Emily's weightloss diary

Todays food:
3 pieces toast (300)
1 glass orange juice (150)
2 mandarins (150)
1 muesli bar (150)
1 6inch chicken sub (350?)
3 subway cookies (600...ugh, cant believe I'd waste almost half my daily allowance on 3 cookies, they weren't even the fresh hot ones)
Total= 1600

Note on my mood: I'm kinda in an apathetic mood about food/my weight these days. As in not a 'I give up' kinda mood where I get all depressed and shove anything down my gob, but not all 'yeah lets do this!' either. More like, I don't really care about food, if I'm physically hungry, or if there's food offered to me I'll probably eat it, but I don't think "Oh my god I want chocolate so bad right now". I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing. I mean if I look at todays intake, that's pretty standard for me these days. I mean, what I eat is not preplanned, and not healthy, but I'm unlikely to go over maintenance (about 1900) because I only think to eat if I'm physically hungry. I guess it's fairly easily explainable as a side effect of times of high stress/activity (for the record I am obsessive-compulsive, a bit of an over-achiever, must be in control of everything and everyone, and if I sleep more than 7 hours a night, even during holidays, I feel so guilty about being unproductive I get physically nauseous....come to think of it I'm like a key candidate for anorexia, how did I go so far the other way? Lol).

Anyway, just kinda musing about the fact that the less I care about weight loss and eating healthy, the more likely I am to.

Meh, whatever works I guess.
 
Whoop whoop, finally hit 132 (60kg) mark! Uploaded some progress pics to go with it, but I really cant see much difference from the last ones. Also uploaded a photo of me in an old dress I can (almost) fit into again because the too-small shorts I take my progress pics in really aren't flattering, and the whole point of progress photos is to like the way you look now right?

Couple of things I've realised:
1) I started gaining weight when I was about 16, so I've kinda taken photos of myself then as an estimate of what I wanna look like at the end, but I've realised that my body shape has actually changed in that time, regardless of weight. For one thing, my hips have gone from about 31 to 35 inches (yeah I was a late bloomer) in that time. Also even though I work out now I'm not playing sport like 4 times a week, so I'm going to be nowhere as near muscly. Basically I need to not have it set in my mind that I'll look like I used to
2) I remember when I decided to lose weight that I wanted to reach 125lbs but if I was happy at 130 I'd stay there. Unfortunately I can now tell that I'm not gonna be happy in 2lbs so I still probs have at least 5 to go. Dammit.
 
Oh also it's probably time I posted my measurements, and I'll try do that once every few weeks from now.

Chest: 34, up from 32 two months ago (eh? How does that work?..Not a miscalculation either because I have been measuring at regular intervals)
Waist: 27, down from 30 two months ago (waist is by far the easiest place for me to lose, another 5lbs and I should have a completely flat stomach, thighs and butt will take a hell of a lot more effort to jigglyfy)
Hips: 35, same (don't think I'll see any change there, maybe only 1 or 2 if my love handles go down
Thighs: 22, down from 22.5 (dammit, why wont these change??? Stupid muscly thighs)

Anyway, my current chest/waist/hip measurements are 34:27:35. I'll obviously never make the 'perfect' 36:24:36, but my end goal should be somewhere around the 33:25:35 mark, so pretty damn close
 
Great work Emily! Those pics are amazing - I think you look great now but I understand wanting perfection! I'm a little bit of a perfectionist myself but not so much regarding my health - just everything else I can control in my life! Have a great weekend and keep it up!
 
Thanks Chubbygirl. Oh I'm the same, how come it's so much easier to be a perfectionist about everything else but weight/health?!



Okay so today was one of the worst on record. Basically I did NOT feel like doing my 20 or so planned hours of work so I kept getting distracted and doing other stuff, mainly eating. Not gonna calculate calories properly, but I had a block of chocolate (500), icecream (400), yoghurt and berries (200), pad see ew (which I made, so proud of myself for that!) (600), pizza (500) and cereal (300)...about 2500 altogether. Oh and 8 cups of strong black coffee...it appears that sleep is out of the question tonight, but that was kinda the point anyway. Anyway, just realised that updating this is just another way of distracting myself from my work as I have been all day so I'm gonna end it here, will update on Tuesday.
 
Thanks Amsterdam!


Okay today I feel absolutely s**t, I am COMPLETELY cutting caffeine from my life, going cold turkey, from about 6/700mg of caffeine a day. Have the worlds worst headache and I'm all shaky. Ugh. Good news is that the 2 weeks of about 4 hours sleep a night are over. I might be looking at even about 6 or 7 hours tonight, woooo. On the food side, I've been out of the house about 16 hours a day and I haven't had much money so I haven't been able to buy food, and I hate making my lunch, so for the most part I've been eating a tonne of rice thins, muesli bars, mandarins, and scones. Pretty bland combination really, but its just the food thats most accessible. Think my weight is still probs about 132, haven't had a chance to check though. Will try update a little more frequently now.
 
Ugh I've gained! I may lose at a ridiculously slow rate, but I don't think that I've gained since starting this diary until now. Devooo. The scales are currently reading at 134lbs, which is a 2lb gain. Hopefully its not correct, but I can tell that I have put on a little, even if that isn't correct. To be honest eating just hasn't been a priority for me lately, I haven't been counting calories, although I have only been eating when I'm hungry so I wouldn't have expected myself to be over. Haven't exercised AT ALL for 2 weeks either so that cant be helping. Okay, time to kick things into gear and get below 132 in 2 weeks time.

Ughhh so much frustration though, I mean my end goal is 128, it shouldn't be so hard to get from 132 to there without slipping up. Those last few pounds really are so much more difficult to budge.
 
Not that I've been really keeping up with posting my daily intake but anyway:

1 bowl cereal (300)
1 Cup of instant soup and 1 bread roll (400)
1 Biscuit (80)
Small scoop icecream with berries and passionfruit (400)
Chips and chicken sanwich (600?)

1780, not great but I went for an hour run

Thats all :)
 
Hello I just dropping by to see how you are doin!! I haven't been doing that great myself I am seriously lacking motivation and I have a hard time convincing myself to workout and I don't like the results I am seing lol what a vicious circle!!!! How about we make this week the greatest????
 
Verobc said:
Hello I just dropping by to see how you are doin!! I haven't been doing that great myself I am seriously lacking motivation and I have a hard time convincing myself to workout and I don't like the results I am seing lol what a vicious circle!!!! How about we make this week the greatest????
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Yeah that's the same as me, I wouldn't say I've fallen off the wagon or anything, I'm just feeling my motivation slowly slip away and I'm getting complacent.

Okay, how about we both make a deal to work out every day this week. Even if it's just getting up and walking round the block for 20 minutes I think doing something active everyday should boost our motivation. You in? And if I do it without skipping any days I'm gonna reward myself with a relaxing hour long bubble bath...no studying lecture notes while I'm in there or anything!
 
Ok your' on let's go for it....I walked 30 min at lunch yesterday and then I had to go up and down the stairs like 20 times with a full laundry basket!
My reward will be buying a couple of shirts I have really nothing to wear for this season unless I go and unpack my maternity clothes lol I would flip out if they still fit lol!
 
Sorry to hear you aren't feeling the weight loss thing this week. I was that way all last week, so I know exactly how you feel. I'll tell you though, I drug my butt out of bed yesterday morning and did my exercises and that made all the difference! I think blowing your routine is what gets your mood in a funk and then you don't feel like doing it, you know?

Give yourself a good shake, get back on track, and you'll feel better in no time!
 
Okay my exercise today and yesterday was walking to/from the train station instead of driving (environmental too! lol), its about 1/2 hour each way so 1hr total both days. Plus walking to uni from the train station at the other end, and walking around uni all day. Probably about a total of 4 hours walking each day!

Hey Mizzie thanks for the encouragement. I think my main problem is just that I'm so busy at the moment, so when I get home at 11, and know I have to leave at 5:30 the next morning I'm not particularly keen to pack my lunch for the next day, or make myself dinner, I'm more likely just to scoff down some fast food. I don't even like Macdonalds/KFC/Greasy Chinese food, I literally only eat it because it's easy. Also having no spare time means no time to exercise. Its just frustrating, but I think I'm getting back on track, forcing myself to do incidental exercise when I can, like walking to the train station, but I tell ya that is no fun at 5:30am when its still pitch black out.
 
Okay I'm feeling right back on track and motivated again!

Just went for an hour walk/jog, jogging half the time at 11km per hour on incline of 3, and walking at 6.5km per hour on incline of 6. Using the incline is my new technique for preventing shin splints cause for some reason I don't seem to get them when the incline is up, probably cause I have to slow down a little.

One thing I think I need to add to my workout is situps because I figured I had some decent stomach muscles hiding under there, but if I did they really ought to be starting to show themselves by now! Okay, promise I will do 100 a day from now on, even if I don't work out (figure that will be a pretty good way of waking myself up in the morning). On a positive note one change I can notice from before I started working out is that my butt is getting hella perky. Like not flat or smaller cause I would hate that, but I can really notice the muscle growing underneath the flub. Bubble butt here I come haha.

On a frustrated note, its less than 1 month until winter and its still somewhere between 23-28 degrees Celsius most days, what the frig? I would love to be able to jump on the treadmill and not be sweating profusely 2 minutes later! Ah well its probably a good thing though seeing as I'm not going to fit back into my skinny jeans for about another 5lbs, ugh.

On the weight front I'm back up to 134 again! But some of that is most definitely water retention so I'm not going to take any weight as correct for a week or so.

Yay for renewed enthusiasm!
Yay for killer workout tracks! (Mr Oizo remix of 'Shoes', and Laidback Luke remix of 'Been a long time' anyone?)
Yay for 8 hours sleep!
Yay for having time to post this!
Yay for the weekend!
 
Okay in order to maximize my productivity I'm banning myself from all unnecessary internet activity for the next two weeks, including this forum (I know I don't spend that much time on here anyway, but I feel that a blanket ban on all non-uni/work related sites is necessary). I'll allow myself to post once the Tuesday after next, hopefully to report a 1lb loss.
Other conditions of my productivity revamp includes going to bed at 11pm even if I'm not finished my work, and getting up at 5am to work out for 1/2 hour, so hopefully this sort of regularized sleeping patterns will make me more likely to work out every day if only for a short period of time. I'm also going to schedule 15 minutes a night for packing my lunch for the next day, and I'll plan the weeks meals ahead so I'm less likely to make on the spot bad choices. By the way I am fully aware that I am a bit of a time management/planning nazi but it's just what works for me.

Anyway today is off to good start, 300 cals burnt on treadmill and 650 cals consumed by (and including) lunch. Feeling good. Will be back here Tues after next!
 
Okay haven't been on here in a while; eating is kinda dodgy healthwise, weight is down a couple of lbs, exercise hardly happening. Basically I'm in one of my 'food is nothing more than fuel to get you through uni and other commitments phases. I tend to keep 2-3 muesli bar type things on me at all times so that I can snack on them during classes/meetings and not have to actually take the time to make/buy lunch. Also I've been skipping breakfast a lot because I just really don't feel like eating if I leave the house before 6am which I mostly have been. Basically I try and concentrate my calories into one big meal a day, just to 'get them out of the way'
Today was pretty standard:
Up at 5:30
Banana bread at 10
Muesli bar and sultanas and dried apples at 12
Mandarin, another muesli bar and 4 corn thins at 3
Chicken breast and steamed veggies at 8

Not great eating, but (just under) my daily calories usually.

Anyway, might not really post here anymore unless I feel like I have any backslides. I feel pretty happy with where my body is at at the moment, and I don't really feel like there's a fatty inside me ready to burst out at any moment. The main thing will be keeping up my exercise now that its getting into winter, but I really enjoy it and lets face it Australia doesn't get THAT cold, so if you Americans can force yourself to get out in the snow surely I can get out in 19 degree celcius. Anyway, maybe see you soon, I'll see how I go without.
 
Okay so exams are over, I've moved house, and a lot of my major commitments have been put on hold for the winter holidays. So I have four weeks of relative freedom, and I want to put it to good use. In the month or two that I've been gone from here I've stayed the same weight (I think, I don't have a scale at the new place), But I haven't exercised at all, and my eating has been all right, but I think it can be improved. So I'm going to use this site for the next month to try and reach some mini-goals:
1) Drop 1kg (Approx 1700 cals a day)
2) Exercise 3 times a week...maybe 4
3) Cut chocolate and other crap from my diet, eat vegetables with 2 meals a day

Minor stuff, but I just think accountability will help.
That's all for now :)
 
Well that's awkward. I went to take some starting measurements for my little one month project, and realised I don't have scales, a measuring tape, or a camera to track my progress with. I cant afford to buy a scales at the moment because I just moved (the process of which broke my camera) and are relatively flat broke. I know that my weight is approximately 61.3kg at the moment, so I'll take that as my starting measurement. And until I get a chance to go to the store and get a measuring tape I'm going to use a piece of string or something to mark my measurements on. And maybe I'll figure out how to use my webcam to take photos.

But regardless of that I should be able to notice a difference myself so that shouldn't present a major issue.

Anyway, yesterdays food- (was not healthy, but I couldn't make it to the store and there was nothing in the house)
- Stewed apple and cinnamon and brown sugar (700)
- Doritos (500)
- Fettucine alfredo and broccoli (500)
= 1700

No exercise unfortunately, god I hate exercising in winter because its too cold in the mornings, too dark at night, and who has the time to work out in the middle of the day.

Here's todays plan:
- Just right cereal (500)
- Snowpeas (100)
- Fettucine Alfredo (500) (I know these seem like low estimates for creamy pasta but they're tiny serves....I feel the need to clarify because I look at some peoples diaries, see they've put like 200 cals for a steak and chips or something, and cant help but think 'where the f**k are you getting these values from...you're kidding yourself')
- Raspberries and yoghurt (300)
= 1400

Also one 1/2 hour jog. I'm trying to do that HIIT shiz rather than just jog slowly for 1/2 hour so I was sprinting for like 20 seconds, then power walking for 40. Actually made it a lot less monotonous.

Also did 200 crunches and a tonne of squats. In 2 days I want to wear a skin tight (like, bodypaint resembling tight!) dress, so I want my butt to be perky with a capital 'p', and my stomach to be flat. Unfortunately I'm feeling a little bloated today, which means that in 2 days it will be full blown and I'll be up about 2kgs and a cup size and lucky to fit in the dress at all. Damn pill.
Anyway, gonna work extra hard for the next couple of days, try and keep the salt low, and hope I see results!
 
Ugh okay so yesterday was going so well, 1400 calories for the day and light exercise. The problem is that I usually eat all my food by 5 or 6 at the latest (not due to belief in some stupid 'calories weigh twice as much after 8pm' myth or anything, just a habit formed from wanting to get to the kitchen to make dinner before my housemates get to it and trash it), which is fine because I usually go to bed about 10pm. But last night I ate dinner at around 4pm, and because of a shock leadership challenge which saw Australia's Prime Minister ousted by morning I ended up staying up to watch the coverage till about 1am which made it about 9 hours since I last ate so I caved and had about 800 cals of desert. Dammit. I feel so gross going to bed with a full stomach.

Today: (much better)
Cereal - 500
Turkey, cranberry sauce and swiss cheese foccacia - 500
Stirfry veggies with sweet and sour sauce - 400
Mixed berry yoghurt- 200
= 1600

Went for a 1/2 hour jog too, I'm feeling less fit than I was even a month ago, its amazing how fast it fades.

Unfortunately I'm just as bloated as I thought I would be right now, dammit. I realllllly want to wear that dress tomorrow and I cannot do it with a gut! Actually I guess that probably makes it a good dress to track my mini-holidays-weight-loss-project with, because if I lose 2kgs as intended it should fit perfectly.

Anyway, I just wish I had a damn scales!!! So frustrating.
 
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