Hello Everyone - I am a newbie and thought I would come out of the shadows and introduce myself. I am 35, married and have one child who is seven. I've fought many addictions in my past and have been successful with every one of them...except food.
I eat when I am hungry, when I am happy, when I am sad, when I am angry...whenever. Restaurants are a bit part of my problem and although I do cook and know how to cook healthy food, I usually end up eating too much of it which defeats the whole purpose.
I have tried all the fad diets and have spent hundreds on nutritionists, dieticians, supplements, gym memberships, personal trainers...you name it. Whatever I have tried I haven't succeeded and I think the constant attempts and failures are starting to take a toll on me. I sit and think to myself "Why dont I care enough about myself to take care of myself?" People I know who are healthy and fit have a way of putting themselves first before anyone or anything else...why can't I seem to do that? My family is great, but most of them are overweight too and most events we share involve food and a lot of it.
Lately though I have felt myself to withdraw and that is so unlike me. One day at work I stopped myself from walking to the mailbox because I didnt want to walk past some people I saw in the parking lot. I've stopped volunteering at my daughter's school because I am afraid of her being teased about her fat mom. I see my reflection in windows and I am horrified...is that 'really' me? Sometimes my daughter plays with my cell phone and snaps videos of me and when I replay them I just cant believe how fat, old and frumpy I look.
My most recent attempt to lose weight started back in July and involved working with a personal trainer 3 times a week. I did get results, but since I continued to eat the way I have been eating they were short lived. Soon old habits crept in and the gym visits became less and less until the trainer gave up on me and I gave up on myself (again) around Thanksgiving. I put on about 20 lbs. during the holidays alone.
Last week I signed on with a medically supervised weight loss clinic. Today is day 3 and so far everything is going well and I have a small glimmer of hope. I'm taking it day by day and my goal is to feel comfortable in a swimsuit by this summer.
What I am hoping to find here are people who can relate to me and vice versa. Any tips or insight anyone has is greatly appreciated and I LOVE to read success stories - very inspiring. Nice to meet all of you and thank you for reading my post.
I eat when I am hungry, when I am happy, when I am sad, when I am angry...whenever. Restaurants are a bit part of my problem and although I do cook and know how to cook healthy food, I usually end up eating too much of it which defeats the whole purpose.
I have tried all the fad diets and have spent hundreds on nutritionists, dieticians, supplements, gym memberships, personal trainers...you name it. Whatever I have tried I haven't succeeded and I think the constant attempts and failures are starting to take a toll on me. I sit and think to myself "Why dont I care enough about myself to take care of myself?" People I know who are healthy and fit have a way of putting themselves first before anyone or anything else...why can't I seem to do that? My family is great, but most of them are overweight too and most events we share involve food and a lot of it.
Lately though I have felt myself to withdraw and that is so unlike me. One day at work I stopped myself from walking to the mailbox because I didnt want to walk past some people I saw in the parking lot. I've stopped volunteering at my daughter's school because I am afraid of her being teased about her fat mom. I see my reflection in windows and I am horrified...is that 'really' me? Sometimes my daughter plays with my cell phone and snaps videos of me and when I replay them I just cant believe how fat, old and frumpy I look.
My most recent attempt to lose weight started back in July and involved working with a personal trainer 3 times a week. I did get results, but since I continued to eat the way I have been eating they were short lived. Soon old habits crept in and the gym visits became less and less until the trainer gave up on me and I gave up on myself (again) around Thanksgiving. I put on about 20 lbs. during the holidays alone.
Last week I signed on with a medically supervised weight loss clinic. Today is day 3 and so far everything is going well and I have a small glimmer of hope. I'm taking it day by day and my goal is to feel comfortable in a swimsuit by this summer.
What I am hoping to find here are people who can relate to me and vice versa. Any tips or insight anyone has is greatly appreciated and I LOVE to read success stories - very inspiring. Nice to meet all of you and thank you for reading my post.