Finding Cerella

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Im so emotional and touchy - everythign is gettin to me...like what the hell...*AAARRRGGG*

This is why I like to keep busy because when I am busy I have no time to think except for abt bedtime and how exhausted I am - I still have demons - lol - I still have wants and needs and when it all comes down to the nitty gritty I am unfortunately human and have emotions - it really sucks...

I would honestly like to be with someone...but in reality I still have a very long lonely path ahead of me to walk...Even if I did meet someone and started dating it would be a long time before I would have the help I wanted and needed...

Blah - i hate feelign this way - I am assuming it is just due to the changes and the vulnorability I am feelign and such...

This is also why Ive always been afraid to start takin care of myself and working on myself...
 
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UM....you stealing my posts?!?! AHEM! :rolleyes:

Aw Honey I feel ya 100%. I'm getting old, I want a lifelong partner now. What a sap I am!

Hey, I wish I could say something to get you to not feel bad about how you look. I need to make a magic potion called +B.I. (postivie body image). You KNOW that feeling is the key to being, and if you feel confident and beautiful you ARE confident and beautiful. But it's rough, isn't it? Us women sometimes think we need a sig oth to make us feel good. WHat a farce! *grabble grabble* It is so weird, we both feel the need to do something for ourselves and we can't...........quite.....get to it! But we will! "Knowing is half the battle"--I hate that term. It should be knowing is 80% of the battle, execution is 20%--make it seem a little easier, ya know?

I want you to one day feel great about yourself, and enjoy dolling up! You deserve it!! You need that!!! Neither of us should ever lower ourselves to think a man can do it for us!!! And you know that's right!

Hugs!!!!:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
 
Well I am sorry you are so down onyourself. I think your great and you look so sweet in your pics. You've done so much trying to be the single momand I just have a lot of respect for someone that trys. So I hope you get to feeling better, cause i hate to see you sad!!:beating:
 
Well thanx gals, I think it is just the stress of everything about to happen...

Oh and it isnt abt a man making me and helping me feel this way. It is abt wanting and needing help...parenting is meant to be a two person job...
 
I'm sorry your having a rough time Cerella. Men suck! big time. Like I said in the PM...your an AMAZING STRONG woman and you really do have so much to offer. Any man would be an ass to treat you with anything less than the utmost respect!

This is just a dark cloud Cerella...it will pass and the sun will shine again! Till then be true to yourself!
 
cinderelly said:
Oh and it isnt about a man making me and helping me feel this way. It is abt wanting and needing help...parenting is meant to be a two person job...
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I agree--but as my grandparents helped raise me (both pairs), you could go further and say "it takes a village." :) I wish the other parent was there for your girls. My dad wasn't there much, no child support, so I understand.
 
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Ive really been beatin myself up with negativity over how i look and feel lately...
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Hey beauty,
so I've been reading over your journal the past few pages and let me say, I might not know you all too well, but from reading what I had, you really are a strong individual, girl. First off, any woman who can take on the full responsibility of caring for little ones should recieve an award or something. My older sister is doing the same thing; hardworking single mom with two gorgeous kids. Hopefully in the long run, your children will realize how great of a mommy you are. :) I don't even have kids yet (well with my husband as a HUGE exception.. HA!) and I'm still scatter brained on this end. haha

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This is also why Ive always been afraid to start takin care of myself and working on myself...
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You really need to find time for yourself, hun. I know the elliptical is your time to zone out. (Hell.. I'm surprised you haven't ran that bad boy into the ground by now, Super Mom. hahaaaa!) But honestly, taking care of yourself will not only make you feel more confident, but it'll help you to focus and deal with stress a lot easier. So there's nothing to be afraid of, Cerella... you deserve to take care of yourself, little mama. And yes... that means maybe getting your feet, nails, and hair "did." :D

Sorry I'm writing an essay here, but a girl as bright-eyed and loving as yourself shouldn't be down. Strength, courage (taking on a new job, etc), and full of love: are great attributes of a parent/ friend and you my darling WLF MILF have that and beyond. :hug2: Okay, my silly ass will find its way out.. Take care, doll...

-Sheryl
 
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Hey beauty,
so I've been reading over your journal the past few pages and let me say, I might not know you all too well, but from reading what I had, you really are a strong individual, girl. First off, any woman who can take on the full responsibility of caring for little ones should recieve an award or something. My older sister is doing the same thing; hardworking single mom with two gorgeous kids. Hopefully in the long run, your children will realize how great of a mommy you are. :) I don't even have kids yet (well with my husband as a HUGE exception.. HA!) and I'm still scatter brained on this end. haha



You really need to find time for yourself, hun. I know the elliptical is your time to zone out. (Hell.. I'm surprised you haven't ran that bad boy into the ground by now, Super Mom. hahaaaa!) But honestly, taking care of yourself will not only make you feel more confident, but it'll help you to focus and deal with stress a lot easier. So there's nothing to be afraid of, Cerella... you deserve to take care of yourself, little mama. And yes... that means maybe getting your feet, nails, and hair "did." :D

Sorry I'm writing an essay here, but a girl as bright-eyed and loving as yourself shouldn't be down. Strength, courage (taking on a new job, etc), and full of love: are great attributes of a parent/ friend and you my darling WLF MILF have that and beyond. :hug2: Okay, my silly ass will find its way out.. Take care, doll...

-Sheryl
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Thanx Sheryl for your kinda words:) Your a sweetheart...

There isnt much to knwo abt me than you already have figured out - Im a hard working single mom of 2 girls...no time , energy or money for myself...all I do is for my girls...

Nothing wrong with novels or chapters or paragraghs:) I like the long winded long ass replies it shows compassion and caring;)

WLF MILF huh - I wonder how many others woudl agree with that - ha ha ha
 
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Happychubette said:
Hey Cerella, I'm back. Tried your cell right now but couldn't get through. Will try again later.
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Hey Kelly

That is weird - I got a call yesturday on the cell maybe it is just where it is placed...I will pm ya my parents number as well...We are heading out for awhile now...but will be home this evening:)

 
6 miles bike...225 cals or something like that...I hate the bike - much prefer the Elliptical...that was in 35 mins and I will hope on it at least once more today or maybe twice more anyway 6 miles:)
 
Hey Cerella,
Yeah kids take up alot of our time but
they are sure worth it! Like now that they are getting older they are getting
into cheerleading,football ect and I have never done any of that when I went to school and I am having so much fun watching them do things they enjoy!

I must agree with ya WLF is a crazy place lol...Have agr8 day Tammy
of and ...............:hug2: :)
 
Ya know I just cnat get the pix on here oh well...LOL...I will poke around photo bucket and see if I cant change their size and file type:(GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRUMBLE - LOL
 
My dad lived with us and my mom was still really a single mom. I can only imagine how rundown you feel sometimes. Do try and find a way to steal a few moments for yourself. You're definitely worth it and we all think of you as the WLF MILF. I thought you knew that by now? :)
 
Cannon 2006 said:
My dad lived with us and my mom was still really a single mom. I can only imagine how rundown you feel sometimes. Do try and find a way to steal a few moments for yourself. You're definitely worth it and we all think of you as the WLF MILF. I thought you knew that by now? :)
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Ha Ha Ha - thanx cannon - and not I didnt know that - I dont even think I am attractive or pretty...

as far as the single parent thing what gets me is having to make every freakin decision there is to make on my own and having only one income and just not having anyone to talk things threw with and to have a safety net of whatever to fall back on - it is only me for the girls and sometimes it really sucks...

I need to jump and have faith with every desiscion I make but so far most of it has turned out...

Im sorry im so whinny and high maintance lately - I just cand seem to find a common ground - Im battlin alot at the moment...

and what scares me too is I feel I am ready to move on and to find someone ready to start making more positive changes...

I want to be held and told everyhitng will be alright - lol - but i guess I will always have that fantasy...
 
You SHOULD find someone Relly. It sucks sleeping alone, for one thing. I absolutely despise it. I definitely like a man in my life at all times. Though this one right now..I dont know about that. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr. Sometimes its a real fuckin headache :rolleyes:.
 
What's MILF?

Cerella, the beach is the obvious choice of activity. I would love to take your girls down there if the weather cooperates. I'll be around all week.

Way to go on the exercise. I think we have to forget what we look like, what size we are and just focus on the importance of exercising everyday, don't you? I know you do. Moving our bodies will help us in the long run. After my bike ride today I stretched. Boy would I love to take hot yoga but I can't afford it at the moment.

I too sometimes feel I have no one to turn to but at least my basic needs are met. I just have to remember to pinch pennies. I get a kind of satisfaction out of it.
 
Finding the right person is a wonderful thing. If you can, find that guy. However, being with somebody because you don't want to be alone is a nightmare. For one thing, you take yourself off the market for that right guy when he does come along. For another thing, some guys aren't really preferable to being alone. You're going through a ton of changes Cerella. You dropped one loser guy from your life, you changed jobs, and you lost weight and are starting to get looks from guys--you most definitely have every excuse in the world for being high maintenace. Between, your new looks, your new confidence, and your new freedom its no wonder you are starting to think about a new guy in your life, but just like anything make sure its the right one.
 
Kelly - MILF is a Mother Id Like To Fuck - LOL...

Cannon as always - thank you - you calm me and bring me a sence of peace - you word things well - thank you :)
 
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