Facing, Dealing and Losing/Winning!
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Ann1
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Another great day today! Man.. I am actually really proud of myself. Only five days in, but I've never before made it this far and was this motivated. Also, I have seemed to figure out a way to enjoy eating healthier? Like I posted earlier, I weighed this morning and lost 1.9 pounds since Wednesday. And I had not just eaten before I went on the scale Wednesday, and it can also not be lost water weight, cause I've been drinking a LOT of water. So I guess it really must be that I lost weight and that's so awesome. This morning I looked in the mirror and actually did think I saw some difference. Or maybe I just felt different, much fitter. Wow, I really hope I keep this up! I will! 
Breakfast: Granola with non-fat organic vanilla yoghurt, strawberries and a kiwi.
Snack: Small hand of mixed nuts, some carrots and half an apple.
Lunch: Garden burger on a bun with lettuce, tomato and cucumber, along with some salad.
Haven't had dinner yet, but I'll make chicken soup with some crackers on the side.
Worked out on the treadmill again just now, burned 300 calories.
Breakfast: Granola with non-fat organic vanilla yoghurt, strawberries and a kiwi.
Snack: Small hand of mixed nuts, some carrots and half an apple.
Lunch: Garden burger on a bun with lettuce, tomato and cucumber, along with some salad.
Haven't had dinner yet, but I'll make chicken soup with some crackers on the side.
Worked out on the treadmill again just now, burned 300 calories.
Ann1
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Oh no! I'm cheating . I was at someone else's house and they offered my banana bread and I just thought it was a bit rude to say no, cause she made it herself. Specially to have something nice for when I was coming. Argh. So I ate banana bread and now I'm feeling so hungry for yummy stuff. I already ate two small hands of nuts extra and that's already 250 calories extra ! Man... I guess it won't suddenly make me gain super much again cause I'm still under 1800 calories for the whole day. I'm just afraid that this feeling will keep going all day and eventually I'll give in and I'll eat a whole lot unhealthy stuff.. Also didn't have time for a work out today. How is it that every day I don't work out I eat more than on days I do???
. I was at someone else's house and they offered my banana bread and I just thought it was a bit rude to say no, cause she made it herself. Specially to have something nice for when I was coming. Argh. So I ate banana bread and now I'm feeling so hungry for yummy stuff. I already ate two small hands of nuts extra and that's already 250 calories extra ! Man... I guess it won't suddenly make me gain super much again cause I'm still under 1800 calories for the whole day. I'm just afraid that this feeling will keep going all day and eventually I'll give in and I'll eat a whole lot unhealthy stuff.. Also didn't have time for a work out today. How is it that every day I don't work out I eat more than on days I do???
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Ann1
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Oh my god. Today was awful! I couldn't stop myself from eating. My thoughts just all day kept lingering to yummy-ness and I eat loads and loads. I ate at least 6 servings of mixed nuts (170 cals per serving -_-), 10 baby carrots, a banana and a small bag of popcorn as a snack between lunch and dinner and 3 servings of lasagna for dinner. I feel so bad! I honestly do. I want to lose weight but.. My eating is like pringles, once I pop I can't stop. Emotionally it was a tough day too. The kid I take care of wanted to make popcorn, but my host-dad was home and I got a major panic attack. I was on the verge of screaming, crying and stomping out the door, because I felt so pressured by the popcorn and so insecure about the fact that I might make a mistake, even though the instructions were on the back. Panic attacks when cooking with other people/grown up around who could possibly judge me has been a re-occurring problem for me. I literally had to lock myself in the bathroom for 5 minutes to prevent having a mental break down in front of the kids. I wondered today if maybe my fear of cooking and my extreme eating has some link to each other, but I don't know. Now I just feel awful, I ate WAY WAY more than 2000 calories for sure, I'm just too afraid to count and find out. What if I can't do it? What if I keep eating like this? I just now really need to make it through tomorrow on my own strict schedule and not try to sneak any extra's in, because then one extra will become a LOT more. A golden star for myself if I pull it off tomorrow..
I honestly do. I want to lose weight but.. My eating is like pringles, once I pop I can't stop. Emotionally it was a tough day too. The kid I take care of wanted to make popcorn, but my host-dad was home and I got a major panic attack. I was on the verge of screaming, crying and stomping out the door, because I felt so pressured by the popcorn and so insecure about the fact that I might make a mistake, even though the instructions were on the back. Panic attacks when cooking with other people/grown up around who could possibly judge me has been a re-occurring problem for me. I literally had to lock myself in the bathroom for 5 minutes to prevent having a mental break down in front of the kids. I wondered today if maybe my fear of cooking and my extreme eating has some link to each other, but I don't know. Now I just feel awful, I ate WAY WAY more than 2000 calories for sure, I'm just too afraid to count and find out. What if I can't do it? What if I keep eating like this? I just now really need to make it through tomorrow on my own strict schedule and not try to sneak any extra's in, because then one extra will become a LOT more. A golden star for myself if I pull it off tomorrow..
Ann1
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Okay, I'm back on track!
pre-breakfast: 1 Clementine orange
breakfast: 2 scrambled eggs with broccoli, onion, tomato, baby carrots on two slices of toasted bread
+ warm-up, total of 5x 15 crunches (normal, bicycle, left, right, normal), workout on the treadmill for half an hour and burned 243 cals
Last day of school for the kids and it's a half day, so I'll have to pick them up in an hour. I don't know what's wrong with me but I'm dreading summer vacation so much. I get worked up about every time I have to work more than the official 10 hours a day/45 hours a week thing. This week it'll be 50 at least and the next 2 weeks even more. But other Au Pair work even more, and in a normal week I only work 30 hours, but still get paid for 45.. So I shouldn't really complain. I'll get through it. Anyone here got any 7 year old? Mine is really starting to get on my nerves with continually ignoring things I say and having very selective hearing. I feel like I should try and find a positive way to deal with this and stimulate better behavior, but I don't really know how.
pre-breakfast: 1 Clementine orange
breakfast: 2 scrambled eggs with broccoli, onion, tomato, baby carrots on two slices of toasted bread
+ warm-up, total of 5x 15 crunches (normal, bicycle, left, right, normal), workout on the treadmill for half an hour and burned 243 cals
Last day of school for the kids and it's a half day, so I'll have to pick them up in an hour. I don't know what's wrong with me but I'm dreading summer vacation so much. I get worked up about every time I have to work more than the official 10 hours a day/45 hours a week thing. This week it'll be 50 at least and the next 2 weeks even more. But other Au Pair work even more, and in a normal week I only work 30 hours, but still get paid for 45.. So I shouldn't really complain. I'll get through it. Anyone here got any 7 year old? Mine is really starting to get on my nerves with continually ignoring things I say and having very selective hearing. I feel like I should try and find a positive way to deal with this and stimulate better behavior, but I don't really know how.
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Verobc1
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Hi Ann!
Good to see you are still on here and don't worry about the struggle we all face it! The longer you keep at it the further in between the struggles are, you will have good days and bad days it's normal just don't quit come on here and will will cheer you on!
I have a 3 year old with selective hearing and I know how frustrating it is. I sometimes have to shout in order for her to listen but I hate it and I know it's not the right way to do it. With my 3 year old I am starting a calendar where she get stickers for good behavior and at the end of the week she gets a reward if all days have stickers. With a 7yrs old I doubt stickers will do the trick. Mabe you can make a calendar and check of the good days and when all days are filled she could choose an activity she likes to do? Then again I don't know what you are aloud to do with the kids. I watch super nanny a lot she usually uses a huge card board with rules for the kids and she has very good reward system for all ages! Usually kids that do selective hearing a looking for attention. I wish I could give you more answers! Are you going to be living in the states for a long time?? Cause you talked about going back to live with your mom! Good luck with it all!
Good to see you are still on here and don't worry about the struggle we all face it! The longer you keep at it the further in between the struggles are, you will have good days and bad days it's normal just don't quit come on here and will will cheer you on!
I have a 3 year old with selective hearing and I know how frustrating it is. I sometimes have to shout in order for her to listen but I hate it and I know it's not the right way to do it. With my 3 year old I am starting a calendar where she get stickers for good behavior and at the end of the week she gets a reward if all days have stickers. With a 7yrs old I doubt stickers will do the trick. Mabe you can make a calendar and check of the good days and when all days are filled she could choose an activity she likes to do? Then again I don't know what you are aloud to do with the kids. I watch super nanny a lot she usually uses a huge card board with rules for the kids and she has very good reward system for all ages! Usually kids that do selective hearing a looking for attention. I wish I could give you more answers! Are you going to be living in the states for a long time?? Cause you talked about going back to live with your mom! Good luck with it all!
Ann1
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Thanks Verobc! I hope you're right and that it gets easier. I actually figured something out with my kid today. I made 5 smiley faces on the white-board, going from really happy to mad. I told my kid we were now at really happy and it was going to stay that way if he behaved well. However if he not behaves or simply pretends not to hear me, we'd go down a smiley face. If we'd get all the way down to the mad one he was not going to be allowed to play with his best friend tomorrow. Worked like a charm and didn't even have to go one smiley face down. And stickers do still work for 7 year old! I even used it for kids up to 13 .
Today went okay, not great, but not horribly wrong either. I had a big lunch, 2 wraps with chicken, broccoli, onion, tomato, carrots and lettuce + a banana. Then I promised the kids ice cream because we had made the bus the whole school year so we went to get some. I was on the verge of not buying anything for me when the kids asked me what I was going to get. So then I couldn't resist and had non-fat plain frozen yogurt. I asked for the smallest size, but still it was pretty big! I threw about a quarter of it in the trashcan, but still sneaked a few bites of the kids's ice cream. Had a light dinner, with about 3/4 serving of soup and a rice cake with strawberry jam. Still have to go with the kids to the neighbors house though, they are having marshmallows and I'll have to say no! Total of 1635 cals today, burned 240 on the treadmill. Did try to walk more whenever I could and be more active with the kids.
. Today went okay, not great, but not horribly wrong either. I had a big lunch, 2 wraps with chicken, broccoli, onion, tomato, carrots and lettuce + a banana. Then I promised the kids ice cream because we had made the bus the whole school year so we went to get some. I was on the verge of not buying anything for me when the kids asked me what I was going to get. So then I couldn't resist and had non-fat plain frozen yogurt. I asked for the smallest size, but still it was pretty big! I threw about a quarter of it in the trashcan, but still sneaked a few bites of the kids's ice cream. Had a light dinner, with about 3/4 serving of soup and a rice cake with strawberry jam. Still have to go with the kids to the neighbors house though, they are having marshmallows and I'll have to say no! Total of 1635 cals today, burned 240 on the treadmill. Did try to walk more whenever I could and be more active with the kids.
Ann1
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I am so lucky! My host-dad told me yesterday that he doesn't mind me working out on the treadmill while I'm working as long as the kids know I'm there. Also the shower afterwards, no problem. I was so not looking forward to having to get up at 4 in the morning just to do my work out, but now I don't have to!
breakfast: granola, non fat vanilla yogurt, clementine and banana.
lunch: cheese and chicken quesadilla + salad with lettuce, tomato, carrots, cucumber, tuna and a little bit of salad dressing. I know I should have skipped the dressing, but oh well, it's still not too bad.
Did half an hour on the treadmill this morning, burned 200 calories. Also went swimming with the kids. I weighed myself after swimming and I weighed 188.4 (that's 4.5 pounds less than round this same time last week). I don't know if it was specifically because it was after swimming that I was lighter. Unfortunately I don't have my own scale, and it's in my host-parents private bathroom. I can't walk in there in the morning before I've eaten anything, so it's hard to really get accurate. Non the less I am taking this as a good sign! ^^ Got to stick to right eating the rest of the day though cause I'm already over a 1000 calories.
breakfast: granola, non fat vanilla yogurt, clementine and banana.
lunch: cheese and chicken quesadilla + salad with lettuce, tomato, carrots, cucumber, tuna and a little bit of salad dressing. I know I should have skipped the dressing, but oh well, it's still not too bad.
Did half an hour on the treadmill this morning, burned 200 calories. Also went swimming with the kids. I weighed myself after swimming and I weighed 188.4 (that's 4.5 pounds less than round this same time last week). I don't know if it was specifically because it was after swimming that I was lighter. Unfortunately I don't have my own scale, and it's in my host-parents private bathroom. I can't walk in there in the morning before I've eaten anything, so it's hard to really get accurate. Non the less I am taking this as a good sign! ^^ Got to stick to right eating the rest of the day though cause I'm already over a 1000 calories.
Ann1
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I haven't been on here for a few days, and honestly things have been going extremely down. Like not down in calories in a good way, but totally not eating right at all. It started Friday, when I took the kids to the Zoo. I tried to pack healthy stuff for myself, but seeing the kids eat more made me so hungry. And knowing I had a big bag of popcorn in my backpack, I just couldn't resist. Then we went from a big lunch to extra crackers to ice cream to a way to big pasta dinner. Saturday I tried to get back on track, but I got tempted my someone offering me a special treat at 10am and from then on just figured I screwed this whole day up now anyway so let's eat more and more and more. Sunday I went on a road trip with my friends and basically ate junk food in large portions the whole day. It was not good at all. Today I tried again, but my lunch was too big, I had a second calorie-rich lunch, I snacked on unhealthy stuff (chocolate.....) and then ate I big dinner also. The worst thing was that I didn't even feel to guilty about it on Friday and Saturday. But now I'm back to feeling horrible. I don't have time to exercise anymore and with the kids around (summer break) it's so hard to find the time to make healthy breakfasts and lunches. I think it also makes a difference that I haven't been calorie counting and on this forum at all. I need to write here every day, else I'll get lost.
I wanna try the 10 perfect days thing starting tomorrow.
Schedule for tomorrow:
7am Get up
7:30am Made breakfast for kids
8am Make own breakfast
9:30am Bring kids to tennis
9:45 - 10:30am While kids are in tennis walk to Library and get Twilight book
10:30am Pick up kids
10:35am Go by store for carrots, tomato and lettuce
10:55am Make lunch for kids
11:10am Make lunch for me
11:45am Bring Sophie to Lacrosse camp
12:15pm Play piano
12:45pm Prepare snack for Ben
12:50pm Bring Ben to Art&Science camp
1:10pm Play XBox
1:45pm Pick Sophie up
2:45pm Pick up Alicia
3:20pm Pick up Ben
3:30 - 5:30 Play with kids, do laundry or play piano
5:45 Alicia gets picked up
6:00 "Done" working
Breakfast: Cereal + milk + fruit + water + vitamin
Snack: Cucumber or carrots + water
Lunch: Tuna salad + Quesadilla + water
Snack: carrots or 100calorie yogurt + water
Dinner: Chicken noodle soup + water
Extra = hand full of nuts 1 time in the day
I wanna try the 10 perfect days thing starting tomorrow.
Schedule for tomorrow:
7am Get up
7:30am Made breakfast for kids
8am Make own breakfast
9:30am Bring kids to tennis
9:45 - 10:30am While kids are in tennis walk to Library and get Twilight book
10:30am Pick up kids
10:35am Go by store for carrots, tomato and lettuce
10:55am Make lunch for kids
11:10am Make lunch for me
11:45am Bring Sophie to Lacrosse camp
12:15pm Play piano
12:45pm Prepare snack for Ben
12:50pm Bring Ben to Art&Science camp
1:10pm Play XBox
1:45pm Pick Sophie up
2:45pm Pick up Alicia
3:20pm Pick up Ben
3:30 - 5:30 Play with kids, do laundry or play piano
5:45 Alicia gets picked up
6:00 "Done" working
Breakfast: Cereal + milk + fruit + water + vitamin
Snack: Cucumber or carrots + water
Lunch: Tuna salad + Quesadilla + water
Snack: carrots or 100calorie yogurt + water
Dinner: Chicken noodle soup + water
Extra = hand full of nuts 1 time in the day
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