So, today, I weigh 12st 2lb, that's 170lbs. I am 5'3" tall, so this puts me on the borderline of obese according to the BMI scale.
And that is a very difficult thing to write. I've never really seen myself as a big girl, but each month fewer things in the "normal" (Whatever that is) shops fit me, without having to ask the assistant to bring out a bigger size. Each month it's a little harder to heave myself out of the sofa. I'm increasing my risk of a whole bunch of scary diseases that I already have family history of, I don't have enough energy, my skin isn't looking brilliant and....well, enough is enough.
I'll be 24 in a week or two, and I'm starting my new job as a trainee chartered accountant in late August. I want to start that job in the best physical and emotional state possible, as it's going to be hard work!
Let's look back a few years...
When I finished school at 18, I was 9st4 (130lbs) and I thought I was fat and ugly. I wasn't, clearly that's a healthy weight, but perhaps an all girls school together with having a bunch of very sweet, and also very slim and beautiful friends made me think I was.
I started Uni in 2002, and within a year I was 140lbs. Not such a big deal, but I was horrified. Just before my 20th birthday, I made my only successful attempt so far to lose weight. I took up jogging, stopped eating junk food and went down to 8st12 (124lbs!) I looked good, I felt good....and then...and then...
What went wrong? Not really sure. Winter came, it got cold and rainy, I didn't want to go out, I just wanted to sleep and eat. In other words, I wussed out, thinking I'd done enough, and I'd just stay that lovely weight. WRONG!
By my 21st birthday, I was back to 140lbs. My 22nd, around 145. And in the last two years?
I finished uni, got my first real job and moved in with my lovely boyfriend. I was concentrating so much on all these changes that I completely ignored what I ate and how much exercise I got. My man is a tall bear of a man, and he eats for England, so my little portions next to his looked tiny, but they grew, and grew, and so did I. I'm now 170lbs. Not good. And if I can do that to myself in 2 years, what about the next ten??
So, time to do something about it. No more fads that last a week then giving up with sad excuses. No more going up just one more size...
My goal is 120lbs, like it was the first time I nearly made it. I think it's best to divide that up into smaller chunks, so it being June 8th now, but August 8th, I want to be 10st7lb, (147lbs), 9st4 (130) by October 8th, then goal weight by Christmas, thats 8st8, or 120lbs.
How to do it? A combination of fitness dvds when it's not so nice outside, so I can't use the "it's raining" excuse, and on the good days, getting back out there and running again. I only work part time right now, so there's zero excuse not to do this at least 5 days out of 7. I will eat my fruit and vegetables, I will leave the cakes and crisps for my man. I will practice portion control!
So, that's about it for now. Didn't think I could write that much!! Would love to hear from some other people, I've been lurking on this site for a few weeks, and I can see how much the support helps the people on here, and I think that's what I need to keep me on the straight and narrow, and also to give me inspiration! You all seem such a lovely bunch, and it's nice to be around some people going through the same things as me!
Ciao for now,
Z xx
And that is a very difficult thing to write. I've never really seen myself as a big girl, but each month fewer things in the "normal" (Whatever that is) shops fit me, without having to ask the assistant to bring out a bigger size. Each month it's a little harder to heave myself out of the sofa. I'm increasing my risk of a whole bunch of scary diseases that I already have family history of, I don't have enough energy, my skin isn't looking brilliant and....well, enough is enough.
I'll be 24 in a week or two, and I'm starting my new job as a trainee chartered accountant in late August. I want to start that job in the best physical and emotional state possible, as it's going to be hard work!
Let's look back a few years...
When I finished school at 18, I was 9st4 (130lbs) and I thought I was fat and ugly. I wasn't, clearly that's a healthy weight, but perhaps an all girls school together with having a bunch of very sweet, and also very slim and beautiful friends made me think I was.
I started Uni in 2002, and within a year I was 140lbs. Not such a big deal, but I was horrified. Just before my 20th birthday, I made my only successful attempt so far to lose weight. I took up jogging, stopped eating junk food and went down to 8st12 (124lbs!) I looked good, I felt good....and then...and then...
What went wrong? Not really sure. Winter came, it got cold and rainy, I didn't want to go out, I just wanted to sleep and eat. In other words, I wussed out, thinking I'd done enough, and I'd just stay that lovely weight. WRONG!
By my 21st birthday, I was back to 140lbs. My 22nd, around 145. And in the last two years?
I finished uni, got my first real job and moved in with my lovely boyfriend. I was concentrating so much on all these changes that I completely ignored what I ate and how much exercise I got. My man is a tall bear of a man, and he eats for England, so my little portions next to his looked tiny, but they grew, and grew, and so did I. I'm now 170lbs. Not good. And if I can do that to myself in 2 years, what about the next ten??
So, time to do something about it. No more fads that last a week then giving up with sad excuses. No more going up just one more size...
My goal is 120lbs, like it was the first time I nearly made it. I think it's best to divide that up into smaller chunks, so it being June 8th now, but August 8th, I want to be 10st7lb, (147lbs), 9st4 (130) by October 8th, then goal weight by Christmas, thats 8st8, or 120lbs.
How to do it? A combination of fitness dvds when it's not so nice outside, so I can't use the "it's raining" excuse, and on the good days, getting back out there and running again. I only work part time right now, so there's zero excuse not to do this at least 5 days out of 7. I will eat my fruit and vegetables, I will leave the cakes and crisps for my man. I will practice portion control!
So, that's about it for now. Didn't think I could write that much!! Would love to hear from some other people, I've been lurking on this site for a few weeks, and I can see how much the support helps the people on here, and I think that's what I need to keep me on the straight and narrow, and also to give me inspiration! You all seem such a lovely bunch, and it's nice to be around some people going through the same things as me!
Ciao for now,
Z xx
