Feenix's diary - This Is Sparta!
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hey feenix, just checking in. I wouldn't worry about the scale too much man. just let it flow. i'm not saying don't weigh yourself, just don't let the numbers discouarage you. keep it up! Also, you'll get to a point where it'll be second nature where you don't obsess about it so much. you just say no to a lot of foods without thought. and sometimes you'll say yes, which is fine too. you'll be fine.
The boring numbers;
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So did a weigh in today, just over 3 weeks since doing this calorie counting lark and came in at around 275 so thankfully the numbers are going down, was confused there for a bit as nothing seemed to be moving. So thats what...8lbs in just over 3 weeks. Not too shabby considering I've not done any workouts (tho have started daily fast walks for fitness moreso than weightloss). I'm happy as it validates the Cal out > cal in => -weight equation.
Other great thing is that I can actually feel a difference even after only 8lbs. It's subtle but it's there. Now that I know that it's working, it makes things much easier as I hate nothing more than doing something without knowing if it's making any difference.
@kur. Cheers and I agree on the not getting caught up on numbers. It wasn't the numbers per se, I just needed some physical evidence that what I was doing was working. So I'm a happy camper now. I do find it easier now to say no to stuff, tho I do indulge in a cookie with my coffee most days, but that's all good. 80 calories aint gonna screw things up!
@Mike. I was reading your diary and thought you might be interested in this article
@Anke. Yea, I think I needed to be obsessive about it at the start for a couple of weeks. The diary here was great for that and fitday is awesome. Now I can ease off a bit as long as I check now and then I'm not secretly sabotaging myself!
Peace out.
28th -1430
29th -1750
30th -1450
So did a weigh in today, just over 3 weeks since doing this calorie counting lark and came in at around 275 so thankfully the numbers are going down, was confused there for a bit as nothing seemed to be moving. So thats what...8lbs in just over 3 weeks. Not too shabby considering I've not done any workouts (tho have started daily fast walks for fitness moreso than weightloss). I'm happy as it validates the Cal out > cal in => -weight equation.
Other great thing is that I can actually feel a difference even after only 8lbs. It's subtle but it's there. Now that I know that it's working, it makes things much easier as I hate nothing more than doing something without knowing if it's making any difference.
@kur. Cheers and I agree on the not getting caught up on numbers. It wasn't the numbers per se, I just needed some physical evidence that what I was doing was working. So I'm a happy camper now. I do find it easier now to say no to stuff, tho I do indulge in a cookie with my coffee most days, but that's all good. 80 calories aint gonna screw things up!
@Mike. I was reading your diary and thought you might be interested in this article
@Anke. Yea, I think I needed to be obsessive about it at the start for a couple of weeks. The diary here was great for that and fitday is awesome. Now I can ease off a bit as long as I check now and then I'm not secretly sabotaging myself!
Peace out.
Bonjour
Been doing fine calories wise past few days all within the range 1500-1800. Still having maybe 2/3 v small treats with coffee during the day but all planned for. Prob could be a little bit more strict with myself and keep it under 1600 (1450 is advised by fitday) but I'm not too fussed about it.
Started walking everyday moreso to slowly build up fitness as opposed to doing it for weightloss, but of course it helps. About a 2+ mile walk where most of it is uphill. I walk pretty quick so by the time its up, I've got the heart rate going (I hate those hills). I despise "formal" exercise, but really enjoy walks, so that is going to be my exercise routine. I can feel the fitness improvement already (tho I'm still very very far from remotely being "fit").
Did a weight in today, 4weeks and 3 days since I started. Hit around 271 lbs. Again, I don't consider it very accurate due to crappy scales but the needle is slowly going down. Thats about 10/11 lbs overall which is grand. Felt the difference from Day 1 compared to Day 14 havent felt much change from Day 14 to now (if that makes any sense). Just have to be careful not to become complacent.
Hope everyone is doing good.
Been doing fine calories wise past few days all within the range 1500-1800. Still having maybe 2/3 v small treats with coffee during the day but all planned for. Prob could be a little bit more strict with myself and keep it under 1600 (1450 is advised by fitday) but I'm not too fussed about it.
Started walking everyday moreso to slowly build up fitness as opposed to doing it for weightloss, but of course it helps. About a 2+ mile walk where most of it is uphill. I walk pretty quick so by the time its up, I've got the heart rate going (I hate those hills). I despise "formal" exercise, but really enjoy walks, so that is going to be my exercise routine. I can feel the fitness improvement already (tho I'm still very very far from remotely being "fit").
Did a weight in today, 4weeks and 3 days since I started. Hit around 271 lbs. Again, I don't consider it very accurate due to crappy scales but the needle is slowly going down. Thats about 10/11 lbs overall which is grand. Felt the difference from Day 1 compared to Day 14 havent felt much change from Day 14 to now (if that makes any sense). Just have to be careful not to become complacent.
Hope everyone is doing good.
hey man walking is exercise, don't sell yourself shoert! you'll get there when you get there, there is no rush. I got a guy who blew through 100 lbs in 4 months and now he has a gut of lose skin. i feel bad for him, but people told him to slow down and do weights to tighten some of that up and stretch some of it back, but nope no listen. barely eats and just cardio cardio cardio. only now is he doing weights, but he will definitely need surgery 
so nothing is wrong with slow and steady. and walking is a perfect start. i was doing a mile walk every morning when i first started 2 years ago. so there ya go.
so nothing is wrong with slow and steady. and walking is a perfect start. i was doing a mile walk every morning when i first started 2 years ago. so there ya go.
Cord the Seeker
New member
Yeah, walking is great exercise - it is the primary activity I've been doing, and it is working our pretty well so far.
If you want to get into running or something, walking is the place to start. I know there is no way my knees can handle running at this time. Maybe in another 40-50 lbs I'll consider it.
Fast walking can actually burn more calories than jogging anyway.
Great job so far - isn't it awesome to start feeling different?
Keep it up - we're watching you!
If you want to get into running or something, walking is the place to start. I know there is no way my knees can handle running at this time. Maybe in another 40-50 lbs I'll consider it.
Fast walking can actually burn more calories than jogging anyway.
Great job so far - isn't it awesome to start feeling different?
Keep it up - we're watching you!
Ankebuzz
Well-known member
Hey, complacency doesn't HAVE to be a bad thing! I mean, you are getting more comfortable with eating healthy consistently. If it feels too easy, don't worry. That doesn't mean your weight loss will stop (I really believed this at one point, and promptly binged myself 4 kgs heavier to prove the point )
Well done for achieving a level of comfort with your new lifestyle... now you can tweak it some more, it may be uncomfortable for a bit again, and then you will be complacent again. It's how our bodies (and minds) work... always need to push ourselves to grow, but once you have done that, you get used to it quickly, it's great for changing habits!
)Well done for achieving a level of comfort with your new lifestyle... now you can tweak it some more, it may be uncomfortable for a bit again, and then you will be complacent again. It's how our bodies (and minds) work... always need to push ourselves to grow, but once you have done that, you get used to it quickly, it's great for changing habits!
Hehe Anke, totally get what you said. Sometimes I feel like stuffing myself back to my starting weight just to compare the difference and to prove that there IS a difference. There's also always that niggling thing that doesn't believe that by keeping on the road will lead to more weightloss. Kinda like a "ok I lost X doing this, my body will get used to it so I'll have to do something different."
Been a tough week mentally. Friends had an engagement get together which I went to. While it was good seeing them again, it spiraled me into a downer about my current situation and past career choices. Basically they're all really successful, have at least(!) one house, and are in their settling stage with marriage/kids. While I havent found my "thing", have dropped out of what was a good career to find myself pretty much broke and in limbo not knowing what the heck I want to do with my life. Since I'm the oldest out of the bunch (in some cases by 6-7 years) it makes me feel like a total loser and failure sometimes. I'm always trying new things, never to finish them. I don't equate houses/money with success in the least, but I really envy sometimes the fact that they all have found their space in the world. Just makes me feel I've totally blown the past 8 years of my life. Sounds overly dramatic, but it really drags me down a lot.
So most of the week was spent trying to crawl out of those dark clouds. Eating wise, didnt do super great. The engagement party meant a lot of drinks, so one day hit well into the 3K calorie range. While I didn't do terrible on other days (think about 2K max), I did have stuff I normally wouldn't, like salad dishes drowning in mayo. But could have been a lot worse seeing I was feeling like shit.
Did a weigh in today, around 269ish so down a bit more. In total lost 14 pounds in about 6 weeks which is good. Thought it might have been more with the whole "it falls off quick at the start" but I can't complain. Do feel different from when I started no doubt, but felt that way after just a couple weeks. Maybe its harder to tell differences the lower you go.
Doing walks most days, between 2-4 miles. Fitness has improved (not hard considering where I started from) and enjoy the walks too.
Thats the news, bit of a ramble but all good.
Been a tough week mentally. Friends had an engagement get together which I went to. While it was good seeing them again, it spiraled me into a downer about my current situation and past career choices. Basically they're all really successful, have at least(!) one house, and are in their settling stage with marriage/kids. While I havent found my "thing", have dropped out of what was a good career to find myself pretty much broke and in limbo not knowing what the heck I want to do with my life. Since I'm the oldest out of the bunch (in some cases by 6-7 years) it makes me feel like a total loser and failure sometimes. I'm always trying new things, never to finish them. I don't equate houses/money with success in the least, but I really envy sometimes the fact that they all have found their space in the world. Just makes me feel I've totally blown the past 8 years of my life. Sounds overly dramatic, but it really drags me down a lot.
So most of the week was spent trying to crawl out of those dark clouds. Eating wise, didnt do super great. The engagement party meant a lot of drinks, so one day hit well into the 3K calorie range. While I didn't do terrible on other days (think about 2K max), I did have stuff I normally wouldn't, like salad dishes drowning in mayo. But could have been a lot worse seeing I was feeling like shit.
Did a weigh in today, around 269ish so down a bit more. In total lost 14 pounds in about 6 weeks which is good. Thought it might have been more with the whole "it falls off quick at the start" but I can't complain. Do feel different from when I started no doubt, but felt that way after just a couple weeks. Maybe its harder to tell differences the lower you go.
Doing walks most days, between 2-4 miles. Fitness has improved (not hard considering where I started from) and enjoy the walks too.
Thats the news, bit of a ramble but all good.
hey dude, check it. Don't be down on your life, whilei ahve started my career, this particular part of the industry (Digitial Animation and design) isn't what i want to be in. My weight loss was my first step in changing my life to figure out where i want to be. everyone moves at their own pace. So you're is a little slower, treat it like wieght loss, the longer it takes the longer you keep it (off). so if it takes another 8 years, you'll be more appreciative of what you have and keep it longer. no worries man, you are doing it right. Prolonged self pity and disappointment, can turn into an ecepting reality if you aren't careful. meaning you'll believe you really are just a loser who wawsted his life. so lets not do that. you are doing it right. take care of yourself with the weight loss and what what happens to the way you think. because one you realize you can conquer this, you understand that nothing is really out of reach and everything will be much more clear for you. just you wait and see
i don't know if watching of vid of me jumping and doing pull ups would be all that flattering to see. just remember, the more you lose the more you can do and teh higher you can jump lol.
i don't know if watching of vid of me jumping and doing pull ups would be all that flattering to see. just remember, the more you lose the more you can do and teh higher you can jump lol.
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Hello Feenix, your evilness only provokes me more....
...where'd my halo go??
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Anyways from reading, I believe that you already know deep within that being successful doesn't equate to being married, having kids, a house, or a career that looks fulfilling. That's just it. They "LOOK", doesn't mean they are. I struggle quite a bit with this myself too. Especially when I am feeling down. Sometimes we can have everything in the world and still feel awful within, not saying that they do (your friends), but unless you're around them 24/7, one doesn't know how others are truly feeling.
Great work btw on the weight loss. I've actually just been thinking about that myself, lost 14 lbs in the last 3 1/2 months. I am one of the already "smaller" ppl, where it is more difficult to lose anything at a lower weight. So good on ya!! Keep it up!
I will see you in the 8 week extreme challenge, more like 10 weeks, must'a've been a typo....anyways
Lata
...where'd my halo go?? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Anyways from reading, I believe that you already know deep within that being successful doesn't equate to being married, having kids, a house, or a career that looks fulfilling. That's just it. They "LOOK", doesn't mean they are. I struggle quite a bit with this myself too. Especially when I am feeling down. Sometimes we can have everything in the world and still feel awful within, not saying that they do (your friends), but unless you're around them 24/7, one doesn't know how others are truly feeling.
Great work btw on the weight loss. I've actually just been thinking about that myself, lost 14 lbs in the last 3 1/2 months. I am one of the already "smaller" ppl, where it is more difficult to lose anything at a lower weight. So good on ya!! Keep it up!
I will see you in the 8 week extreme challenge, more like 10 weeks, must'a've been a typo....anyways
Lata
Cord the Seeker
New member
Feenix, dude.
Make sure you look at the good stuff, man. 14 pounds in 6 weeks is good weight loss. Feel good about that. Your fitness is improving, you're out and walking and doing other stuff. Feel good about that.
Life may be feeling out of balance right now, but you're doing the right things. Improving hour health will change the way you feel about yourself in every respect.
Mr. Miyagi said that "if whole life have balance, everything better.". You're putting your life in balance by putting your body in balance. It's all one package, and the improvement in your health is going to go hand in hand with improvement in your mental state, outlook, and all that. Which will make it easier to go out and get what you want. Success breeds success.
Make sure you look at the good stuff, man. 14 pounds in 6 weeks is good weight loss. Feel good about that. Your fitness is improving, you're out and walking and doing other stuff. Feel good about that.
Life may be feeling out of balance right now, but you're doing the right things. Improving hour health will change the way you feel about yourself in every respect.
Mr. Miyagi said that "if whole life have balance, everything better.". You're putting your life in balance by putting your body in balance. It's all one package, and the improvement in your health is going to go hand in hand with improvement in your mental state, outlook, and all that. Which will make it easier to go out and get what you want. Success breeds success.
Many thanks for the words all, much appreciated. I hear everything you all are saying and totally agree with it, just sometimes I end up putting on the shite-tinted glasses and takes me a few days to make them more rosey-tinted. It's amazing how much ones thoughts create reality. I just get tired sometimes doing all these different things and start craving stability, even tho I know I'd get bored really quick if I had it. It's weird, I often feel that I've been born centuries late, a lot of modern societal norms and the way most of the world has become (i.e. money/commerce/power focused) just doesn't fit me well.
Coming around now anyway, so no more whining and moaning!
thanks again
Coming around now anyway, so no more whining and moaning!
thanks again
cherrygarcia
New member
hey feenix,
just read abit of your diary, i just wanted to say i think your doing great! it's nice that you've found a hilly route to walk on. at my weight since i can't run/jog i ALWAYS do the treadmill at walking pace but on steep incline and it really gets the job done because i sweat buckets..lol! aw, i wish it was outdoors though, but i'm still so self concious about walking outside....i think in the long run when i loose weight i'd like to do lots of hiking because i love the outdoors.
otherwise about the life thing...i know what you mean. i really wish money didn't have to signify success. for now i've just started my weight loss journey and for me right now this is my success story. i've been overweight my whole life and feel like i've never accomplished anything or finished things that i started. but for once in my life i'm giving my all and i'm damn proud of myself for doing it because i feel once i conquer my weight i'll get my life back. your definitely on the right track, your doing it for you! that's what matters. money/houses/big cars dont necessarily translate to happiness. i think the people who are truely happy are those with an inner peace....which is what i'm looking for and slowly getting there with every step of this journey and i wish the same for you. all the best xoxo
oh and just like you said THIS IS SPARTAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol!
just read abit of your diary, i just wanted to say i think your doing great! it's nice that you've found a hilly route to walk on. at my weight since i can't run/jog i ALWAYS do the treadmill at walking pace but on steep incline and it really gets the job done because i sweat buckets..lol! aw, i wish it was outdoors though, but i'm still so self concious about walking outside....i think in the long run when i loose weight i'd like to do lots of hiking because i love the outdoors.
otherwise about the life thing...i know what you mean. i really wish money didn't have to signify success. for now i've just started my weight loss journey and for me right now this is my success story. i've been overweight my whole life and feel like i've never accomplished anything or finished things that i started. but for once in my life i'm giving my all and i'm damn proud of myself for doing it because i feel once i conquer my weight i'll get my life back. your definitely on the right track, your doing it for you! that's what matters. money/houses/big cars dont necessarily translate to happiness. i think the people who are truely happy are those with an inner peace....which is what i'm looking for and slowly getting there with every step of this journey and i wish the same for you. all the best xoxo
oh and just like you said THIS IS SPARTAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol!
ymcachick
New member
Hi Feenix, I noticed your diary ontop of the page and thought I'd check it out.
I got into a pity pot over the weekend, at one point I stayed in bed for the entire afternoon with the blankets pulled up over my head being all boo-hoo. I'm 33 and while I'm making a lot of changes to my life, I sometimes can't help but have a lot of regret about the past. To be honest, it can be downright depressing. I have made so many mistakes, and I wonder if the best has already passed by me. But, the reasonable side of me knows that it's all bullshit and the best is still out there and it's mine for the taking. At this point in time, I still have no idea what I want to do with my life. However on the flip side, it's pretty damn liberating to have the world at your fingertips. I'm not tied down to a mortgage, a man, or a high pressured job. Basically, I can do anything I fucking want. And so I am.
Anyway, sorry for ramblin! Best of luck on your weight loss! And rock on Rick Astley! Denim on denim never looked so fiiiiiiine!
I got into a pity pot over the weekend, at one point I stayed in bed for the entire afternoon with the blankets pulled up over my head being all boo-hoo. I'm 33 and while I'm making a lot of changes to my life, I sometimes can't help but have a lot of regret about the past. To be honest, it can be downright depressing. I have made so many mistakes, and I wonder if the best has already passed by me. But, the reasonable side of me knows that it's all bullshit and the best is still out there and it's mine for the taking. At this point in time, I still have no idea what I want to do with my life. However on the flip side, it's pretty damn liberating to have the world at your fingertips. I'm not tied down to a mortgage, a man, or a high pressured job. Basically, I can do anything I fucking want. And so I am.
Anyway, sorry for ramblin! Best of luck on your weight loss! And rock on Rick Astley! Denim on denim never looked so fiiiiiiine!
Hey, cheers for stopping by and posting cherry and ymca. Things are fine now, it was just a funk I was going through. Normally I'm of the mind that you mentioned ymcachick in that I'm happy and excited not to be settled. After thinking about it, it was a case of feeling that I was distant from my friends. They're all part of the "big city, professional" me, but the "country life, simple me" is turning out to be the "real" me. And each are very different when it comes to what society expects of you. I just had to remind myself that what they view as the proper path in life is not the same as what I may view it to be. Hell, usually I'm happy enough not to have a path and just keep trying new things.
Since it was my birthday Friday, (go Feenix, go Feenix, it was your birthday, it was your birthday) I decided to take the weekend "off". So I didnt track anything in fitday Sat/Sun, ate what I wanted to (and in some cases what I didnt want to but ate it anyway cuz it was my w/e off) and had a good feed of beer (and even some cigs too). Of course now I feel like shite, bloated, yucky and really tired. But it was good to be bad. Looking forward to eating healthy again and getting back to walking. I'm sure my boldness will slow down any weightloss for a short while but screw it, it was worth it to have a big plate of pasta and some bacon (Ummmmm baaaakon) and some tasty candy goodness. I even drank some sodas. I went wild I tell you!
Off to try and kick start this very hazy and tired head of mine and get some work done. Will pop by others journals later today to see how y'all are doin.
Since it was my birthday Friday, (go Feenix, go Feenix, it was your birthday, it was your birthday) I decided to take the weekend "off". So I didnt track anything in fitday Sat/Sun, ate what I wanted to (and in some cases what I didnt want to but ate it anyway cuz it was my w/e off) and had a good feed of beer (and even some cigs too). Of course now I feel like shite, bloated, yucky and really tired. But it was good to be bad. Looking forward to eating healthy again and getting back to walking. I'm sure my boldness will slow down any weightloss for a short while but screw it, it was worth it to have a big plate of pasta and some bacon (Ummmmm baaaakon) and some tasty candy goodness. I even drank some sodas. I went wild I tell you!
Off to try and kick start this very hazy and tired head of mine and get some work done. Will pop by others journals later today to see how y'all are doin.