Emma's Diary

I get really really bad headaches if I don't eat on a regular basis. An extreme diet is quite tempting to me, but much like you I am a perfectionist and I fear that if I 'fell of the wagon' even a bit, I'd be more likely to binge. Sounds like you are doing great though, enjoy the workout!
 
Thanks guys, yeah, I didn't realise it would be so intense when I signed up for this thing, lol. If nothing else, it will get me into the habit of exercising regularly again and cutting down on wine. Those two things alone would be a huge achievement.
 
Definitely eat more if you feel like passing out - that is not cool! But hopefully the exercise helps you out :)
 
I went to my first class this evening and nearly fainted from the strain. Clearly, my body cannot cope with all the changes at once. I also have low blood pressure, so less food + moves I haven't done in years = fainting. Anyway, I've decided to adapt my plan again, as I can't go through every day like this.

I'm going to forego the intense exercise classes for the moment and go for an hour long walk in the evening instead. I'm still going to go to the weigh-in class, but honestly, if I don't have big results, it's fine. I just have to get my groove back into the healthy lifestyle, but it won't happen in 3 days.

Cooked a nice veggie omelette when I got back and had a slice of spelt bread with butter and apricot jam, so back to normal again.

Thanks for the encouraging comments. It's not as easy as it looks! :)
 
Not good! Yes definitely change your food intake - fainting is not good at all and not eating enough means less energy and that results in the workouts not helping you at all which defeats the purpose.
 
Hey guys, I'm going to wrap up the diary cos I think I'm better off focusing my energies on something other than talking about food. I was so ready to quit the program today, but I'm going to stick with, but my version of it. Maybe I'll come back here after my successful weight loss, to give you an update, fingers crossed. Anyway, thanks for your support and comments, I wish all of you success.
 
Hey everyone.

I don't know if you're interested, but I thought I'd pop in to give an update on my progress 4 months down the line.

I stuck with my 6 week program, it was really hard, but I got into the exercise part and it gave me the kickstart I needed. I then had to go away for two weeks with work, which always involves eating loads of meals out, but I managed to go for a run nearly every morning, so I didn't let my fitness levels drop, and I was delighted with that.

When I got back, I rejoined the gym, and had a good routine going of about 3 sessions a week. I haven't gone now in a few weeks because I am extremely busy with other projects, but I went for a run yesterday, and will keep that up while my hands are tied. I think I will probably stop my membership at the extreme gym, as while it was brilliant to get me started on this journey towards improved health, I find the classes a huge strain, maybe too difficult, and this is when my fitness levels are quite good. I just thought my face was getting a stressed out look, and that is not what I want to happen. But I am happy to go running/swimming and doing gentler exercise classes like zumba in the regular gym I go to.

A real example of the progress I have made in fitness is that last September, I attempted to hike up a small mountain and I couldn't make it. I went back in November and managed to get to the top, but it was a huge effort. Two weeks ago, I climbed the mountain again with my parents and I literally flew up. I found it so easy! It was such a great moment for me.

As for food, it is an ongoing struggle, but I definitely find myself eating less now. Before, I might buy 3 bars of chocolate in the shop and have them all eaten in the car before even getting in the door, now, I only buy 1. I've really tried to stop this idea of being 'perfect', having a perfect day without sugar, cooking the perfect healthy meal, etc. It's just so damaging, and has really kept me stuck for a long, long time. Now, I am nowhere near 'perfect', but I am making better choices and I feel like exercising even if I haven't eaten all the right things that day, or got up early enough, or all the other rules I make for myself to try to exert some control over this crazy world. I really am starting to let go a little bit.

Anyway, since January, I have lost 16 pounds. I just weighed myself this morning, and I was 12 stone 12 pounds (180). I haven't been below 13 stone in about 4 years I'd say. To say I am thrilled and feeling like a sexy biatch is putting it mildly. I now only have another stone (14 pounds) to go till my BMI is back to normal. I really can't believe it. I have lost roughly a pound a week, which is recommended, and while it might seem like really slow progress, the time has flown and I feel so much better now.

All of these physical changes have inspired me in other ways, and I've finally quit the job I've worked in for the last 6 years that I really hated. Since handing in my notice, it's like another weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and this weight is shifting from my body as well. I don't know what's next, but I'm really excited.

Anyway, just thought this progress update might be helpful to someone and give them some ideas. I wish you all great success on your own journeys.
 
Hey GGP, really enjoyed reading your post.
Awesome job with the mountain climb. I don't have any mountains near where I live so I have to only go with the rolling hills around here.
Congrats on losing the 16 lbs. and good luck on losing the last 14. I'll be rooting for you.
I see you said you stopped going to the gym and started working out more at home. We all have our ways that work best for each of us, just as long as you stick to it, I wish you the best.
I'll check up on you off and on to watch your progress, so keep posting up. I wish you all the luck.
 
Thanks GreyGhostHunter, I will come back in a month or two with another update.
 
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