Elizab3th's Diary : 'Running Away From Fat'

Good Morning Liz! Hope you're having a great day so far! I can't wait to see your exercise for the day, you're really going for it! Great Job!
 
Venting - You Dont Have To Read!

I have never been in such a terrible mood - I usually am able to come onto this site bright and early in the morning - I love to hear from you guys and see how your day was, it's really motivating in the morning too... but today I just got an incredibly rude PM, and it was all because of a misunderstanding? I can't believe how rude people are out there. I went for a nice long walk after I read that because I was so angry, so hurt... and I almost got hit by 2 cars! And people don't even apologize when they know they've done something wrong like that, I mean it was they're fault because I was crossing the street and they turned into me.. but they flip out on me because it's my fault I'm in front of their car? IT WAS A WALKING LIGHT! What is wrong with people? Why don't people smile when you're walking down the street anymore? I walked through a busstop filled with people and they were all standing on the sidewalk and nobody moves to let you walk through them.. WHERE HAVE ALL THE KIND PEOPLE GONE? I try to be nice, I always do - that's my number one goal in life, is to be someone who's always smiling - always helping someone out... but I always get screwed over because of that! Why is it that bad things always happen to hard-working honet people? ALWAYS! My family.. people I've known.. it's as if those who really want to make a difference in life will always have obstacles in their way - rude people in their way - bad things happening... ... I feel like giving up on this. I feel like giving up on people. I feel like there's no point. I am always going to be stepped on no matter how hard I try. I try so damn hard to be good - I try so god damn hard to be someone people will like. Sometimes I feel like I just want to curl up in my bed and never leave... me and my dog - we'll cudddle together forever.
 
Hey Girl I Just Love And Dont Let People Upset You And I Tell Ya If People Are Rude Just Avoid Them But I Will Make This Clear You Are As Close To Me As Anybody Can Get With Motivating And Helping And Being Kind To Everybody I Dont Want Anyone Being Rude Or Upsetting You! I Will Not And Am Not Going To Stand For It! That Happened To A Lot Fo Others And They Left! This Forum Is Back To Its Old Self And I Tell Ya Now I Am Mad! I Am Going To Pm Ya!
 
I weight 154 so that's 12 lbs loss since March 1. I don't know what I'm going to eat today - we're pretty much out of groceries now and I only have enough to keep my dogs happy. It's so damn stressfull being a student. And this month is going to be hard because we spent all our money on the business(new truck, new trailer, etc.) so until we start making some money here which probably won't happen until the 30th I don't know what I'm going to do. I want to thank you guys for checking in on me this morning - I really appreciate it, you guys are the only people that care anymore - and that's sort of sad because I've only met you one month ago.. don't get me wrong you guys rock - I couldn't have done this without you!! I just wish I wasn't so lonely all day long when the boys go to work. All I have to do is my homework and exercise. I stopped talking to my old friends when I moved away from the school and now that I'm not working I just don't meet people anymore. This is so off topic.. I'm sorry - I couldn't even exercise this morning, I tried but nearly collapsed on the elliptycal because I'm so down. I hate days like this. I hate people that can be so rude. I hate being fat. I hate dieting. This isn't as exciting as I make it out to be .. I just fake it for the hell of it - to get myself going. God IM SO MAD. Sorry guys.
 
Liz great job on the loss. I'm sorry you're so lonely and sad but we are here from you. I'm not sure if you have a cell phone but if you want to PM your number I can text you and let you know I'm thinking of you :D
 
Ok Girlfriend Take Deep Breaths And Let It Go It Isnt Worth It We Love You And I Am Sure All Of The Others Will Agree! You A Wonderful Supportive Caring Person And We Think The World Of Ya So Dont Get Down! You Will Lose This Weight And You Will Do Good! You Are A Special Person And Dont Ever Forget That!
 
I Need To See If I Can Call Canada Free Like In The Usa And Then I Can Call You! I Am Going To Go Check At Cingular Page Right Now Lol!
 
Hey sweetie! I'm sorry you having to deal with some jerk in here but whatever they said to you was their opinion.. Which doesn't matter at all.. The only thing important right now is how great your doing, keeping your motivation up and staying focused!! I really understand what your going through in the money situation too.. we went from not having any bills at all to having a car payment, higher insurance, a motorcycle payment and a cell phone bill in less then a week.. I'm sure things will get better for both of us..Anyway I'm so proud of you and all of the weight you have lost while you have been here!!
 
Thanks Christina! We just started getting everything going so it's like all of a sudden - no money.. I can't go cold turkey! Haha.. And my cell phone, it's not like that bill isn't big enough now I need to get myself one without a broken screen!
Tina - that would be fun but I only have a cell phone, no land line until we're in our new place so I can't afford long distance! I wish I got free long distance... you guys and your Cingular - you have the best plans compared to ours!
Angela - just seeing your smile makes me smile! THanks but I need a new phone first!
I really feel 10x better though.. I jsut had to get it out.. it felt so good to do it too! You girls are tooo too kind and I just love ya for it.. I can't get down when I'm on here. I appreciate it soo much!
THANK YOU LADIES! :D:D:D
You really reminded me what matters and what doesn't!
Anyone want to meet in the chat room I'm on board there.
 
glad your feeling better and you rock!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
 
glad you feel better. venting definitely helps and we are all here to help you regardlessif you are happy or frustrated or both!!! hang in there. you are doing fabulous. 14 lbs!!!! wow - that is awesome...

keep your chin up - things will work out okay.
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Glad you're feeling better. Don't worry about rude people. They are not worth it. Be proud of yourself and who you are and how you treat others.
 
Hey Girlfriend! I hear you about being a lonely student stuck doing homework. That is all I seem to do lately too. Just know that things will get better and you won't be in school forever. I'm so tired of homework! Good for you for the exercise. Keep it up. Have a great day!
 
You guys rock double! I've found some food! Hahah - 2 eggs and 2 pc. toast for now - I'm going to have some V8 then *hopefully* the boys will be home and we could get some more groceries. Mmmm I added a bit of chilli peppers to my eggs - spicy! Whoa! Thanks everybody - bad morning.. could have been a bad day - but you guys made it AWESOME! :D I think that after they come home i WILL workout today - today is my cardio day so maybe later on I'll have more energy and I will just give 'er for 30 minutes atleast. Then I can sleep soundly tonight! Cheers ladies and gentlemen.. :)
 
HEy Elizab3th,
Glad to hear you are not as frusterated anymore. I hear you on the lonely part. I have nooooooooo friends here in texas. They say all military wifes are nice, la, la, la.........But in reality, not here on this base. So, chop it up with some people at your school......... You'll be fine. Guess what I'm doing :D ............. My ................HAPPY DANCE!!!!!! LOL!!!!!! Smile!!!!!!! you lost 2lbs. Keep it up girl.
 
Aw man, I feel bad that I wasn't online to chat with you :( I should get one of those laptops with a wireless connection so I can chat during class without getting caught :p

I'm glad though that you're feeling better! We all get those funky moods from time to time - its best to stomp them back down before they get really bad... once I was in a terrible mood for like three days and it wasn't even my TOM! I can't even remember what it was about in the first place, it was just one of those dumb things that seems monumentally important at the time, but once you stop and think about it, you feel a little worse for getting so upset over it.

Anywho, keep up the great work, I love reading your journal and all the great things you do!
 
I don't know what's wrong with me but I finished m glass of V8 about half an hour ago and I got sick all of a sudden and jsut threw it back up! My body's just like "nope! I'm tired of this crap"... I've got to lay down - good to hear from you beagle.. I have to come back later to talk though because I'm feelin' like a big bag of _____. :D Hey look an extra 200 cals for Saturday! (that's a glass of wine)
 
Oh man, that sounds terrible :( I find that eating a peice of bread and gingerale helps with my upset stomachs if you're still feeling really ick. Do you think maybe something was cooked bad? I don't think people throw up because they literally get "sick" of something, usually its because something was either wrong with you or wrong with what you ate. I hope whichever it is, its not too serious!
 
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