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SadNFat

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I cannot believe that I am starting this journey yet again, and at a much worse starting point at that.
2 years ago, I began trying to lose weight (even posed on this forum under a different name) and did ok. I didn't hit my goal, but I lost about 60 lbs and was very close to it.
Fast forward 2 years, and I have not only gained back the weight but gained an additional 50 pounds. I am now 244 lbs. I gained 100 lbs in a year.
And I have no excuse. There was no death in the family, I was not sick. Sure, I was depressed for a few months, but not deeply. Just a bit sad.
I truthfully have no idea how I got to this weight. Well, besides the obvious. I've never been nearly this big before, I am now over 100 lbs from where I should be.
My weight is having a profound affect on my life. I have 2 pairs of pants I can wear and about 4 shirts. I'm 26 years old and cannot wear anything cute or cool, just baggy t-shirts. I make up excuse after excuse not to go visit friends I sorely miss, just because I am SO embarrassed about how I look. I dread moving back to the US and having my family see what I have become. My boyfriend is great, always says I look beautiful, but I know that both my weight and my own hang-ups about it are affecting our relationship.
As my weight is clearly impacting my mentality and my social life, I am starting again. It is very daunting, wanting to lose 120lbs. I almost don't know how to begin, and have been putting it off for many months. I am moving back home to look for a job in 2 months, and the way I look, I feel like no one would ever hire someone like me.
I need a big kick start, and so I am going to go on the Atkins diet for awhile, probably a month and a half to 2 months, and then move to a 1200 calorie diet. I know I will gain some of the weight I lose back once I stop Atkins, but I've used Atkins as a kick start before and it has worked (fingers crossed for a repeat success).
Anyway, sorry for rambling. I will be writing about my progress at least weekly, should anyone desire to check in. Wish me luck, and good luck to all who are in the same boat!:cheers2:
 
Hey! :) Maybe you could use this sadness as your driving force behind the weight loss? Focus on how much more confident you'd be if you managed to hit your goal weight. That's what keeps me going when I get something yummy shoved under my face (Pizza aisle at Asda is the worst for me).

Good luck with your journey!
 
hey you!!!
welcome back! :)
you can do it!!!

ps/ i know the feelng of gaining back weight...i just did the same thing...i was kicking myself....on the way to slimdom now too!!!

GOOD LUCK!

:hurray:
 
Hi mate,

I can so relate to how you feel. I was exactly the same. I had 2 pairs of shapeless jeans and baggy mens shirts. I always avoided everyone and became a semi-recluse!

It's only been 4 months or so and now I'm going out of my way to see mates and best of all I am buying tops and pants that look nice. I have become addicted to op-shopping because now I can just pick something off the rack and it will fit!

I also used to have very big issues wth intimacy because of my weight (hubby just doesn't understand - he tries but he just doesn't) but they're getting better as I lose.

I know you can do it, you've just got to be really strong and never forget why you're doing it. I'll be thinking of you, don't give up :grouphug:
 
You can do it! You did it once you can do it again!

I've always had weight problems, but the most I had weighed before recently was 150. My lowest weight as an adult was 135 circa 06/07. By mid 2009 I was up to 194.5. Stayed there until I started losing in June 2010. It was very overwhelming at first. I have never had this much to lose in my life. The most I had ever managed to lose before was 15 lbs. I didn't know if I could do it. But I looked at it like this: I don't have 70 lbs to lose, I have 15 lbs to lose 4.5 times! :)

But really you just have to focus on one pound at a time. Even after you lose just a few pounds you will begin to feel so much better. Good luck!
 
I've been where you are hun! Just keep your chin up and remind yourself of the reasons why you want to do this! I currently have 1 pair of jeans and a pair of yoga pants that I wear out. I stay home most of the time and wearing baggy clothes all day long. I completely understand how you feel. I had lost weight before and gained it back and then some. It's hard and it's definitely a reality check when you step on that scale. My reality check moment was when I boarded a plane and could barely buckle the seatbelt. Well, best of luck to you hun! You can do this!
 
Sounds just like me! I have totally become a recluse due to the fact that I have NOTHING to wear and feel awful. I almost feel the need to say to new people I meet "Hi, I know I'm fat" or warn old friends I have not seen in awhile that I have gotten fat. Hopefully I will lose some weight like you and be able to get out and about more!
 
kayleejburgess said:
My reality check moment was when I boarded a plane and could barely buckle the seatbelt. Well, best of luck to you hun! You can do this!
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I hear you! That happened to me last July, when I almost couldn't buckle the belt, and I have gained weight since then, and I am due on a plane in late March! I definitely want to lose enough before then so that I won't be forced to ask for an extension, I would be so embarrassed.
 
I know how you guys feel. For a point there, I lost over almost 60 pounds in about '05, felt great, gave away all my 'fat' clothes, got a new wardrobe, stopped the lifestyle change and exercising, gained all the weight back, only left with a closet of clothes that can't fit, so stayed at home for the most case.

Its hard, but don't give up. I figure I did it before, I can do it again, much older, but hopefully wiser. So I know you can too.
 
Ugh

Well, I did my first day of Atkins yesterday. My meals were primarily bacon, broccoli,lettuce, and more bacon.
I got on the scale this morning, and had lost 1.5 lbs (water weight, obviously). Problem is, I feel AWFUL! I am nauseous, have no energy and have a headache. Now, I could be sick, or it could be the diet. Problem is, I HAVE to stick to Atkins for at last 2 weeks to get my jump start...and plus I made my boyfriend spend tons of money we don't have on food I will need for the diet, so I cannot just throw all that away. Hopefully this sick feeling goes away by tomorrow...anyone else ever get this on Atkins? When I first started posting I was all " Oh, I'll do induction for 6 weeks, simple and easy"...Uh, no. Not if I feel like this.
On the plus side, now that I have started sticking to a diet (as odd as the diet may be), I think it will be much easier to transition to a low-cal diet. In the previous months (OK, be honest, the entire previous year) I have been a;ways meaning to go on a low-cal diet, but could never bring my fat ass to do it. Now that I am in the groove of denying myself certain foods, I might be able to keep it up! I just hope I can last another 13 days til then!:ack2:
 
Hi there!

oh my goodness- I totally know where you're coming from!! My weight use to make me feel so uncomfortable. I didn't want to take my clothes off (which makes being intimate a tiny bit difficult). I never had anything to wear, because I felt like I looked like a giant blob in all my clothes- this caused me to become reclusive and never see my friends...and still now, I think, "who would ever want to be with a porker like myself" ... BUT, one thing I recognize is that in all of the things in life, my weight and happiness are something that I can control!

By being here, and having this diary- I think you've made a great step into making your goals become apart of your life! You can do this! You've already lost weight before- you know you can do it!!! And don't focus on the whole number, focus on the fact that every day you do the atkins diet, every time you exercise, you are making yourself closer and closer to your goal!

You can do it!

I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling well today :( That's difficult...hopefully you'll be able to get through, and continue on :) Because you know you can do it! And we know you can do it! We're here for you!!!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!! *raises roof to your awesomeness* :)
 
I've heard the Atkins can make you feel pretty grotty--Please don't continue if it's making you feel awful :( Good luck and let us know how you get on xxxx
 
Week 1 ReCap

Well, I have now done one week on Atkins. I lost 7 lbs, which is ok, but the last few days I have been losing MUCH more slowly, only about 1/2 a pound a day, if that. I hope I can lost at least 4-4.5 pounds in the coming week. I know most of it is water weight lost...but I have to hope that there is some fat in there! Oh, and I am TOTALLY craving sugar, I have had dreams about ice cream for the past 2 nights!
I cannot do the atkins diet. OK, I have not cheated. Not once. But I literally DON'T EAT! I feel so gross if I eat too much fatty meat and oils, and now pretty much have one meal a day and a salad, if that. So even though my body is in Ketosis (I checked, used Ketostix), I seem to be doing a low-cal in addition to low-carb diet. So I don't know if Atkins is working, or the decreased calorie diet.
Either way, I will finish Atkins induction, but only for 2 weeks. After that, I will do the SlimFast diet...only because months ago I asked my bf to buy me the slimfast powder, and it has been stuck in the cabinet ever since! When that runs out, say maybe in a week or so, I'll either continue with SlimFast if it is working, or just go to a normal 1200 cal diet. Ugh, I feel as if I have been doing this for so long, but it has only been 8 days! Anyway, I'll check in next week with an update! And btw, thanks for all the great people that leave kind comments, it means a lot to me!
 
I hope you feel better! I have heard that you get a carb flu that lasts about 2 weeks since your body is trying to change from gluten to fat as its main source of energy. Personally I like the primal blueprint. You can google mark sisson if you want to see what its about. I really love the recipes because they are delicious but i do eat carbs. I found a flax seed flourless bread that I put organic pb&j on and I feel pretty full for a couple of hours which is practically unheard of for me.

I am a huge sugar addict so last month I went to the store at least 3 times to buy a 4x4 pan of already made german chocolate brownies. This month I have been able to kick the sugar habit enough so that my pb&j's are enough for me.

Good Luck! I know the beginning is hard and sometimes the middle but you can do it!
 
SadNFat said:
Problem is, I feel AWFUL! I am nauseous, have no energy and have a headache. Now, I could be sick, or it could be the diet. Problem is, I HAVE to stick to Atkins for at last 2 weeks to get my jump start
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Hi SadN :waving::) When I was a young teenager I tried the Atkins diet for two days and was a vegetarian then vegan for seven years lol I felt the same way you did, and could not make myself stick to it. I can totally understand gaining 100lbs in a year, unfortunately. When I started to eat meat again, I also started back on fast food and gained 80lbs in one year. BUT we're doing something about it now:)

Glad to know you're starting over again and sticking to your plans! All the best!
 
Can I tell you how much fun I had shopping for cute tops to wear out to the bar tomorrow night, at 170 pounds?
Can I further tell you how UNfun it was when I was 270 pounds?

You know you can do it. WE know you can do it.
Go for it, baybeh!
 
SadNFat said:
I cannot believe that I am starting this journey yet again, and at a much worse starting point at that.
2 years ago, I began trying to lose weight (even posed on this forum under a different name) and did ok. I didn't hit my goal, but I lost about 60 lbs and was very close to it.
Fast forward 2 years, and I have not only gained back the weight but gained an additional 50 pounds. I am now 244 lbs. I gained 100 lbs in a year.
And I have no excuse. There was no death in the family, I was not sick. Sure, I was depressed for a few months, but not deeply. Just a bit sad.
I truthfully have no idea how I got to this weight. Well, besides the obvious. I've never been nearly this big before, I am now over 100 lbs from where I should be.
My weight is having a profound affect on my life. I have 2 pairs of pants I can wear and about 4 shirts. I'm 26 years old and cannot wear anything cute or cool, just baggy t-shirts. I make up excuse after excuse not to go visit friends I sorely miss, just because I am SO embarrassed about how I look. I dread moving back to the US and having my family see what I have become. My boyfriend is great, always says I look beautiful, but I know that both my weight and my own hang-ups about it are affecting our relationship.
As my weight is clearly impacting my mentality and my social life, I am starting again. It is very daunting, wanting to lose 120lbs. I almost don't know how to begin, and have been putting it off for many months. I am moving back home to look for a job in 2 months, and the way I look, I feel like no one would ever hire someone like me.
I need a big kick start, and so I am going to go on the Atkins diet for awhile, probably a month and a half to 2 months, and then move to a 1200 calorie diet. I know I will gain some of the weight I lose back once I stop Atkins, but I've used Atkins as a kick start before and it has worked (fingers crossed for a repeat success).
Anyway, sorry for rambling. I will be writing about my progress at least weekly, should anyone desire to check in. Wish me luck, and good luck to all who are in the same boat!:cheers2:
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I'm in pretty much the same position of you! I know exactly how you feel about the 4 shirts and two pairs of trousers, and would you believe it that's exactly the same as I've been reduced too, four baggy shirts and two pairs of baggy jeans that I absolutley hate. It was even the same with weight loss, I grew up a REALLY fat kid, pot bellied and bullied most of my life. After leaving school I lost about 60lb and I could wear so much, I was so fit, I could walk for miles without tiring.

Then about 3 years ago I had a massive breakdown in my life due to various things I won't mention here and the 3 years on from them my life has spiralled downhill regards my weight and health. I did a gig with my band last year in London and it was the worst experiance ever because I was so ill from not looking after myself. I took up drinking over those 3 years (something which I have under control now thankfully) and tried to eat myself to death several times. I put back on the 60lb I lost and an additional 30lb on top of that. I avoid my friends, I'd gone from days to a week at a time without seeing another human being. But I've started really taking care of myself this past month and the changes have been drastic.

Don't give up ever, if you cave one day, learn from it the next and move on, don't let it spiral into another day and another e.c.t. if you're thinking about eating do something else. Some of the best advice I feel I can give to someone losing weight is to learn some new skills! Take up a martial art or a hobby something that will keep your mind active and your brain interested, learn a musical instrument and dedicate some time to it!

Sorry to bust in on your thread with my story!

Good luck to you, it's the worst thing ever when it takes control of your entire life and you're stuck in limbo.
 
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