ms. gordon, i'm glad we're in the same position as far as weight loss goes. i know that we can both do this! as for staying positive, i try to think of how great i'm going to feel once the weight is off. i have never been 130 pounds at this height. the lightest i've been is 139, and even then i still had some gushy parts. i'm so excited to see what my body is going to look like.
sometimes it's not enough. it seems like such a distant goal and it's hard when there's little to no tangible evidence of looking or feeling better. when i get down about myself (which i definitely do at times, believe me), i think about the people who love me. my parents, my brother, my friends, and a special someone who ought to be my boyfriend right now, but that's an entirely different can of worms. they are going to be so proud of me when i start dropping the weight -- NOT because they don't love me as i am, but because they understand how challenging this is. it's like bringing home a report card with all A's or hitting that winning home run. my pride is multiplied tenfold when those whom i love are proud of me, and to me that's the greatest high in life.
i certainly reach for that bowl of candy from time to time, and afterward i feel terrible about it. but you know what? what's done is done. i try and learn from my mistakes. then the next time i reach for that candy, i can remember how badly i felt last time i did it. i'll go for some strawberries instead. (i'm a sucker for sweets, so one thing i found that does the trick is fat free cool whip. just a little taste of that and i'm good to go, and only about 5 calories from the tiny portion that i eat).
if you are really struggling with depression, i strongly suggest talking with a professional who can really help get you through this. losing weight is not easy. having a poor self image can make it even more difficult to lose weight. i can't claim to be an expert on any of this, but i can be supportive! let's lose the pounds together
