clever_plant
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So, I'm pretty sure I've started one or two of these before, and obviously I have failed miserably, left the forum alone and completely ignored anything to do with weight and health 
Well besides other peoples health since I deal with that every day. But but but, here I am again, grappling with anti-depressants, a load of fat that needs to go, a general fitness level below the floorboards and I figured hey, lets have at it! Now.. I think I'll try and divide the journal up into two parts since there are two things going on for me, there is the "omg I want to be fit and HAWT SHIT" part and there is the "I need to get myself to actually function in my life, in relation to other human beings etc." part.
So without further ado: 05/12-2010 (Yes, I use European date standards, at least we aren't stuck on some archaic measurement system over here )
The "OMG I want to be HAWT part"
Well, I started dieting and unless other attempts, Instead of going for the classic 1200/day I figured I might as well go for something less retarded, and I'm starting out at 2000/day. We're ofcourse talking Kcal here. I've also become vegan. This has nothing to do with dieting or health but with cruelty to critters and peter singers searing ethical logic, but it'll probably be a part of this thing anyways since it affect my life and eating habits.
I REALLY like firm tofu, fried with lots of chili and tabasco it has become a staple. And yes, I've read the studies, and yes I understand the difference between phytoestrogens and estrogens because I am a clever plant, and I am somewhat sick, after two weeks, of listening to people going on about no proteins in vegan diets, and how I will turn female in a month from eating tofu a couple of times a week. First of all, these boobs are ALL fat NO estrogen, second, it would take a positively MASSIVE amount of soy stuff eating to get enough PHYTOestrogens that it would represent any significant increase of estrogens in me. If you're thinking "huh, people think soy is bad" read this hilarious .
I've also really started digging broccoli, stick it in the oven with some crushed garlic, a little olive oil and you're golden!
Anyways, I've lost a single kg so far and that makes me happy.
Oh, yeah, I've started exercising, I've been to the gym once and it was mostly just 10 minutes of pretty high intensity cardio stuff and then some random flailing about with free weights. I'm pretty sure it looked positively pathetic but I felt good afterwards. I also do a lot of balance work but that is because i have very thin ankles and somewhat retarded knees and working out those stabilizer muscles really does wonders for me, or so I'm told by the orthopedic people around work. They trust me when I say stuff like "PROZAC" and "COGNITIVE THERAPY" with wild eyes, so I guess I should trust them when it comes to joint health.
Mental stuff! and like... doing the dishes!
Once more I am amazed at what anti depressants can actually do to a severe depression. I've acutely aware of the studies and of how OVER PRESCRIBED anti depressants, especially the SSRI's are, but to people with severe depressions, like say... me... they work wonders. A recent study actually shed some light onto why it usually takes a month before the effect kicks in, it might be a secondary effect of forcibly raising the seretonin levels but enough of that. I caught myself doing the dishes yesterday, it was AMAZING SHIT! I mean.. I'm prone to just sitting under my table pondering how to kill myself in the most pain free way while furiously spewing angry words in my head about how unfair it is that hot girls don't dig me. But yesterday I actually did the dishes, and picked up the phone and talked a little to someone. Things are looking up.
The day I went to the gym I actually felt very good about a lot of things the rest of the day, this working out thing might become a staple of survival for me.
Oh, just in case people wonder, I have a severe depression and social anxiety
. Its all spectrum diseases but those two are the diagnoses put down on paper for me. Being someone who does this for a living I know that depression can be a lot of things, and that social anxiety can too, I realize that this is somewhat... grey-area ish but yeah. There.. and I'm getting efexor for the mind stuff, besides being ordered to work out, eat healthier and get laid by my dear colleague
I'll be back with more snarky rants I guess
-me
Well besides other peoples health since I deal with that every day. But but but, here I am again, grappling with anti-depressants, a load of fat that needs to go, a general fitness level below the floorboards and I figured hey, lets have at it! Now.. I think I'll try and divide the journal up into two parts since there are two things going on for me, there is the "omg I want to be fit and HAWT SHIT" part and there is the "I need to get myself to actually function in my life, in relation to other human beings etc." part. So without further ado: 05/12-2010 (Yes, I use European date standards, at least we aren't stuck on some archaic measurement system over here
)The "OMG I want to be HAWT part"
Well, I started dieting and unless other attempts, Instead of going for the classic 1200/day I figured I might as well go for something less retarded, and I'm starting out at 2000/day. We're ofcourse talking Kcal here. I've also become vegan. This has nothing to do with dieting or health but with cruelty to critters and peter singers searing ethical logic, but it'll probably be a part of this thing anyways since it affect my life and eating habits.
I REALLY like firm tofu, fried with lots of chili and tabasco it has become a staple. And yes, I've read the studies, and yes I understand the difference between phytoestrogens and estrogens because I am a clever plant, and I am somewhat sick, after two weeks, of listening to people going on about no proteins in vegan diets, and how I will turn female in a month from eating tofu a couple of times a week. First of all, these boobs are ALL fat NO estrogen, second, it would take a positively MASSIVE amount of soy stuff eating to get enough PHYTOestrogens that it would represent any significant increase of estrogens in me. If you're thinking "huh, people think soy is bad" read this hilarious .
I've also really started digging broccoli, stick it in the oven with some crushed garlic, a little olive oil and you're golden!
Anyways, I've lost a single kg so far and that makes me happy.
Oh, yeah, I've started exercising, I've been to the gym once and it was mostly just 10 minutes of pretty high intensity cardio stuff and then some random flailing about with free weights. I'm pretty sure it looked positively pathetic but I felt good afterwards. I also do a lot of balance work but that is because i have very thin ankles and somewhat retarded knees and working out those stabilizer muscles really does wonders for me, or so I'm told by the orthopedic people around work. They trust me when I say stuff like "PROZAC" and "COGNITIVE THERAPY" with wild eyes, so I guess I should trust them when it comes to joint health.
Mental stuff! and like... doing the dishes!
Once more I am amazed at what anti depressants can actually do to a severe depression. I've acutely aware of the studies and of how OVER PRESCRIBED anti depressants, especially the SSRI's are, but to people with severe depressions, like say... me... they work wonders. A recent study actually shed some light onto why it usually takes a month before the effect kicks in, it might be a secondary effect of forcibly raising the seretonin levels but enough of that. I caught myself doing the dishes yesterday, it was AMAZING SHIT! I mean.. I'm prone to just sitting under my table pondering how to kill myself in the most pain free way while furiously spewing angry words in my head about how unfair it is that hot girls don't dig me. But yesterday I actually did the dishes, and picked up the phone and talked a little to someone. Things are looking up.
The day I went to the gym I actually felt very good about a lot of things the rest of the day, this working out thing might become a staple of survival for me.
Oh, just in case people wonder, I have a severe depression and social anxiety
. Its all spectrum diseases but those two are the diagnoses put down on paper for me. Being someone who does this for a living I know that depression can be a lot of things, and that social anxiety can too, I realize that this is somewhat... grey-area ish but yeah. There.. and I'm getting efexor for the mind stuff, besides being ordered to work out, eat healthier and get laid by my dear colleague I'll be back with more snarky rants I guess
-me
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