Okay, so I'm Ashley, I'm 25. I need to make a life change with the way i eat and my excercise habits for my future an little boy J's future. I know that if I carry on the way I am well I'm heading for downward spiral towards all kinds of health problems. Also I don't want the same bad habits to form my sons life.
I suppose I should start where I started my unhealthy relationship.
As a child I was a skinny little whipet with long hair, everyone said I looked like a boy. I acted like on too, I was into everythin climbing trees, looking for worms and spiders. I was brought up with my cousin he is 2 years older than me and we are like brother and sister. We were always causing mischief then he got a little older and stopped spending time "playing out" when I got to 13 I joined the Army cadets that kept me active and i still looked like a boy with long hair. Then at 14 pubity hit and i had boobs and a bum. My bra size jumped pretty much every fortnight at 15 i steadied and was 34G and still really slim but with a bum. Id gone from looking like a boy to having a womens body in the space of 3 ish months it was hard I got alot of unwanted attention. I kinda gave myself a complex, I wouldn't do PE anymore because the boys would just stare and shout stuff and girls called me. This transfered to the cadets and I made excuses. As it got worse I cut school alot. Distanced myself from boys because didnt know if they genuinley liked me or just my big boobs lol
My Mam is an awesome cook she makes great food and always balanced meals and portion size was pefect. I have always loved my food but when all the stuff at school started happening I stopped excercising and probably ate a little more than previously. By time I was 19 I gained 2/3 dress size going from an 8/10 to a 14/16 I hovered around 10st 7lb - 11st 7lb. I then met my boyfriend. Him and his family have a really bad attitude to food. They deep fried everything, processed and portion size was massive. I would eat as much as I could and slowly gained more wieght. I spent alot of time at his parents until we got our own place and since then I have yo-yo'd and at my worse 16 stone which is astronomical. When i gave birth to my son I was 12st 10lb I lost more weight and got to just over 11.
Then it all went wrong, Ive had a really bad patch with other half and I eat for comfort and I knowI've gained ALOT of wieght, Im probably just under 15 stone.
I know i need to change my habits for my own sake and my sons, I cannot let the emotional side dictate how i eat. Thats why ive started my diary to make a change and try and control my emotional side. Im going to wiegh myself first thing in the morning and im dreading it!! Wish me luck, i will need it!!
I suppose I should start where I started my unhealthy relationship.
As a child I was a skinny little whipet with long hair, everyone said I looked like a boy. I acted like on too, I was into everythin climbing trees, looking for worms and spiders. I was brought up with my cousin he is 2 years older than me and we are like brother and sister. We were always causing mischief then he got a little older and stopped spending time "playing out" when I got to 13 I joined the Army cadets that kept me active and i still looked like a boy with long hair. Then at 14 pubity hit and i had boobs and a bum. My bra size jumped pretty much every fortnight at 15 i steadied and was 34G and still really slim but with a bum. Id gone from looking like a boy to having a womens body in the space of 3 ish months it was hard I got alot of unwanted attention. I kinda gave myself a complex, I wouldn't do PE anymore because the boys would just stare and shout stuff and girls called me. This transfered to the cadets and I made excuses. As it got worse I cut school alot. Distanced myself from boys because didnt know if they genuinley liked me or just my big boobs lol
My Mam is an awesome cook she makes great food and always balanced meals and portion size was pefect. I have always loved my food but when all the stuff at school started happening I stopped excercising and probably ate a little more than previously. By time I was 19 I gained 2/3 dress size going from an 8/10 to a 14/16 I hovered around 10st 7lb - 11st 7lb. I then met my boyfriend. Him and his family have a really bad attitude to food. They deep fried everything, processed and portion size was massive. I would eat as much as I could and slowly gained more wieght. I spent alot of time at his parents until we got our own place and since then I have yo-yo'd and at my worse 16 stone which is astronomical. When i gave birth to my son I was 12st 10lb I lost more weight and got to just over 11.
Then it all went wrong, Ive had a really bad patch with other half and I eat for comfort and I knowI've gained ALOT of wieght, Im probably just under 15 stone.
I know i need to change my habits for my own sake and my sons, I cannot let the emotional side dictate how i eat. Thats why ive started my diary to make a change and try and control my emotional side. Im going to wiegh myself first thing in the morning and im dreading it!! Wish me luck, i will need it!!
haha i wish!
Im going to weigh myself today see how im doing, but not going to take uch heed to it as its only been 4 day and 2 of them havent been great hahah