from last night's meal....

Not really sure how much i ate and i really dont feel like finding out. Right now all i want is my stomach to stop hurting, crawl in bed and sleep.

Ughh i hate getting sick