**end of the line**

4) to stop my brain mid-thought when i start thinking about eating unhealthy tonight! (one step at a time!)

Yep this really helps!!
Good luck with the things luck helps with!!
Strength and determination to you for the rest!! :)
 
Hellloooooo! *waving madly* Just checking in! Great goals for tomorrow (and this week!) I'm right there with you!
 
thanx so much guys!

so i did well last night but i ditched my studies =-( gunna try again tonight...still have time.

but i figured out one reason why the scale is hesitant to move these past few days....it's that time of week...and so that means i wont be checking the scale until monday. but i missed the gym yesterday so i will b doin both yoga and the gym today. trying to stay on track

FOOD:

B/L= 1 slice pizza + salad + ranch= 600

D: sandwich + salad = 400

EXCERSIZE: gym elliptical: 400
vineyasa yoga: 500
 
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so i was re-reading my behaivior modification post i put up earlier and the answer finally dawned on me as to why i am feeling non-motivated lately...

because i think that it's not the fact that i'm fearing losing weight that's the problem, but more the fact that i fear not being able to eat/binge when i want to. to actually change my eating addiction-which is truly what it is scares my subconsious. How do I know i am addicted to food? because when i dont get my fix (great example christmas binge i did) i eat everything in sight for the longest possible time i can. I dont enjoy the food, i enjoy the feeling of eating all that I want. I need to wake up and realize that it is a problem I have and the addiction needs to stop. I can't let it run my life, i have to have some form of control. I screw up because I dont realize the harm I am doing to myself, I think it's ok-it's only an excess of food...when it's not. it's an emotional crutch which I can't keep using to make me feel better about my life. i need to fix the other facets of my life (worries about work/school) and stop relying on food to numb my guilt/fear.

next time i think about reaching for food-I have to remember the severity of this addiction and how I have never been able to concour it-but now it ends...
 
This totally makes sense to me. :)

It's so easy to see overeating as just another issue among many but I believe you have it right when you see it as crucial. If you persist and if you consciously drum better ideas into your head enough and follow through on them, you can get control of this thing. It does matter... and you can do it!!
 
I totally understand!! Over-eating can be and is a real addiction. Just concentrate on making it one day/ one hour/ one minute at a time. I know is sounds cliché but that doesn’t mean it isn’t valid. I have an addictive personality and I am a recovering alcoholic. To be honest, I think it is way easier not to drink than it is not to binge eat. But they both are equally as bad for you. Have you seen “Super Size Me” that documentary about the guy who ate McDonalds for a few weeks for all meals. By the end of his experiment his liver was showing signs of distress. The docs said that it would be something that he would expect from a drinker but was kinda shocked that it was due to eating loads of junk food.

But you have taken the hardest step by admitting that you have a problem. So now you can take back control!!!

<<<<<<<<<BIG Hug>>>>>>>>>> Hang in there!!

Michelle
 
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It's crazy how strong the food addiction is. I just sit there at night doing what I regularly do and not having my snacks like I used to and my head just screams at me "go get a snack... anything!" I hate it and it is hard to get through. I have been lucky so far but my motivation is up. It seems though today is not that bad.. nor was yesterday but everyday I think about the 2 bowls of cereal I would eat for breakfest and how I really wanted to use a mixing bowl for cereal instead of the bowl I was using so I could get more. It's crazy! I feel so much more in control now:) You are doing well and if we stave off the must have food thoughts they will subside. It's a crazy mental battle! but we can do it:) talk yourself through it and know you are eating for your health... not your comfort!
 
POPCORN!

Air popped popcorn is a fantastic treat when you have the munchies.
Just dont put much of anything on. I buy the microwave ones, they have a few more calories but its easier to read the packet on how many it contains, and it has the flavouring :D
 
i know how you feel. I really wish i could eat whatever i wanted to. I used to eat in one day; 2 mcdonald's value meals, a plate of nachos, 2 bowls of cereal, as well as random other snacks. But i never use to even take time to taste them. Its all about how you motivate yourself. All the bad things about all these yucky foods. Now i realize that the 2 mcdonalds meals i used to eat for one meal... were about 3 days worth of food.
 
thanx guys, mental motivation is definitely the key

last night sum up:

excersize was right on target
drank way too much and got drunken munchies-no more drinkin for this girl for a long time!
didn't get much sleep last night (went to bed @ 2:30)
-went over my calorie target for yesterday....but I won a few of my battles yesterday when i was sober...so today is a new day.

goals for today:
1) stay focused @ night w/ eating
2) do yoga & cardio @ the gym
3) clean up my room (rooms are great metaphore's on how your dealing with your life...)
4) eat slowly

FOOD:
wonton soup for lunch
dinner: salad/sandwich
 
Just wanted to drop in and say hey, I see ya around everywhere so I wanted to take a peek...you went out and enjoyed yourself , nothing wrong wiht doing that every once in awhile...I read yor supportive words in other's diaries, you sound liek you are a great supporter which = a good person...your also a mommy, right, that explains alot in itself!!! Have a good day!!!
 
I am sooooo tired at work, but I'm going to the gym for my lunch break...then it's 400 cals on the elliptical then back to work till 5. then 5:30 till 7 yoga then home.

I think that I should try to make it a manditory habit to sign online after I go to yoga to give myself a booster reminder of why I'm doing what i'm doing. it may be what I need to stay focused...
 
it's definitely relaxing, but the type I do is a bit more vigorous-builds muscle and a sweat! but the relaxing part @ the end is the payoff
 
I am sooooo tired at work, but I'm going to the gym for my lunch break...then it's 400 cals on the elliptical then back to work till 5. then 5:30 till 7 yoga then home.

I think that I should try to make it a manditory habit to sign online after I go to yoga to give myself a booster reminder of why I'm doing what i'm doing. it may be what I need to stay focused...

You are making a pretty big effort right now! :)

Great idea to check in here regularly. Getting online here sure helps me heaps!!
 
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