EwAshActin's Diary

Hi there,

I just read your whole diary and I am pleased that you decided to keep a diary here, to help you.
From what I read I would suggest that you an your Mom make some healthier choices, when it comes to food, and I agree that you should be open and honest with your dad, tell him that you don't want the sweet things he buys for you, especially if he makes you feel bad about it after you give in, only to make him happy. I heard on the radio today that a study has shown that parents are oblivious to the health/weight problems of their children, so you have to tell him.

Another think I want to suggest is...please try to eat more often and during the day. Your metabolism doesn't have a chance to pick up, if you only eat once a day.
 
First of all, I would like to thank Lisa and Rachels for their comments to my last posts! It makes me feel good to know that people actually read this and have helpful suggestions!

As far as talking to my dad goes, I think it would just make him mad (kind of in a defensive way). I'd rather just deal with it. Over the years it has bothered me less, plus I think he would be annoyed if he couldn't eat the foods he wanted to b/c of me. I just learn to say "no thanks" it's working the best for me. But it was interesting that comment about parents affecting weight problems in children.

Crazy enough, I didn't really eat anything on thanksgiving. First of all, we went with my friends to her neighbors' house (which I wasn't expecting) so I felt even more self-concious about eating. Plus I didn't think their food was good. I even made a cheery pie but refused to eat it. I love bakin' 'em, but eating 'em just doesn't seem appealing. I've NEVER had pie before...maybe ice cream pie, but that's it...I know i know..weird..

The last few days I have eaten very little, mostly just out of tiredness..is that a word??? Whatever. I've been performing, yesterday I was on my feet for nine hours straight without EVER being allowed to sit down. Today it was 71/2hours. Yesterday, I didn't eat food until after the nine hours which I had o bowl of clam chowder and shared a bag of some popcorn (prolly four hand-fulls) with my mom while we watched a movie. Today I had to get up and leave in the 8ish hour of the AM. So I got something unhealthy on the weigh. I have been out of my phentamine which prevents me from craving things. So I picked up a sausage McMuffin and some O.J. now after the 71/2 hours I am prolly going to have some spagehtti(??? man I suck at spelling tonight!!!) Tomorrow is another long day inwhich I am assuming I probably won't be eating until nine o'clock again. *sigh* Well, at least being so busy doesn't allow me as much time to think about food and eating or not eating. Still, it's something I should work on....
 
Hey Ewashactin
How bout trying something like this with dad...
'Dad, I appreciate you thinking of me and buying me the cookies, and I wish I could eat them, however I am really trying hard to eat healthy right now,..I could just really use your support as this means alot to me, so when I dont eat them, could you give me a thumbs up as your encouragement means a world of difference to me".
Making the request with a positive tone that you want his assistance, this will help alleviate hurt feelings for dad and make your needs really clear to him. People get defensive when they think they are doing something wrong,...so let him know what he can do to help. I am sure he honestly has only the best intentions for you, your his girl and he loves ya.

Try taking a snack or two with you,..with your schedule, lack of eating and the cold weather you could easily get run down and get sick.
 
You're right. I'm probably making excuses with my dad. I will try your suggestion! As far as taking a snack I know I probably wouldn't eat it. When I do something somewhat active for a prolonged time that holds my attention, I have no interest in eating. Even if I try to force something down I end up getting a bit sick to my stomache. I'm sure it's all mental.
 
So, I've been sort of bad about my eating habits lately. I've been running around so much that a meal has consisted of three oreos. The last couple of days, howevere I have begun to get my act together. My mom and I sat down and tried to figure out a healthier meal plan. Doing some more resaerch I found out that people who have P.C.O.S. crave carbs more ofter (something to due with insulin level). Which would explain why I love eating spagehtti non-stop. My mom and I decided to start buying whole-wheat pasta so that way I can satisfy my carb craving and it will be healthy. Also, I'm trying a new eating plan as an experiment. Everyone usually eats maybe cereal or yogurt, something lighte for breakfeast and has the heaviets meal of the day for dinner. Well, I'm going to try and switch it around. That way, I burn the majority of food off during the day and have something small at night. This morning I ate the left over pasta I had (about a handful, which is a better portion size) and tonight when I get home if I'm still hungry I'll just have some cereal. We'll see how it goes. So far this batch of phentermine has completely killed off any appetite I might have.
 
So, today eating was bad again. I only got four hours of sleep and no time for breakfeast and excited by the fact that I was actually awake for a McDonalds Breakfeast, I got an egg McMuffin. Performed all day until about 8PM then for dinner ate about 9 pieces of buffalo chicken wings. Now my stomache feels INCREDIBLE sick. I'm rethinking eating twice a day.
 
So far today, performed again from 10:30 until 5. Had an apple, and a low fat ham and cheese sandwhich. Going to my dad's for the night. I'm think I'm going to get a chicken sandwhich.
 
Hey Mizzzzz Lady,..... :p
How are things,...? Hoping your keeping that body fueled enough to do all that performing (remember I am your on-line diet mom *lol*) Is the weight coming off? I am glad you are sticking to posting in here, your keeping the focus which is awesome...have a great week. J.
 
HI there,

I just wanted to check up on you as well, but Jennifer was a little faster:)

Hope all is well, and please eat enough (healthy foods) to keep you going, especially while working this hard:)
 
Hey!!! I'm soooo happy to hear from you!!!! Both of you!!!!!!!!! As far as my eating habits are going they sort of in a transitional period. I'm prolly still not eating the way I should be for fear of gaining weight, but it is improving, and yes I am losing some weight, although it comes off so slowly on me no matter what I do sometimes it's frustrating!!! Thank you for keeping up with me. I'll have to get some more food advise from you on what I should eat! :)
 
anytime- ask away...I might take a few days to answer, but I will try to check in on your diary frequently:)
 
I feel sort of bad that I haven't been good about keeping up with this. I've lately been having a hard time with things and have not been the best about exercising and food. Strangely enough I've lost weight, not sure pound wise, but inches at least. I think a lot of that is due to the Metformin...it took a while to kick in. I have run out of myPhentermine which has made me want to eat more than one meal a day, hopefully I can afford to pick up another bottle of that stuff. The fact that I've lost any weight now makes me more inspired, but because of the depression it's hard to motivate myself to exercise, even though I know that it's the best thing for the depression anyways. Hopefully I'll start up soon...maybe tomorrow...My birthday is coming up in 11 days...I'll be 20, which is VERY scarey to me. I'm kinda sad that older when look back and say they remember when they use to be built so well. I'll never get to say that....*sigh* oh well, gonna try and be positive and lose more inches so I can feel better about myself.
 
I was thinking about you the other day,...and I am so glad that you have come back,...dont feel bad that you have havent been here in awhile,...just feel good that you have made it back. Glad to hear about the weight loss, or inches loss,...good for you. Dont worry about turning 20!!!!! Honey, I have almost 20 years on ya,...(and I still got it going on ;) )
 
Back Again

So it has been awhile again. I was out of town in Utah at the Sunadnce Film Festival....I ate terrible, but I was happy and some how I lost 20 pounds... It's hard now. I'm home and have little to do so major depression is sinking in. Because of this I have been working out two-three times a day and eaiting very little. I have lost more weight, haven't gotten on a scale in a week, but lost inches. I just can't get past the mentality of eating will make me fat so I have to work out after each time I do. *sigh* Random question for anyone, how bad is V* juice for me?? I don't get as much vegitables as I should and I like the drink, but it has so much sodium I don't know if it's worse than nothing.
 
I don't have the answer for your question, but I just wanted to tell you...Don't feel bad about being 20. We seem to be in the same boat. I'm 20, 5'4" and started at 204lbs. I definitely know what you're going through.
 
unfortunately I do not have the answer either..... I'm 26, 5'3" and 190 lbs. (Wish I was 20! :) ) And we seem to have depression in common. Maybe it's the time of year. But since I started this forum my depression has gotten so much better! Everyone here is so inspiring. Staying dedicated to entering a post everyday in my diary keeps me going. Even when I am at the grocery store I am thinking of everyone here in the forum. Try not to dwell on things and it should get better. Jot down everything you do (eat/exercise) and we'll be here for you! Before you know it, you will be so proud of yourself and keeping yourself busy, you wont have time to be depressed!
:)
 
tomato and vegatable juice....(mostly tomato)
I copied this from fitday.com

Nutrition Facts
Amount Per 1 cup
Calories 45.98
Calories from Fat 1.96

% Daily Value *
Total Fat 0.218g 0%
Saturated Fat 0.0315g 0%
Polyunsaturated Fat 0.092g
Monounsaturated Fat 0.0339g
Cholesterol 0mg 0%
Sodium 653.4mg 27%
Potassium 467.06mg 13%

Total Carbohydrate 11.01g 4%
Dietary Fiber 1.94g 8%

Protein 1.52g 3%
Alcohol 0g
Vitamin A 57 % Vitamin C 112 %
Calcium 3 % Iron 6 %
Vitamin D 0 % Vitamin E 2 %
Thiamin 5 % Riboflavin 3 %
Niacin 9 % Folate 13 %
Vitamin B-6 17 % Vitamin B-12 0 %
Phosphorus 4 % Magnesium 7 %
Zinc 3 % Copper 24 %

*Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet. Your daily values may be higher or lower depending on your calorie needs.

Is there a lower sodium version???????
My take is that real veggies are always the best,...but with this at least some veggies are getting in you. If your eating fairly low soduim otherwise throughout the day,..I dont think you are going too overboard with a 1 cup daily of the V8
 
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well Mizz lady...glad to see you back,..congrats on the weight loss. Is the depression due to weight,..or over all feeling of being blue. Have you talked to your doctor about it?
The world is your osyter baby,..as you are definelty a pearl!!!!!!!
 
wow. thanks. it always helps to know thaere is someone else who knows what it feels like! :)
 
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